A Peek into the Mind of GeminiJedi

I think I’m getting a major allergy attack.  IT SUCKS!! Either that or it’s from the JUNK I inhaled yesterday, or maybe both.  I’m going to tell myself it’s from the crap so I don’t eat it again.  That’s all I’m going to say, other than my tummy HATES me today.  That song that goes "Hate me today, hate me tomorrow, hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you" comes to mind LOL  I’m really enjoying my wonderful, clean food today, and am fairly certain that the cravings (minus ice cream, because that really DOES make me feel better lol) are over.  Right, allergies.  Woke up with some serious congestion, finally broke down and bought some Walfed (generic Sudafed) at work and feel SO MUCH BETTER!  Perhaps some cardio tonight will help ease it up a smidge too.  I have a lab write-up to do first, though.  I do have to say that I’m EXTREMELY upset with myself, being 13 days out from the shoot, and not being able to make it through the 3rd week w/o cheating.  I was PERFECT for 2 weeks, but that damned third has been IMPOSSIBLE for me thus far.  I have enjoyed my good food today, and being able to feel my body thank me is pretty cool (or just plain weird, I’m not sure which yet lol).  Ummm….I was going to say something else, I think….maybe not *shrug*  Hope everyone’s Monday didn’t totally suck!

That dreaded "side effect" all but the "enhanced" ladies experience when dieting down.  Now my bras have joined the "let’s not fit anymore" club.  I swear I need another closet so I have one for off season and one for on season LOL  One of my favorite Star Wars girlie shirts is now unwearable thanks to my massive (HA!) delts.  This is SAD!!  It means that my favorite one (my "I <3 (heart) Darth Vader" shirt) will be too small too.  Maybe I can just cut the sleeves off and wear it sleeveless….I might have to try that.

Stats are updated.  I grew an inch on my shoulders   Dropped some on the chest (expected, but still sad), and some others changed too lol  Gotta love the specifics, eh?  My charts are FUNNY because they (especially the weight one) look like the Rocky Mountains    I like the one peak where everything went up as I put on some muscle but still had the squish factor BIG TIME.  Then that started retreating and everything went down again.

Speaking of Squish Retreat, I’ve discovered another ticklish spot.  THIS SUCKS!! I’m not ticklish!!  Apparently as I lean out, though, I’m becoming more ticklish.  It was HORRIBLE when I was in grade school, then I decided not to be ticklish anymore, and wasn’t until this year.  GAH!  Oh well.  Hubby likes it (jerk ).

And I’m sick of my hair.  I don’t feel the overwhelming urge to chop it off at the moment, just do something different with it.  It needs trimmed desperately, and I have some purple and red color to streak it with.  I think I want purple, but not sure if I should do it now or wait until after my shoot in 15 days.  Any ideas?  It would be black and purple, so a bit darker than it is now.

After yesterday’s diet disaster, coming home to my turkey and broccoli was WELCOMED!  OMG.  I’m still not really wanting to eat the good stuff, but I sure as HECK don’t want the bad stuff (ok, I’m still wanting that milk shake, not gonna lie).  It’s to the point that even SMELLING the junk is making my stomach churn.  Example: today the 2nd tech brought in a Croissanwich and whatever other horror "The King" supplies as "breakfast."  I seriously felt ill when I smelled the grease-laden "food."  Then, still reeking of the deep fryer, the bag went into the trash can conveniently located next to the scale/computer I claimed for the day.  This resulted in me SMELLING it ALL DAY LONG.  ALL.   DAY.  LONG…

What did this tech bring for lunch?  Del Taco.  With their special sauce that is not sour cream, but a mayonnaise/buttermilk concoction.  I had to walk away.  And NOT upchuck in the pharmacy.  Not pretty.

We saw "21" tonight.  LOVED IT!  Hubby had popcorn.  I had a couple handfulls, not going to lie, but I knew that mindless munching would a) not fill me up, and b) remember what happened to Katnap when she salted her food for a couple days?  Yeeeeeaaaa….not what I want.

Anyways, must run and sleep and whatever, but yes, there is a new blog.  It confirms that I am now a dietary freak.  Damn…

Note to self: toe side works hams/glutes as well as calves.  Heel side = quads only.  I was more comfortable on my toe edge today, which is weird because that’s my weak side.  I guess focusing on it the last few times I’ve been up has helped   Until I get tired, that is.  Then it’s pretty much all heel side lol  Now, though, it’s time to check out the hot tub and see if it’s actually hot, unlike my other apartment complexes.

