GermanyMarine’s BodyBlog

There are days when I just get crazy, yesterday was one of those days.  I am sure it was because my motivation as way low and I posted a Blog about it and several people responded, this gave me a lot of motivation so thanks for that and "Nic" you are the sh-t…So yesterday I hit a 4 mile run in the morning, then at lunch hit 20 minutes on the Elliptical to warm up, curshed legs and chest (back to sets of 225lbs), then hit the pool after work for a 500 meter swim.  Yeah I was wasted, at the end of the day I hit the rack at 9pm and slept until 0615 and it was a sound sleep.  So today I have arms, i skipped the cardio this morning but I have Thai boxing tonight so I will get cardio then for sure.  Sometimes it feels good to kill, the bad part is I can’t do that all the time, it sucks getting old;)  

Sometimes I wonder who really cares and who is just on BB to show off.  I always message people trying to give words of encouragement or checking on folks after a weekend etc…However I only get one person who seems to care enough to write back (Thanks Jen).  Now I know I am not the most beastly guy out there, but I am in decent shape, yes I am a tuff guy and yes I have fought 7 times in a cage (or ring) as an MMA fighter as well I have way to many boxing matches to try to remember.  However I still find myself in need of some motivation or really someone to take an interest in how I am doing physically.  Truthfully I have been hitting a downslide, now I am not sure if it is due to personel issues a lack of a solid partner or what but it is really getting to me and I am having a harder and harder time staying focused on the diet and now even on training.  I am not sure what is going on with me, maybe I need a new goal.  Not being able to compete (fight) anymore has really set me back I am sure.  I don’t know, however I do know that it does bother me that I seem to care a lot more about people on here than they care about me maybe if I finally get rid of the luv handles and get teh 8 back people will care more, but how shallow is that.  I don’t know, maybe I am just having one of those days.  I hope everyone else is keeping there motivation up there.

Well I had to see the doctor again this week being I am still tender for my butchered vascetomy, turns out they could not finish (because the military doctor was a dumb ass) but they might have destroyed my left tube anyway in there attempts to finish.  Well that being said I am not going to have another surgery for a bit so it is time to re focus and get my motivation back to a clean diet, cut the drinking/partying and work to get back into fighting shape.  I am not as young as I used to be but I would like to rock the cage a few more times.  It is more of a rush than I can even explain..Everyone needs a passion, but these days (being in Germany) I feel it is going to be a real challenge to keep the diet clean without the partying.  I am going to need strong training partners and good training sessions planned to keep me focused and motivated.  Lets hope things work out for the best…

Well I had to see the doctor again this week being I am still tender for my butchered vascetomy, turns out they could not finish (because the military doctor was a dumb ass) but they might have destroyed my left tube anyway in there attempts to finish.  Well that being said I am not going to have another surgery for a bit so it is time to re focus and get my motivation back to a clean diet, cut the drinking/partying and work to get back into fighting shape.  I am not as young as I used to be but I would like to rock the cage a few more times.  It is more of a rush than I can even explain..Everyone needs a passion, but these days (being in Germany) I feel it is going to be a real challenge to keep the diet clean without the partying.  I am going to need strong training partners and good training sessions planned to keep me focused and motivated.  Lets hope things work out for the best…