A Peek into the Mind of GeminiJedi

Something like 5 or 6 weeks out to the shoot, 12 weeks after that is States, and 12 weeks after that is the Carla Sanchez show I’m planning on doing.  There might be a show in June (I can get the time off work if I need to, I just need to know it’s a go), which would be 9 weeks after the shoot.  This means that I have to get ON it diet wise, and get my butt back in the gym.  My head hurts, my lungs burn when I cough (which is less now than it was even yesterday), and I really want dark chocolate covered Nilla wafers and milk.  Or Oreos and milk.  And this isn’t just a "I want it, *drink some water….craving gone*" craving.  This is "the chocolate and Nilla wafers are in the pantry, and there’s milk in the fridge" craving.  Add organic chemistry homework to the mix, and it’s a recipe for diet disaster.  Perhaps I need to reprogram my study habits (which revolved around ice cream and oreos and milk for years).  Ate my chicken for dinner (put some cheese on it to make it taste better).  Hopefully reading the textbook this semester will help.  Do you think that’s why they make us sell our firstborn children for textbooks?

I also realized something horrifying the other day.  Ok, maybe not a true EUREKA moment, but the moment of realization was poignant.  America is fat because the general public eats like crap.  The reason they eat like crap is because crap is cheap and healthy food is expensive.  School has made the crap even more convenient: the vending machines now take credit cards as well as cash. I don’t carry cash so that I don’t buy the Cheetos on break.  I also don’t carry my checkbook with me to the grocery store so I don’t write a check to those brown-vested, cookie-selling devils that are out in force now. My "best friend" (who wouldn’t make time to come out for my wedding, and won’t set foot in a gym because "it’s stinky") complains that eating right is "too hard."  Yes it’s more difficult because it spoils and can’t be kept in the vending machine for years.  Yes, it’s more difficult because more often than not you have to prepare it before hand and pack it and take it with you.  But you know what?  She’s just had to buy new clothes for the opposite reason as I am having to: hers are now too small because of her (and these are her own words, I swear) "ever expanding ass."  I keep telling her to build more muscle.  "I’ll get huge too quickly" is her response.  Whatever.  Our conversations turn to fitness, every time, without fail, yet she rejects my advice in fear of becoming manly.  I give up.  And I won’t tell her "I told you so" to her shopping pal request.  I will just smile, and continue on my way, and remember that she’d be eating those chocolate covered Nilla wafers now, so I won’t.

Pic of my back double biceps today (with some extra goodies of which I hope to score more).  Sick/confused about homework, feeling maybe a smidge better.  Wishing I could be at the Arnold this year, but hopefully we will make it next year.

Went in today and actually got some antibiotics.  I’m not a huge proponent of the pharmaceutical industry, believe it or not, but being this miserable with obvious signs of bugs I had to.  The best thing is that in a few days I will be feeling much better (assuming it’s not viral).  And thank goodness for cough suppressants.  They seriously have helped my chest not burn when I cough.  Took the day off of school too, which was nice.  I will try to get back to work tomorrow, school on Thursday, workout this weekend.  I feel a bit pressured about the shoot in 6 weeks (right, Stormi?  Day after your show…) and like I really need to be going for it, but I also have to work, since I carry the insurance, and focus on school.

Too bad my 300th post wasn’t a cool one.  I unfortunately can’t report that I’m feeling any better.  In fact, we probably shouldn’t have invited everyone over because I am MISERABLE today.  Called in to work because I’ve been running crazy fevers and I don’t feel that I have any business being around people’s pills if I’m running a fever and coughing violently and stuff.   Damn I hate being sick.  My wonderful husband offered to stay home and take care of me, but a) I don’t want him getting this (though its probably too late for that), and b) he makes more than I do after tips and someone needs to make some money today.  It was a very thoughtful gesture, though, and incredibly appreciated

I really should be grocery shopping, but I haven’t blogged in a day or so so I thought I should update.  No workout since circuit day.  Yesterday my hands hurt.  Not like achey, just worked, but "bones hurting from cold like an old person’s" hurt.  Feet joined in after work.  Today I woke up with a barking cough.  This crud has been going around, and being in the pharmacy I’m exposed to it all day long, but still.  I should have an immune system of steel, dammit!  I’m not feeling quite as miserable now as I was earlier (that could be the new phone talking, too, lol) so I suppose I should go shopping and get food for the dinner guests tonight.  No fever, and since I’m not constantly hacking up a lung I should be ok to invite people over, right?  (DK, if you now don’t want to come I don’t blame you)

So today’s workout was a run-through of the circuit training routine I’m going to attempt to do a couple days a week.  Ideally it’s three rounds, but today I made it through 2.  I also discovered I have fluid on my ears.  Let me tell you how interesting that is running/jumping rope/doing jumping jacks….. I’m so out of shape in the endurance department lol  Playing hockey it’s intervals: 2-3 minutes on, 2-3 minutes off.  I can do that.  This 16-19 minutes a round sucks.  Come May it will be appreciated.  Heck, even come April it should be appreciated.

