Beauty Revealed…

Oh my, my emotions are playing tricks on me. Change in life is never easy and it certainly fits the cliche when you’re going through a seperation soon to be divorce. I have been alot better lately since I started working out again. I took a whole year to get back to the gym consistently and let me tell you I am glad I did. But, wow these feelings of sadness just gets to me sometimes. Fear of starting over. The isolation I feel is wicked. I have to regain that single mindset that Crisha’s got to take care of Crisha and that has been a down-upward battle. Not to mention my 4yr old who’s depending on me. I just had to tell myself today, "Girl get a grip." So much pressures and responsablilities as a single mom with an average job. Well I know things will work out for me and I just have to keep mentally focused on the end result, a better me overall.

In spite of the emotional challenges I am facing right now I’m happy to share that I am down 6lbs from my highest weight of 250. The walking and cardio at the gym I have been doing is finally working. I’m still inconsistent with my nutrition but better than I was before. My eating habits tend to still be guided by how I am feeling each day. I know each day will get better but I do miss being that beautiful wife and family. But, see now that people change and life happens. Something I have to realize I don’t have any control over. I’m just going to really have to get a grip and take control of my thoughts and focus points.

Oh my, my emotions are playing tricks on me. Change in life is never easy and it certainly fits the cliche when you’re going through a seperation soon to be divorce. I have been alot better lately since I started working out again. I took a whole year to get back to the gym consistently and let me tell you I am glad I did. But, wow these feelings of sadness just gets to me sometimes. Fear of starting over. The isolation I feel is wicked. I have to regain that single mindset that Crisha’s got to take care of Crisha and that has been a down-upward battle. Not to mention my 4yr old who’s depending on me. I just had to tell myself today, "Girl get a grip." So much pressures and responsablilities as a single mom with an average job. Well I know things will work out for me and I just have to keep mentally focused on the end result, a better me overall.

In spite of the emotional challenges I am facing right now I’m happy to share that I am down 6lbs from my highest weight of 250. The walking and cardio at the gym I have been doing is finally working. I’m still inconsistent with my nutrition but better than I was before. My eating habits tend to still be guided by how I am feeling each day. I know each day will get better but I do miss being that beautiful wife and family. But, see now that people change and life happens. Something I have to realize I don’t have any control over. I’m just going to really have to get a grip and take control of my thoughts and focus points.

Ok so I was going through the supersite and I came across this 12 week video trainer by bodybuilding.com. I read through it and said ok I’m going to use this for motivation and then maybe I can be consistent and show some type of progress by summer. Well! Little did I know taking progress pics would change my entire thinking around. Now I have taken progress pics before but wow! I have never look this bad and out of shape. Its so bad that I don’t even want to put these pictures up. It’s to embarassing. However, with my company picnic in mind I will be able to put them up in about 8 weeks along with new pics of me looking better. I just can’t go out like that by posting them now with no progress pics to show improvement. I’ve always had cursves but these latest pics….well… everything’s just ALL TOGETHER! lol

I’m about to do my cardio and then weight train this evening. But cardio will be my focus cause I got too much bodyfat….just waaaaaay to much!

Why do I drift from what I know will help me achieve? Everytime I come to bodyspace I am so motivated and as long as I keep contact I stay motivated. But when I don’t log in and when I fall off on my tracking I fall off on just about everything. Why is consistency the biggest hurdle I have. I mean. I’m not confused about what to eat, how to work out, etc. etc.  But, consistency I have failed over and over. I’ve read article after article and I know all the pep talk but internalizing it for myself has yet to happen. Well of course I am motivated again. You are aware of this because I am typing this entry.

Mmmm, what would happend if I became consistant. What would happen if I didn’t let the down hills in life knock me off my game. I’m not the only one suffering from this. Millions are and thats why Millions are out of shape and unhealthy. I need to become apart of the elite. But I’ve said that before. Know stay tuned to see if I can cross that road…

Hi all,

I finally made it back on bodyspace. I’ve been through some testing times lately. Medical issues, seperation, and car trouble and financial setbacks. Well, none are any excuse for me to fail. As a matter of fact. All are reasons for me to succeed. Here’s why…

