A Peek into the Mind of GeminiJedi

Mostly back today.  Back, bis, tris, hams, calves, abs.  I think that’s all today…..yes.  Feels good.  Pecs are still tender from yesterday, I’m sure I will be feeling abs tomorrow.  And I’m finally not nearly as nauseous at the end of the workout so that I can get through it.  Perhaps it’s the less fatigue type style of training.

Routine change: trying an old two day routine now.  Got through day 1 minus abs.  Would have done at least once around the circuit if our buddies hadn’t had issues (she was super cranky and cut out early.  I think a lot of it is that she and her fiance don’t have the same goals in the gym like me and my fiance do so i know there was a bit of jealousy involved.  That kind of makes me feel good, though, in that it validates the awesomeness of our relationship and I hope it inspires them to maybe compromise and realize that they can work out together…).  By the end I was feeling kind of nauseated again, but not nearly as much as with that old routine.

I maxed out on bench press at 100 lbs tonight!!!  SOOOOO much happiness!  I had help on the second rep, so I’m not counting it, but it feels so good to clear the century mark!  My goal is bodyweight, so around 115-120.  And the best part is that I did it without my pre-workout NOShotgun because of dinner before lifting.  I think that helped with the nausea, actually.  Or more rest times…either way, tonight felt really good and I’m going to make it the start of a good six weeks or so.

…have been horrible for lifting in that we haven’t gone for the past two.  Yesterday we could have, easily, since we both had it off, but we didn’t.   It was kind of nice to have a very lazy day, but I get in that habit far too easily.  Today is my last day at my pharmacy job, and after that we’ll go lift.

Arms day last night, and again with the nausea and heaving.  At first I wondered why this didn’t happen when I first started working out, then I realized that I didn’t push myself like this when I first started either.  My diet is definitely cleaner now, but I guess there’s still toxins in there, possibly from my vacation.  I’m really liking my pump during arm days.  I will have to get pics up.

Thinking of tweaking my diet a bit too.  Maybe try carb cycling, because while my arms and back have leaned out quite nicely, my obliques and inner thighs need more help.  Doing twists and adduction exercises, but at this point I think it’s really about diet.  Meh.  This is all trial and error, and that’s part of the fun!

Legs hadn’t been hit in a couple weeks, and last night was the first time we did legs on this new routine.  I had forgotten about the pain of eccentric leg press.  Eccentric SINGLE leg press, actually.  No abs, which is a good thing, because I would have been really, really sick instead of just really sick.  My fiance is determined to ruin leg days for me   At least I know I did leg day correctly last night lol.

Edit: 2 days later, and I am STIFF!!! Thought I  missed kickbacks, but going deep on the squats took care of that!

Well, it hasn’t been a very consistent start to this routine.  Missed leg day last week, was going to double up today and do back and arms, but that didn’t happen.  Neither did cardio.  Thinking of hitting that up before I go dress shopping with my mom tomorrow morning.  Maybe that morning endorphin rush will make her more bearable…. Abs were terribly neglected during finals and are letting me know.  Tonight I felt good breakdown there.  It makes me happy in a sick sort of way   I can’t wait to show off my back tomorrow!!  I will also make time for more progress pics soon, I promise!

I don’t think I’m going to make my bodyfat goal that I had up.  I know that I’ve gained a lot of muscle, and that’s cool, but I realized that between my vacation and celebrating my engagement I might not have lost the fat I wanted to.  But I still have time, so now it means not skipping cardio and being good about my diet.  I haven’t given up, because I still have time; I’m pretty motivated now.

Thursday night my boyfriend proposed to me!!!  Of course I accepted, and it was wonderful, and I’m so excited, and there’s so much to do….. but we still have time.  I need to remember to breathe too.  Yay us!!!

Day 2 of cutting routine, and my arms are thoroughly pumped, as was my back last night.  I really, really like this, and think it is going to do the trick this summer.  And I’m even more excited about competing next year.  Staying with my best friend this weekend kind of reinforced that.  She thinks female bodybuilders, and figure competitors, are not feminine enough and "repulsive."  I think I’m never going to have a natural hour-glass figure like she has (and it’s crazy "not natural" in that she has naturally very wide hips) and that I’ve been given not only a second chance at an active lifestyle, but a third one after mono, and I like how much better I feel about myself and in general.  I guess I’m too tomboyish for her, but I’ve always been that way.  It’s not about her, though, it’s about me, and I’m LOVING lifting.  Besides, competing gives me a goal to work towards, something to aim for. And the whole "diet" thing that she mentioned.  I’m not on a diet per se.  I’m eating healthy and often.  Choosing something healthy at the restaurant because I know I’m going to feel better after eating it doesn’t seem like a chore now.  So I complain about eating broccoli.  It’s not as bad as I make it out to be, really.  I will take you up on an ice cream offer, you better believe it, but now I will go for a small instead of the large.  It’s just choices and a lifestyle change.  But as long as I’m happy that’s all that matters.  Time for bed.

Today I head back up to Phoenix (after a quick motorcycle ride) to spend the night there and spend Monday there before flying home late Monday night.  Last night really wasn’t bad as a cheat night.  We went out, but it was definitely my turn to let my friend have a wild night.  And that she did.  This is not the place for details, but let’s just say that she’s even more of a lightweight than I am!  Back to the good stuff (water) this morning, which tastes better anyways.