For the past couple of days I have not been hungry.  I’ve eaten because I have to, but it’s so difficult to finish!  This sucks, because I know I have to eat, but I REALLY don’t want to.  It’s not like I really want junk instead, either, because it just makes me feel like crap and is so not satisfying anymore.  I’m just not hungry.

tentatively scheduled for the meet-n-greet thing at the local Max Muscle store, basically as a spokes-model for them .  That gives the owner time to advertise and call the regulars and get some other booths set up.  I spent over an hour bs-ing with him about EVERYTHING LOL  Mitch, the owner, will talk your ear off, but he’s so amazingly intelligent (and educated in supps and training) that the geek in me kind of likes it.  He knows his supps, how they’re supposed to work, tries them out himself before he carries them in his store, and won’t sell you a BS product.  Very good guy.  Also a former competitor and PT for 20+ years…did I  mention he knows what he’s talking about?  Anyways, that’s awesome, because it gives me a month to really tighten up and something to shoot for in between goals to keep me on track.  I’m thrilled, because Jamie Eason will be at the Max Muscle store in Lincoln, NE this weekend.  She’s pretty much my initial inspiration to get into fitness modeling/figure competing and is super sweet.  I think it’s cool that we’re both doing it, just at different stores.  Hers will be cooler, though, because Ronnie Coleman will also be there.  (Check out her myspace blog)

This morning we actually made it to the fitness center for the scheduled circuit training this morning, despite efforts to stay home and "do cardio" here lol  We switched up the order, though, and instead of running mixed in with the resistance band exercises, we did 3 times through the exercises then finished up with 20:00 on the elliptical.  It was nice.  About 14 mins into it I felt the burn!  For me not being an endurance person this cardio thing sucks! lol  I will enjoy it in the end.

Last night at work was ROUGH.  We were so slow, so what does everyone do?  Buys the clearance Easter candy, of course!  Not I.  But when a bag of Whoppers and Snickers Minis appears (my two weaknesses…grrr) I tell myself "I will only have 2 Whoppers (because I can’t eat candy in odd numbers.  Still having issues with the stairs lol) and I will not open the Snickers bag…I wish someone else would so then I can have my 2 and be done."  Let’s just say that it didn’t stick to 2 each, and Snickers does NOT satisfy anymore, and I felt ill.  I was so thankful for my turkey and broccoli dinner!  This eating right thing is actually–GASP–easier and more fulfilling.  Wait, did I just say that?!?    My work invited me in for cheesecake.  Actually, it was:

Work: Cheesecake today?
Me: Not in.  At 5538.  And cheesecake is not in the diet
Work: Figured, but thought we’d extend the invite anyways.
Me:  Appreciate the thought, and in the off season I will partake

My abs looked GOOD today   Well, I need to be off to the store for more turkey.  Have a great day, everyone!

I was going to wait until tomorrow or a week or so from now, when things get finalized, but I can’t stand it, I’m so excited!  I am in mind for a spot as a Max Muscle girl at the local store for a meet-n-greet thing.  I need to go talk to the manager and get more details tomorrow, but he and Adam talked a bit tonight (since a supply run was needed lol) and it was mentioned.  I’m so excited!  I hope it works out, scheduling and all.  With this, and my photo shoot in 3.5 weeks, my progress is starting to get noticed and doors are starting to open

So today, just for benchmarking purposes, we decided to see if/how many pull-ups and chin-ups I could do before working back.  I’ve been able to do about 3-5 chin-ups, and 0 unassisted pull-ups.  I’ve NEVER been able to do a pull-up.  EVER.  Even when I was a little monkey child.  So, today, I did a pull up.  It felt great.  I didn’t do another one lol  I went to the chin-up, which came easier.  I haven’t done this in several months, so it felt great   Numbers on today’s workout didn’t necessarily go up, but form was much better.

That’s another thing I realized on the way home from the gym this morning.  Some lifts (like bench and squat) have increased dramatically over the last year, while others haven’t.  Granted my form has improved dramatically, so hopefully this time next year weights will go up too.  I’d rather have better form, though, because it means less chance of injury, and prettier muskulls

Friday’s leg day is going to be miserable.  We’re going snowboarding on Thursday.  I will be sure to post that miserable-ness for everyone’s enjoyment.

Other than back-to-back posts, which is kind of weird, I just realized something startling.  I am 2 days out from being 1 year post-best-abs-ever.  I know that doesn’t make any sense, but here is clarification:

First one is March 25, 2007 when I thought–pale and pasty as they were–my abs were the best they’ve ever been.  Second one is today, March 23, 2008 and I think they’re about the same.  The diet has been up and down and on and off since then, but hmm…a year out and that’s it?  Maybe I’m just being too hard on myself :/