First, my medical issues are pretty much because of my weight. I am border line when it comes to High Blood pressure. The fluid around my heart is a result of the weight and excess water I’m retaining. Not to mention I  feel so sluggish and out of breath have the time. Second, what better way to handle a seperation than to but more time into taking care of yourself instead of always talking care of others. For 6 years my focus was my marriage and making it work. Unfortunately at any cost…which back fired. So now its back to square one but this time I’m not looking for a man I’ll looking for happiness within myself. Let’s see car trouble and financial setbacks. Well I don’t really see any direct relationship to me losing weight unless I enter some time of challenge that will get me a car and some money (laughing). Anyway, the point is that this is never been a better time to focus on my health and my mental well being. Not to mention the after effects of looking good on the outside. You tend to feel better on the inside. And the biggest thing is I don’t want to have to start taking a whole but of medicines, heck I’m only 32! So this time I have decided to be reasonable. I have decided to dedicate this whole year to my transformation. I know to some that’s normal but for me, I am use to setting goals like 30 days 90 days…crap like that and always failing. This is actually going to be hard but doable. I am focused on the long term this time. I hope this difference in attitude will get me to my goal of good health good looks and a great attitude and outlook to go with them. So its good to be back. I’ll be writing every Sunday, hope to hear from some of my dear bodyspace friends and all new members I welcome you and send my support for all your goals. Oh, and a special thanks to azi  He’s kepted in touch with me through my medical situation and I appreciate that. You don’t find that often with people you meet online but Azi thanks and I appreciate you getting me started on the right track nutritionally and physically.

Keep at it, Cause I am…..!

Crisha

Its been 3 weeks since I started my nutritian and exercise plan with my trainer. I have had a few bumbs and detours during this time but I can say I have made some progress. My weigh in today is 221. I have lost a total of 8lbs and so that’s around 3lbs a week give or take. It didn’t come off weekly but the point is that is did come off. But the greater thing is my body is feeling so much better from the training. I forgot how good it felt to tear up those muscles and rebuild them. I feel stronger, healthier and more vibrant. I can take on the world! At least I  believe I can.  

What’s going to put me over the top and in super fat burning mode is to actually follow the diet portion to a T. I have to admit, getting through 7 days of "To the T" dieting is just not happening with me. Which most people won’t on here for image sake….but anyway that’s another story. But with that said, here go the plus for me this week. I’m only working one job now as a result of a temporary break from the day shift position. So I can actually work eat and sleep like a normal person. I plan on hitting it hard at the gym this week. The diet, well I think this week is going to help and not to mention I got money riding on my weightloss efforts and a few other things. But over all I feel great about my progress. 

Speaking of progress I have to take some pics. I’ve been so busy doing "Life stuff" that im now a couple weeks shy of my progress pics. But don’t worry I have some up most likely my 6 week because it should be a noticeable difference by then. these weekly pics to me are not showing the progress and I’d like to take the next pic showing a decent change in my figure.

So I’ll holla at you all then cause I’ll be up and at ‘em! Doing my thang to make this body tight. Yeah! being the Gogetter I claim to be…

 Until then….make that body tight! Crisha.  

My mind that is! This second week went better than the first. I must admit. Those who start a transformation and stick to it 100% in the beginning good for you but I am very skeptical of people who don’t mention any cheat meals. I know that some are more disciplined than others but, come on…you know you ate that fatty sugar filled food yesterday LOL!

Anyway, this coming week I am opening my mind to the possibility of a full week strictly on plan without wavering. I had a donut this morning cause my boss insisted. I even told him I had a trainer and He said "Tell them to answer to me" LOL. So coupled with the fact that I do like donuts I gave in. But I only had one. Now I’m hating it cause I am thinking about the extra calories and the slower the progress everytime I waver. Opening my mind to true determination and getting over these weeks of withdrawals and hunger pains (cause my calorie intake has been dramatically reduced) is the toughest. However, I am in this to win this cause this belly is the biggest it’s ever been….YULK.

I love to take photography and have always loved the camera. However lately, I’ve been running away from the camera not cause I think I’m ugly but because I know where I could be and where I have been before. I’ve always had a confidence about me big or small but this time I’m feeling the emotional weight behind my physcial condition. I’m working 2 jobs and working my way through a mountain of debt. Home life is a little bit strained but I care not to really talk about it but it definitely is effecting me. Time management never has been my strong point. And adding the workouts to a 16hour workday with a 3 year daughter and household responsibilities magnifies this issue. So where do I go from here…

Well, with an open mind I am able to relax a little a know that being consistent will show results even if it’s later than sooner (and I ment to type it like that). Opening up my mind to a lifestyle change rather than just thinking about 12 weeks out will help me gain control over the feelings of failure or defeat. I want to see a significant pound lost this week but if I don’t I must beleive that it still will come if I stay faithful to the program given to me by my trainer.

My muscles are sore and some days I feel like I have no energy to lift a bottled water yet alone weights. I still need to get my physcial done and make sure I’m normal and there are no problems. Maybe I am just getting older but it never use to be this hard to weight train for me. I love the workouts but recovery is slow. My muscles are sore for days and as I press through the soreness and continue lifting the next work out day, guess what the pain starts all over again. Maybe my body is just getting use to working out again. I’m going to ask azi about that.

