Gemstone’s BodyBlog

So I just came back from the Gyne and of course the first thing they is weigh your body. This was my annual, so they assistant looked at my chart and started the scale at the weight I was last year (190). Well, to my disgust, my weight has ballooned to 220. This is scary. I feel like I am out of control, I mean how come I can’t control what goes into my mouth? What’s so hard about that. I am asking God for strength, because I am powerless over this thing. I really need energy, drive, endurance, the passion to get through this when I am tired and the strength to not eat when I am stressed out. Working full time and going to school full time is allot, but I have to do it. More importantly I have to get healthy for myself. My knees crackle and my damn clothes don’t fit anymore. Give me strength Lord.

Can somebody kick me in my butt! I am just turning into somebody I don’t want to be. I better make some major changes before I make it harder for myself. I am on my way to work this morning and just checking things out real quick. I need a Marzia Prince or somebody…… )

That’s what I am doing right now. I am optimistic, staying positive, especially when I see all the trimmed and toned ladies on this site. I am like damn, when am I going to get my act together? Why is it such a battle for me? Okay, I know I can do allot a home, but I would much prefer a gym. I just found out about Fitness 19, but of course; they don’t have one in my area. The other places are not convient as far as location and the cost isn’t too economical either. I’M STILL POSITIVE PEOPLE!!

I’ve noticed that many members have left me ecouraging messages to keep a sista going. THANK YOU ALL! Even the one about not losing the booty but tightening up the waste, I appreciate that. I’m staying positive right now so I won’t say that I went to Pittsburgh over Labor Day Weekend and ate at more than a couple restaurants (I know ya’ll, don’t say it). I had a great time though, but winter is soon approaching and I don’t want to get in that hibernation mode of slump and frump. I’ll keep focusing on heading in the right direction.

Thank you all!

I am excited that I finally have home service. For so long I had been using my work computer to post and things (low key). Well now I don’t have to sneak around, although I’m at work right now. Im a bad girl :0) Anywho, I plan on getting things back on track and posting more pics. Unfortunately all of pics were deleted from my computer mistakenly by my computer geek friend. He feels awful about it. I learned a great lesson: Always back up your information. Especially if its important to you.

Okay I may be late on this, but after seeing her video series on BB.com I am like OMG. She is intense, energetic, focused, inspiriing, and truly exemplifies fitness to me. Now, I already knew about her for some time now from my Oxygen Mags, but she is really blowing up. She is crazy on American Gladiators and to see her in action more so behind the scenes just does it for me. I’m pumping her up I know, but I was impressed. I think I’ve found my new motivation. Big ups Val!! Midwestern gal.

Well, guess what people. I’ve gained some pounds. I am pissed. I put on my suit for work today and I am pretty uncomfortable in it to say the least. I have wasted my money paying for an online program that I haven’t even been doing. How dumb is that? Anyway, I’m sick wit it. I just don’t know what it will take for me to get that boast of energy I need to stay consistent with this. I thought that by paying this money out, I would feel more obligation to get the results, but I see I need more than that. Lord, knows I don’t have it like that to be putting out dollars you know. I keep looking at all these fit and fabulous women on this site and I just know that it’s a 90 day workout away, yet it seems so far. Well people, I haven’t fully put down my weights, nor have I completely given up my goal and dream of competing one day. I just have to give more of myself and demand everything within myself to do this. Talk later…….

I am not where I should be but I am not giving up. My dreams will be made a reality and I will compete by next year. Things have been going haywire with my engagement, and I’ve been pretty stressed. So my motivation is not there, when it should be the opposite. I want to make the stress push me even more and not drive me to eat or drink that glass of wine. Wow, this thing is such a challenge, but I love those. I haven’t posted a new pics or new stats or anything as you know. Which kind of pisses me off b/c I am so critical of myself when it comes to following through with things. Anyway, I’ll be back. Don’t under estimate the Gem.

I haven’t been consistent, but I am not quitting by no means. I have some things lined up and I wanted to just post a little note. I’m in the process of getting internet at home and just getting set up for online training. I’ll stay posted.

Things have been coming along. Slowly but surely, I’m starting to see some changes, but I think my little sweets and cheats are causing my progress to be hindered. I am going to try to go hard core with my clean eating. I am going to take more pics this weekend, but I know that I have to be patient. I can’t really say that I have lost any inches. I need to really focus on the cardio to burn the fat aroung my legs and thighs.

 I am seriously thinking about the SOS girls again, because I don’t think that I can do it the first time on my own. I may not be eating enough, or eating too much. Also, I probably need a better at home workout plan. We shall see. With my wedding a few months aways, money is being pinched. The cost of supplements and gas is like CRAZY!!!. At this point, I am willing to budget things out for my appearance and health.