Goal Time: <15 Minutes Each Circuit
Fitness Wheel (wheel with a bar through it that you stretch out and roll back up) - 20 Reps
High-Knees - 1 minute
*Squats - 20 reps
Jump Rope (or pretend if it hits the ceiling) - 1 minute
*Alt. Front/Lateral Raises - 20 Reps Each
*Lying Reverse Leg Raises - 20 Reps Each
Jumping Jacks - 1 minute
*Alternating 1 Arm Rows - 20 Reps Each
*Alternating Chest Press - 20 Reps Each
Treadmill: 0.5 miles @ 6-8mph
Rest 1-2 minutes

Complete Circuit 3x Total

* = Resistance Band Used

Running 1/2 mile is hard! LOL  Ok, I’ll skate for miles, but running sucks.  Sorry Pixi.  I’m good for about 2.5 minutes, then it’s walking time for Court.  Sinus drainage down the back of the throat made for some fun "gonna hurl" moments.  I had suspected it, but as I was high kneeing and felt it swishing I knew there was fluid on my ears.  And, of course, I’m all out of loratidine (Clairitin) to dry it up.  I have Benadryl, but that will knock me out and I have to work this afternoon.  So now it’s time to pass out again for a bit, then clean up both myself and the apartment for guests on Sunday.

And a HUGE thanks to everyone for your words of encouragement!    It really helps.  I do this freak-out thing every semester, but this time was worse than it’s ever been.  Thanks for reading and offering words of wisdom.  It is very much appreciated

No workout today.  Adam was a lab assignment for one of his coworker’s advanced massage therapy class (neuromuscular or something…details in his blog) and had a LOT of junk worked out.  It’s ok, I got to sleep in a bit too, and that’s always nice.  This week at school has sucked, had a minor mental breakdown yesterday, but all is semi-ok now.  Still kind of numb and not sure what I want to do anymore, feeling like I’ve wasted this year in O Chem, pissed that I can’t muster up the effort for school that I can in the gym, like I could totally go into training, but the body only lasts so long and I’ve always had my brains going for me but they’re failing me now and I feel so out of control and I hate that feeling, and I’m so excited about competing, but does that hesitation to go for personal training/competing a LOT come from the bad body image I’ve had for so long?  Does it come from the influence of my mother who’s always had a bad body image (with good reason)?  Is that why I want to do something that’s all brainiac-y?  Ok, no more questions, I have class and a test, I don’t need to start thinking seriously about that yet.

1-0-1, Kneeling Cable Crunches (Alt to Side) - 3×20@70, 1×20@75
1-0-1, Serratus Crunches (DBs) : 4×15 w/20’s
2-0-2, Flat Bench Press - 3×12: 55/65/75
A: 2-0-2, Hi Incline DB Hammers 2×12: 15/15
B: 1-0-1, Straight BB Curl Partials - Failure: 30 x20/x6
A: 1-0-1, Low Cbl Front Raises - 2×12: 20/20
B: 1-0-1, Low Cbl FR Partials - 2xFail: x15/x7
A: 1-0-1, Hi Cbl Most Msc Curls - 2×12: 30/30
B: 1-0-1, Hi Cbl Most Msc Drop Set - 2×12: 20/30
A: 2-0-2, Dumbell Fly - 2×12: 8/8
B: 1-0-1, Dumbell Fly Partials - 2xFail: X12/12
2-0-2, DB Seated Lateral Raises - 2×12: 6/6
1-0-1, Hi Cbl Bicep Curls - 2×12: 20/30

"Century set" on leg press: 100lbs x 53 reps; 90lbs x the rest (rest pause at 53, 65, 77)

With the latest calling for Gaspari testers, I’ve decided that this is it.  I REALLY want those free supps, and I really want to see what happens with them.  I’d LOVE to build some mass on my arms before my July 12 comp.  I know this training has improved my strength incredibly (numbers to follow, with comparison to previous weeks…crap…that will come tomorrow before work since I have to head to school) and size has gone up since years ago, as evidenced by clothing.  I would LOVE to earn sponsorship of entry fees so I can do more than 2 shows (at somewhere around $100/show that’s quite a bit to do 3 or 4 shows a season).  Heck, free supps (and I’m curious to see what beast is unleashed in me from reading other reviews of SuperPump and Size On) is great too!  So today I decided to really EARN this.  Can’t argue with hard work.  And even if I don’t get chosen this round, I will have unleased something in me that I can always call upon and that’s not anything to complain about either!

No legs yesterday, as we had a bunch of cleaning/homework to do before company came over yesterday.  It was super fun eating at the dining room table, though   So we did legs today (complete with remembered commentary):

Supersets as A/B
2-0-2, Standing Calf Raises - 4×12: 80/90/100/110 (NO! Peter Pan’s using the seated calf raises….though that does mean no super sets…)
1-0-1, Seated Calf Raises - 4×12: 60/60/60/60 (15 seconds rest between sets…burns like super sets!)
3-0-3, Seated Leg Curls - 3×12: 50/50/50
3-0-3, Seated Leg Extensions - 3×12: 75(I’ll consider that a warm up set)/90 (ummm…first working/last warm up set…)/110 (there we go!)
A: 2-0-2, Smith Hack Squats - 2×12: 90/90
B: 1-0-1, Smith Hack Partials - 2xFail: ×11/9 (owieowieowieowie!)
A: Close Stance Leg Press - 2×12: 225 (better form, little deeper, that felt good)/250 (Not so bad…[rep 7] Ow…rest pause…bang out last 3!)
B: Close Stance Drop Set - 2×12: 180/180 (second set felt MUCH lighter, but oh the burn at 8!  Hooray!…whooo….light headed…I’m gonna sit for a bit)

No glute kickbacks since I had to be at work at 8.  Holy freaking busy batman!  Glad I’m out of there.  I got some good sleep last night so this morning was not as bad as most mornings are.  We’ll see what tomorrow brings!