I’m thinking that this 3 week will be the one that gets me geaked up! I’m looking to feel the change, see the change on the scale and know that I on that way to that beautiful chocolate sexy body. Oh yeah I’m seating on the edge of my seat waiting or the day to go shopping for some sexy evening wear. I plan on flaunting it….tactfully of course.

This week well, I did pretty good.  I struggled through the work outs cause they where new for me. But I made it cause I don’t want to gain another 1lb of fat ever again! LOL

The nutrition fell off on Thursday at my Uncle’s funeral. My sister catered the dinner afterwards and I gave in to all that yummy stuff she made. But get this I didn’t do to bad it’s just that it wasn’t part of what my trainers gave me to eat. I had mixed pasta salad, a dinner roll, stringed beans, baked chicken and barbaque meatballs….ok I had a piece of lemon cake too. I had shakes the rest of the day and that morning because I was running around town trying to buy something to wear. All my dress clothes are size 8 and 10. AND I AM LIKE A 16 NOW (WTH…that stands for what the heck )

Anyway I can’t wait to weigh in. Really I can’t wait until I start seeing the results. I’m taking pics tonight but I’m going to take more on monday. Speaking of Monday my mom is inviting the family over for the holiday. You know what that means….MORE FOOD!

 NOW, I Know I should stick it out and stay on the nutrition plan from my trainers but I’ll be honest. NOT GONNA HAPPEN this will be my last holiday cheat PROMISE! Ok so we’re off on a better start. I hope to have an even better report for next week. 

That designer whey…it taste ok, but it does give me energy so I really like it because of that. I’ve been taking the wrong stuff man….that’s the benefit of having a trainer cause what you don’t know they do and they’ll help you get to your goal if you stay committed.  

LOOK OUT…GO GETTER IS COMING YOUR WAY! SHOWING AT A THEATRE NEAR YOU. lol 

Hey all, I’m off to a great start this week thanks to my two wonderful trainers Azi and Kat. The training is unique to me because I am use to following a video. Be it Taebo or Cathe.com strength training vids. I actually have to count my own sets, and max out using my own point of failure (not the vids )

I do feel this will shake up my body a bit since it’s probably use to my same ole routine. I’m so excited because I stuck to plan all day yesterday and today. I picked healthy alternatives that I know I like. Tuna, turkey etc etc. I got my nutrition plan this morning and will start that on Wednesday. It may be a challege for me because the training and the nutrition is new to me. I’m going to have to grin and bare it cause I’m looking to be the next 12 week transformation success! I am transforming my mind as well cause as long as I think I can’t I won’t but if I believe and speak and think I can I will. Thats the road I want to stay on.

I’m motivated and determined this week. It’s only week one so I have to cling to the momentum. I’m hoping to see some significant water loss and 2 to 3 lbs of fat this week. Seeing that will definitely keep me motivated for the next weekly cycle. I’m starting to look at it week by week now also. This helps me not focus so much on how far I am from my goal.

Ironically I had a death in the family (my uncle) this saturday so I thought I would be off plan for this week. But there this determination starting to boil up inside me. Most likely from hearing and reading the encouraging and motivating words from my trainers. Kat’s real nice and definitely knows what I am going through. And Azi, well…Azi’s up on it. Not going to let me miss a beat and being a good trainee is first and foremore in my mind anyway…almost more than losing the weight itself. LOL 

 I mean who wants to disappoint there trainers

week 1 Pictures to be posted tonight….here we go!

"NOW HEAR THIS NACRISSA’S OLD BODY….THIS IS HEALTH AND TOTAL FITNESS TALKING TO YOU RIGHT NOW. I GOT A PERSONAL MESSAGE FOR YOU YOU…." 

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"THAT’S RIGHT READY OR NOT I WILL FIND YOU AND MAKE YOU WANT ME!""THAT’S RIGHT I’M GOING TO FIND YOU AND TAKE IT SLOWLY…" "Sneaking up on you like a thief in the night taking away all your laziness and bad eating habbits and slowly embedding into you the mindset of a fitness freak! And no you can’t hide cause i’m all around you and inside you screaming to get out. I am taking over. I will shrink up your fat cells and tone out your sexy girly muscles until you get to the point of posting all kinds of beautiful pics on bodyspace that shows I RULE. You’ll be lighter on your feet and feeling refreshed and stronger each day. Yes,me, Health and Total Fitness is taking over your mind. Your body has no choice but to follow."