A Peek into the Mind of GeminiJedi

I’m now one wisdom tooth less wise LOL  Actually I am MUCH happier to have it gone and NOT tearing up my mouth and now hopefully the other two won’t bother me nearly as bad as this one.  Why didn’t I wait until after the show?  It was SO bad that I cried during several workouts over the last couple weeks because my jaw/face/head was KILLING me from the pressure.  So here I am, 14 days out from show, biting on gauze some more.  I really don’t feel that bad, but it has only been about 6 hours.  Definitely going to keep the diet as on as I can.  Thankfully most of my food is soft, except for the meat but I will try and deal with that.  I don’t think it will be too bad.  I still have half of my face that is good, so I can use that, right?  I will rest today, and try to do a bit of cardio tomorrow, maybe do a half day at work on Monday and see how some lighter weight/higher reps treat me.  I’m so freaking close!!

In the spirit of the meeting that I have to go to for work this afternoon, I leave you with this.

I have been dieting for a while (ok, minus a few days of "oops" here and there) and continuously slimming down, and my strength had been increasing.  Most of my sets this week have increased weights from last, or if I didn’t bump weight I had more reps or better form.  I’m not complaining, just slightly baffled.  LOVING it though, and it gets me SUPER excited for the off-season

I don’t like fortune cookies, but I like the fortunes inside.  Today’s cookie (not like I get a daily fortune cookie, I just happened to today) was excellent.  The only way it could have been better was if it had come last week.  Anyways, today’s cookie said "Even the toughest of days have bright spots, just do your best" and on the back was the "learn chinese: Hopeful "yao xe waon."  It TOTALLY brought a smile to my face, and I think I’m going to plaster it somewhere I will see it CONSTANTLY.

OH!  Had my rhinestone consultation today for my suit LOL  It went very well, and I am very happy!   About half of the cost of my 1 piece, expandable (aka I can add more to it in the future) and going to be SUPER pretty!!  It’s all purples and some clear crystals, and it’s got diamond patterns on front and back of the bottoms, and on the top and inside of the cups to enhance my "cleavage" LOL  There will be a few little stones connecting the diamonds on the cups, and going up the straps, and going up the hips.  They won’t go all the way around until I know how the stage lighting treats me.  I guess it can have a tendency to cut girls in half visually if they’re not built for it.  We’ll find out!  OMG I can’t wait to get them!!!  2 weeks from yesterday and they will be mine

Ok,  had to get another blog up because when the page loads all I get is the scary kid’s face and it’s creeping me out LOL

I get to decide on my rhinestones tomorrow!   I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited about that!  Also nervous as to the damage to my bank account   Oh well.  C’est la vie, and I’m pretty sure my hockey gear cost just about as much if not more, so what am I complaining about?  Right.  The fact that there’s like 8 pieces of equipment to buy (most in pairs) for skaters, a couple more for goalies, instead of 3 for figure LOL  Overall I’m excited, so I guess that’s good.  I’m going to go with it.  I may just seclude myself from everything else, though, so I don’t psyche myself out and go crazy and decide I can’t do this again.  I definitely need more sun so I don’t come back from the lake all sorts of sunburned a week before my show.  A houseboat would be nice….and to not have to work so I could live on a houseboat…come to shore to train–heck, SWIM to shore to lift   Nah….not living on a houseboat, but having one to run away to every now and then would rock.

I’m feeling a good ramble come on, so I’m going to ramble myself to sleep and spare you all the joy   G’night everyone!!

Where to start?  I cannot wait for this to be over so I can have my weekly cheat meal.  Although I do really like how I look when not cheating….I am craving pecans.  And chocolate chip cookies with walnuts, but would gladly substitute pecans. I cannot wait until I start feeling more energetic again!  I have been DRAGGING the past couple days, and am quickly turning back into a coffee fiend.  FIEND!  GIMMECOFFEENOWDAMMIT type of fiend. And a space cadet.  Like "Honey, did I do my cardio this morning?" spacey.  And pretty much useless at work :/  Combine that with the fact that I’m LONG overdue for a vacation (which I used all my days for my wedding–in 2007 because company decided to not start vacation over with the calendar like they always have in the past GRRR!) so I’m going to go see my grandparents for the 4th.  It’s going to be tough diet wise, because Grandma makes the BEST cinnamon rolls (maybe I’ll bring some home and freeze them for after my show) and depending on which aunts and uncles show up some damned good Bloody Marys.  But it will be nice to get away for a couple days.

Umm…what else is new?  I’ve been feeling like an emotional train wreck!  Today is better now than yesterday, though work was ROUGH.  Yesterday I could have cried over ANYTHING (and nearly did!) and was ohsoclose to kicking my cat across the room for trying to steal my grilled chicken breast (which was DELICIOUS so I’m pretty sure I’m close to DELIRIOUS).  Oh, best part.  Saturday I will be 2 weeks from show.  Saturday I’m getting one of my wisdom teeth removed.  I need them all to go away, but can only afford the one that is KILLING me.  My entire head hurts, it’s tearing up the inside of my mouth, chewing is BRUTAL…Hopefully I will heal quickly.  I will continue my workouts as much as I I can while healing, perhaps lightening the weights and increasing the reps instead.
Work outs have been FANTASTIC since my minor, tear-filled freak out Friday/Saturday.  I had an AWESOME chest workout last night, with an amazing pump!  I’m not gonna lie, the girls haven’t been that happy and full in a while LMAO  I had an amazing arm workout last Friday that I’m still feeling…maybe it was last Thursday.  I was nearly in tears from my tooth but I killed my arms and my biceps are still feeling it.  PUMMELLED my shoulders tonight and it feels wonderful.  Probably do back tomorrow and subject my little brother to legs with us on Thursday.  OH!! I also decide on my rhinestones for my 2 piece Thursday morning   I’m very much looking forward to that.  I need a tan, so I think tomorrow between laundry loads I’m going to go lay out a bit and get me some color (hopefully not too red!  lol)  My hair needs dyed again and trimmed desperately so I think I will do that sometime this week too.  And I’m just thinking out loud now so I will stop boring everyone.  G’night!!!

In the old figure world, I would not stand a chance right now as a competitor.  In the new figure world, from the Jr Nationals and Jr California shows this weekend, I might stand a chance.  Guess I just need to ride these last 20 days out and stick with what I’ve been doing and see what happens.  It’s a strange feeling as a first time competitor who has looked up to the super lean, super buff ladies and watched them not do well at all.  None of the Colorado ladies at Nationals placed, and I think it was because they were all too hard and have massive shoulders.  I’m a shoulder girl, and LOVE a nice set of shoulders capping off a nice set of arms.  (CORRECTION: I’m an IDIOT and a CO girl got her pro card and lots of them took top 3…see comments for details)  I’m thinking that many ladies will either stop competing or go to lightweight building.  I think women’s building needs a bit of a make over and go back to the days of Rachel McLish.  We’ll see what happens over the course of the summer in the NPC, see which ladies make their IFBB debuts and how well they do.  We’ll see what the current pros do in Houston in 2 weeks, how the judges score them.   I’m curious to see how this women’s building/physique sport rebuilds itself and I’m anxious to come up in the ranks.

OMG!!  LOVE IT!!  Yes, the chocolate gods have answered my prayers!  It came today, with more PJ and SuperPump250, and since I’m out of chocolate protein I decided to give it a whirl for my pm shake tonight.  It was pure heaven!  Rich and chocolaty and chocolaty and DELICIOUS!  Two thumbs waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay up for Gaspari Nutrition’s Double Chocolate IntraPro!