Beauty Revealed…

My mind that is! This second week went better than the first. I must admit. Those who start a transformation and stick to it 100% in the beginning good for you but I am very skeptical of people who don’t mention any cheat meals. I know that some are more disciplined than others but, come on…you know you ate that fatty sugar filled food yesterday LOL!

Anyway, this coming week I am opening my mind to the possibility of a full week strictly on plan without wavering. I had a donut this morning cause my boss insisted. I even told him I had a trainer and He said "Tell them to answer to me" LOL. So coupled with the fact that I do like donuts I gave in. But I only had one. Now I’m hating it cause I am thinking about the extra calories and the slower the progress everytime I waver. Opening my mind to true determination and getting over these weeks of withdrawals and hunger pains (cause my calorie intake has been dramatically reduced) is the toughest. However, I am in this to win this cause this belly is the biggest it’s ever been….YULK.

I love to take photography and have always loved the camera. However lately, I’ve been running away from the camera not cause I think I’m ugly but because I know where I could be and where I have been before. I’ve always had a confidence about me big or small but this time I’m feeling the emotional weight behind my physcial condition. I’m working 2 jobs and working my way through a mountain of debt. Home life is a little bit strained but I care not to really talk about it but it definitely is effecting me. Time management never has been my strong point. And adding the workouts to a 16hour workday with a 3 year daughter and household responsibilities magnifies this issue. So where do I go from here…

Well, with an open mind I am able to relax a little a know that being consistent will show results even if it’s later than sooner (and I ment to type it like that). Opening up my mind to a lifestyle change rather than just thinking about 12 weeks out will help me gain control over the feelings of failure or defeat. I want to see a significant pound lost this week but if I don’t I must beleive that it still will come if I stay faithful to the program given to me by my trainer.

My muscles are sore and some days I feel like I have no energy to lift a bottled water yet alone weights. I still need to get my physcial done and make sure I’m normal and there are no problems. Maybe I am just getting older but it never use to be this hard to weight train for me. I love the workouts but recovery is slow. My muscles are sore for days and as I press through the soreness and continue lifting the next work out day, guess what the pain starts all over again. Maybe my body is just getting use to working out again. I’m going to ask azi about that.

I’m thinking that this 3 week will be the one that gets me geaked up! I’m looking to feel the change, see the change on the scale and know that I on that way to that beautiful chocolate sexy body. Oh yeah I’m seating on the edge of my seat waiting or the day to go shopping for some sexy evening wear. I plan on flaunting it….tactfully of course.

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