Beauty Revealed…

Well here they are, my offical 2008 before pics. Looking at these pis has really made me think "what the heck….why did I let myself get this big again."

 I am going to really take head to the training tips I am getting. I have been checking out my trainers bodyspace page and man….I’m scared LOL. But shhhhhhh don’t tell him cause he might use that against me :D

I have gained so much weight but seeing these pics shows me just how much. WELL time to go getter like I have been claiming for months now. REALLY STRUCK ME HARD SEEING ME THIS BIG AGAIN BUT I AM OPTAMISTIC ABOUT THE AFTER PICTURES ;D

AND HERE GOES……

Well, I’m really excited. I’ve been sharing with my co-worker half the day that. Someone on here found it in ther heart to take out the time and help me reach my goals. I am so grateful and am going to adhere to all to show my gratidude. The accountability will be a big plus in my undisciplined lifestyle right now. I’m so excited that I cant wait to take my new before pics so I’m going to take them when I get off from work. Well, probably tonight whille i am at my other job. Then I’ll post them to my progress section and to this blog. Yeah Help is on the way…..!

I’ll try to be as honest as possible and take the pics without sucking in my enourmous gut… LOL

Well these pics are the last pics I have taken but I am about 30lbs heavier now. So use your imagination. I will take some to date pictures this weekend. And start this journey yet another time.

Well since I have gained so much weight. Mostly water because of all the carbs and salt I have been taking in. I need to take some new before pics.  I really am digging deep to use this site for help. Sometimes it can be a bit overwhelming because of so much information and so many different views here on bodybuilding.com. But I will try to take in as much as I can and sort through what will work for me. I said a while ago that I have lost weight before and I think my biggest motivation then was my husband pressuring me to stay at it. Now I have to find my own motivation and that has been the hardest part. Nothing I  have come up with has kept me on track so today I am praying for a clear conscise pointed reason to stay at it this time. My weight is spiraling out of control and I feel so heavy and nothing fits. It’s starting to get my attention LOL!

I need a laptop. Cause I want to post every temptation every victory everything related to me gaining a healthy fit body. So much is in my way and it’s been so easy to just grab a pack of twizzlers and ritzer cheese and cracker mini’s out of the vending machine at work (Which I just did). NOt to mention the chicken sandwich I had from Burger King today with Fries. I guess the only thing I am proud of is the fact that I stopped all the calorie drinks and I only drin water or tea. But that’s not going to alone get this body of mind in shape. Unfortunately I have to be honest and post my current weight which is so so so shameful. But alot of it is water weight that I am holding. I think because I tried some stupid prescription drugs and a water pill that now my body is all out of wack. I didn’t stay on them but for like a week and stopped cause I didn’t like how I felt on them. I did better just working out like crazy and using meal replacements. God help me I feel like I’m slipping away here and I’ll look like a big fat balloon in a minute. Gogetter is tired of Going what the heck happen to me!