FitNisJnky’s BodyBlog

Not preggers. Just incredibly out of whack, and trying to let my system get back to normal. Now I have no excuse to hit the weights HARD. Still, I can’t say that I’m not bummed…Maybe better luck next time..

Hi BB,

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. I’ve got really good reasons too. I’ve been cutting back on my workouts, to moderate cardio, because…..I might be preggers. It’s something we’ve wanted so I announce this happily. It’s sooner than I expected, but I am still happy nonetheless. I was hoping to drop about 20 lbs, prior to this, but it just didn’t workout the way I’d planned. I am still not sure though, it’s a bit soon to tell. I’m currently in my 2 week waiting period..so, too soon to take a test I’ve been to pregnancy forums and man, I am really disappointed with the workout advice that is out there. How can I possibly workout at 140 bmp? That’s like a leisurely stroll for me. My heart rate runs a little fast, so I am still a little puzzled as to what I should and shouldn’t do…Tonight, I am going to do a step class, and just not go overboard, like I normally do. This week, I think I’d like to resurect my weight lifting program, but it will definitely need modifying…I am just incredibly frustrated with this am I, or aren’t I - business. My acne is off the charts, and headaches and cramping has set in..As tactical as we were in our planning, it still reminds me of how little power I have in all this. It’s been a true test to just put my faith in God and hope for the best..ANY workout advice is totally appreciated.

Why is it so hard to lose yourself over the weekend? I don’t know about everyone else, but I can definitely speak for myself. I get the chance to sleep and I wake up on Saturdays, not wanting to do anything..at all….Sometimes I get amped up for a run, but it’s been kinda hard motivating myself this morning. I’ve been logging my food since Thursday, and I am glad I have. It’s a little scary seeing it on paper (or my computer screen) exactly how many calories are in these weekend breakfasts, I love to cook…YIKES. So, I’ve pretty much eaten at least a third of my calorie / fat / carb / protein intake for the day…And overdid it last night with the chicken…I think I waited too long for dinner. It’s been hard adjusting to a lower calorie intake. Cutting the sugar has been easier than I expected. I don’t miss it much, unless I am starving. Which I’m not normally. I try to grab water, or a protein shake before things get that messy. I know I’m not sleeping enough during the week, this is probably why I can’t get my ass out of the house on the weekends. Yesterday I got really busy (at work) and found that the hours just flew by, before I had the chance to squeeze in a few small meals. I am starting to see why / when I go for mindless eating. It’s boredom! For the past few weeks, I’ve been really slow (at work) so I just read a lot and do what most people do…mindlessly eat. (ok, maybe not most people). It’s weird, cause during the week, my workouts are an absolute obsession. Last night, I just pooped out and called it a night. I think I am still getting used to doing the hour of cardio in addition to my weight workouts. I am still sore from the kickboxing night. I can barely lift my arms over my head. I can tell that I am starting to get bored at home, so I’d better get my butt up off the couch and go do something productive. Maybe I’ll ride my bike to the library. LOL! Or…maybe I’ll just run there. Whatever it is, I need to do something today, I can’t let the days build up without doing anything active, I hate how that makes me feel. Hope everyone has a great, and active weekend!

I might’ve overdone it last night. Just a tad. But I am so happy that I did. Not that I can see any results or anything, but I haven’t felt this tired, sore and shaky in a long time. I started the evening off with a kick boxing class. Thinking I’d end it there, I decided to jump into weights since Wed. is a weight training night for me. I couldn’t just do some weights, I had to do a full body workout, lifting the heaviest I ever have…Don’t know what it is about me, I can’t just do things in moderation…I’m glad I took that mentality with me to the gym last night, I think this sort of thinking will get me the results I want. I am planning to do a step class tonight in place of my normal run. I don’t know why, I suddenly got bored with my cardio routine. Not the weight routine though, because it’s always easier to add more weight, try a different angle and even a new machine. It’s rare that weight training ever gets boring for me. It’s a challenge that I really enjoy.
With regards to the food logging, I’ve been lagging, haven’t gotten back on track yet this week. I think I will starting today. I decided to be more proactive in cutting sugar out of my diet. Today, I am sitting here sipping coffee with no creamer. Not the best, but I think it’s a good habit for me to start forming.  Also, I am trying to be more positive about change. I know it sounds dorky, but I’ve been doing some housework internally, and I think my mindset has been crappy for a long time. I know that once I have this aspect of my life under control, more positive vibes will start rolling in. It always works out this way, I don’t know why. I can’t figure out why I have such a burning need to have this rockin’ body. I guess the main reason is to feel better about myself. I am done with the days of looking in the mirror with disgust, and constantly thinking about what I "used" to look like. I want to like how I look now! I am getting there slowly. I can see some minor changes in my face and in my upper torso. (Shoulders, arms.) I have to be patient with myself, the lower body always seems to take the longest to change. Need to run. Have a great workout everyone!

Last night, was a really good workout. I’ve been reading up on weight training and exertion. I read that unless you’re using 80% of your max. strength / and working at 80% of your heart rate, for 30 minutes minimum, your workout won’t yield much in terms of results. So I’ve been pushing it as hard as I can without foresaking form / and hurting myself. Last night I did a full body workout plus abs. I did hanging leg raises for the first time. I managed to knock out 4 sets of 10, which was good for me, but I was so burned out form the first half of my workout, I had to stop there. When the gagging began. Lol! That is a sign to myself that I need to stop before I get sick. Today I am going to do 45 min. of cardio. I will probably just run outdoors today. It’s finally nice enough to go outside. It will probably be pretty damned cold, but I can handle it.

I think I need to get back to food logging. As much as I hate it, it’s really then that I start seeing results. I weighed myself this morning, and I actually weigh more than I did the day before! I know there are tons of variables, like water retention, sodium intake and residual food, but man that was a downer for me. I’m used to seeing the scale tip to the left after a workout. I guess it might’ve been because I didn’t do any major shedding of water, since I didn’t do any cardio last night. My weight training was hard enough, I don’t know if I could’ve done cardio, I pushed myself really hard. I’m sore for it today, which is what I want. It’s working through the pain on Wed. that I know will be a challenge.
Does anyone have any preferences to online food logging sites? The one I’ve tired the most that I like (sort of) is Livestrong.com. Otherwise, I just hate taking the time to figure out what I put in my salad. (Since I’ll eat about a million different greens - if at all possible)
Ok, will update later tonight after my run.

LOl, it’s been a nice long break. I’ve pigged out with my own complete permission, and have loved every minute of it. Now, I’m refreshed and ready for the new! I hope everyone has had a nice holiday break, and a happy and safe New Year’s celebration. You’ve all been in my thoughts. Will blog more tonight after my workout.
-Fit