Beauty Revealed…

This week well, I did pretty good.  I struggled through the work outs cause they where new for me. But I made it cause I don’t want to gain another 1lb of fat ever again! LOL

The nutrition fell off on Thursday at my Uncle’s funeral. My sister catered the dinner afterwards and I gave in to all that yummy stuff she made. But get this I didn’t do to bad it’s just that it wasn’t part of what my trainers gave me to eat. I had mixed pasta salad, a dinner roll, stringed beans, baked chicken and barbaque meatballs….ok I had a piece of lemon cake too. I had shakes the rest of the day and that morning because I was running around town trying to buy something to wear. All my dress clothes are size 8 and 10. AND I AM LIKE A 16 NOW (WTH…that stands for what the heck )

Anyway I can’t wait to weigh in. Really I can’t wait until I start seeing the results. I’m taking pics tonight but I’m going to take more on monday. Speaking of Monday my mom is inviting the family over for the holiday. You know what that means….MORE FOOD!

 NOW, I Know I should stick it out and stay on the nutrition plan from my trainers but I’ll be honest. NOT GONNA HAPPEN this will be my last holiday cheat PROMISE! Ok so we’re off on a better start. I hope to have an even better report for next week. 

That designer whey…it taste ok, but it does give me energy so I really like it because of that. I’ve been taking the wrong stuff man….that’s the benefit of having a trainer cause what you don’t know they do and they’ll help you get to your goal if you stay committed.  

LOOK OUT…GO GETTER IS COMING YOUR WAY! SHOWING AT A THEATRE NEAR YOU. lol 

Hey all, I’m off to a great start this week thanks to my two wonderful trainers Azi and Kat. The training is unique to me because I am use to following a video. Be it Taebo or Cathe.com strength training vids. I actually have to count my own sets, and max out using my own point of failure (not the vids )

I do feel this will shake up my body a bit since it’s probably use to my same ole routine. I’m so excited because I stuck to plan all day yesterday and today. I picked healthy alternatives that I know I like. Tuna, turkey etc etc. I got my nutrition plan this morning and will start that on Wednesday. It may be a challege for me because the training and the nutrition is new to me. I’m going to have to grin and bare it cause I’m looking to be the next 12 week transformation success! I am transforming my mind as well cause as long as I think I can’t I won’t but if I believe and speak and think I can I will. Thats the road I want to stay on.

I’m motivated and determined this week. It’s only week one so I have to cling to the momentum. I’m hoping to see some significant water loss and 2 to 3 lbs of fat this week. Seeing that will definitely keep me motivated for the next weekly cycle. I’m starting to look at it week by week now also. This helps me not focus so much on how far I am from my goal.

Ironically I had a death in the family (my uncle) this saturday so I thought I would be off plan for this week. But there this determination starting to boil up inside me. Most likely from hearing and reading the encouraging and motivating words from my trainers. Kat’s real nice and definitely knows what I am going through. And Azi, well…Azi’s up on it. Not going to let me miss a beat and being a good trainee is first and foremore in my mind anyway…almost more than losing the weight itself. LOL 

 I mean who wants to disappoint there trainers

week 1 Pictures to be posted tonight….here we go!

"NOW HEAR THIS NACRISSA’S OLD BODY….THIS IS HEALTH AND TOTAL FITNESS TALKING TO YOU RIGHT NOW. I GOT A PERSONAL MESSAGE FOR YOU YOU…." 

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"THAT’S RIGHT READY OR NOT I WILL FIND YOU AND MAKE YOU WANT ME!""THAT’S RIGHT I’M GOING TO FIND YOU AND TAKE IT SLOWLY…" "Sneaking up on you like a thief in the night taking away all your laziness and bad eating habbits and slowly embedding into you the mindset of a fitness freak! And no you can’t hide cause i’m all around you and inside you screaming to get out. I am taking over. I will shrink up your fat cells and tone out your sexy girly muscles until you get to the point of posting all kinds of beautiful pics on bodyspace that shows I RULE. You’ll be lighter on your feet and feeling refreshed and stronger each day. Yes,me, Health and Total Fitness is taking over your mind. Your body has no choice but to follow."

 Derived from the Latin gluttire, meaning to gulp down or swallow, gluttony is the over-indulgence and over-consumption of anything to the point of waste. In the Christian religions, it is considered a sin because of the excessive desire for food, or its withholding from the needy…….OK I AM REPENTING THIS WEEK….

 So I had all kinds of crap still this week. What in the world! All that focus blab I was doing. And what…still not eating clean. On top of the eating like a GLUTTON! No need to get down though cause I realize how I got caught up. It’s was the lack of preparation….

Each day I work no less than 16hrs with my two jobs combined. You would think I’d pack my lunches and be ready to take on the task of super woman for the week. However the criptonite (junk food) seem to be the most convenient food as I only had my shake maker and some protein paks in my lunch box. Whos going to drink protein shakes all day. No wonder  I was tempted and gave in. I had nothing healthy to fill me up….nothing that was beneficial to my goals to help me fight the cakes and cookies, candy and sweets. On top of that I gave into the fast food band wagon this week. But fear not repentance has come and I am ready to regain myself control through preparation.

