Gerardo DeLeon’s BodyBlog

I wonder how many bodybuilders owe their success to being tormented at a young age. Putting on them extra plates in the gym, blasting out reps grunting like a madman thinking of your past.  Or hell, just someone that just pissed you off royally today. I can’t help it but think these thoughts, or put negative ones in my head to enrage me enough to wanna punch a hole in my f*cking office when I throw my iron.  Told some people, freinds I guess, of my technique before while and before I lift. They said let it go, that I’m crazy, it will eventually eat me up inside. Sometimes I want to, and most of the time I welcome it cause I know I will have a killer workout. F*ck happy thoughts while lifting, as long as I can control my hate, I can use it to my advantage. I can’t help but worry how this will affect my family in the long run, how it can affect me If I dwell on things from the past and use them as pure fuel.  I can’t let it leak out from my weight lifting, Ive seen that sh*t happen, f*ck… mabe I am crazy