Talking to my trainer today helped alot. I was able to use what was shared to evaluate my failures and channel my emotions and junkie cravings through prior preparation of the weeks means. So this is my focus for the coming week. PREP PREP PREP PREP! I’m sure that will make a difference. Otherwise I’ve got a lot explaining to do before the Creator can you picture it.LOL

“Oh yeah God….about that Gluttony thing. Can we work something out?”

Ok, so I am so ready to go get some little ceasars, no wait and some Ms. Fields cookies and wait. Anything that taste good. (so I think). I am really struggling cause these people up in here eat all kinds of junk and unclean foods. It’s lunch time and man I am seriously irritated. God I know falling away right now would be the worst oh God please help me. What can I eat that’s healthy and taste good. I mean what, a salad? Man what I got to learn about this nutrition thing cause I am so dying up in here. Maybe I’ll go to meijers and buy something healthy. Oh God I feel so deprived right now. I’m just really pissed. This is the part I don’t like about transformation. I am so not feeling the clean food but what choice do I have. I mean I actually feel like crying. Ok so I’ve got to find some clean foods that taste good or just suck it up cause nothing clean will probably taste good to me this first week. I have to get through this today. I can’t keep giving in to cravings. Man Man Man Man! I feel like hitting somebody lOL really I do. Is Chinese fatting? I mean I got to get somethiing. I made a salad for lunch but it’s so not calling my name. What in the world. I just want to go and crawl into a corner. But I’m a work and that’s not about to happen. It was better when I was home in the day time. At least I could go sleep the temptations/cravings off. Oh boy!

Well,

Today is the beginning of a new nutritional life for me. I haven’t received my eating plan yet from my trainer but I am committed to let go of the "crap" and eat "clean" the best I know how. I tried all weekend but I wasn’t psyched up enough and kept eating what I wanted. I’ve been reading alot lately on this site and alot of my books (Body for Life, Burn the Fat Feed the Muscle, Diet Mind, etc. etc.) And I really did forget how important nutrition is. I also failed to remember that bad nutrition can cause major health problems. I guess this came to mind because it seems like I have been holding alot of water weight. More than I usually do. I’m hoping those trials of diet pills and daily does of 5hour energy shots to stay woke at work hasn’t cause me any internal issues. I’m going to schedule a full physical and make sure. I did go to the OBGYN a week ago and everything seem to be cool (BP, Insulin, etc etc) But why have I put on so much weight in the last 3 months…water weight at that. I mean when I started working I was 189lbs in May. Now it’s August and I am tipping the scale at 221. 30lbs in 3 months? Anyway. This week will tell because I am going to stand strong this week. It’s not going to be easy because I go through some kind of withdrawal like a dope fein or nicotine addict. It’s not my imagination it’s real. I get real cranky coming off the sweets and the breads and the fast foods and the vending machine crap. I mean, I struggled real hard this morning not to stop at dunkin donuts or mcdonald to get me a breakfast sandwich. Instead   when I got to work I made my protein shake, took my vitamins and said NO TO CRAVINGS! I’m good after the first week so please, all who read this please please drop some encouraging words. The last time I went through this I slept alot because I was so tempted. But now that I work 80 hours a week that’s not an option. Bodyspace will be my place of regrouping when I am getting through these urges.

On another note the crossover in exercise has been excellent. I never had a problem with working out once I got started. I love working out! It feels so good even when it hurts. And to know that you are helping your body sure motivates me. I gain muscle easy too so this part of the transformation comes natural. However knowing what to do specifically to get the results I’m looking for is what I am not knowledgable in. Thats what Azifukared is going to help me with.

Peace Out…

8:00 AM  Fruitein Protein Shake  
              Cal 110  Fat 0 Carbs 13   Protein 13

10:00AM McDonalds Saugage Egg and Cheese McMuffin, Hashbrown)   
              Cal 450 Fat 27 Carbs 30  Protein 21
              Cal 150 Fat 9   Carbs 15  Protein 1

12:30PM Wheat Thins 
              Cal 230  Fat 9  Carbs 35  Protein 3

AAAAAAAHHHH MAN! I JUST EAT MCDONALDS WHAT THE HECK? i’LL BURN IT ON THE TREAD….

Ok, so this morning. Something came over me. Something big. Something that I couldn’t shake. It was an overwhelming feeling. Kinda like when you’re sitting in a class or group setting and you know you have the right answer. You raise your hand. The teacher or leader is scoping the room. And your at the edge of your seat saying to yourself (with the tricep of your raised hand about to give from waiting) "I know I know I Know it’s….."

It’s simple…"Get started right now". Why are you waiting for monday? Why are you waiting for a plan from your trainer? Why are you sitting here still eating crap when all you have to do is put down the pack of twizzlers (yes it’s morning but I work the night shift so I get the munchies around 4:00a.m.) and pick up a banna or my shake mix that I carry with me all the time and don’t use. Basically I get a swift kick in the but mentally and was motivated to work out for my lunch break. I then had my protein shake for breakfast. Now when I do get that plan from Azi I will be already mentally there. Yeah for me! 

I guess I had been binging and eating crap for so long that the minute I even thought about clean eating I cringed LOL  But coming back on bodyspace and viewing profiles has made a huge difference in my mental thought. I am going to stick around this time cause I see the value of support….it’s priceless.

I would have more sympathy for me if I grew up as an overweight child but the truth is I didn’t. I’m really feeling this in shape thing again and seeing my cute childhood pictures ironically help me say "you were not meant to look flabby and out of shape" but "cute and cuddly" just like when i was a child…