Loosing Footing!
Friday, May 30th, 2008Ok… so I last competed on April 19th and it has been about 6 weeks into the "off season" and it SUCKS! I am really struggling. I lost my trainer/nutritionist (its his competitive season) until July and I thought I would be able to handle it as I have WEEKS of meal plans to pull from (from precontest training) and have all my notes from my previous training sessions. BUT… it is obvious that I am no good without help! I lack motivation to push through the tough points in training and my discipline in eating clean has been void or at best half assed.
My weight has climbed to an embarrassing 145 from 128 and I feel exhausted constantly and just frankly unfit. I struggle with needing to pull it together for my clients but all I want to do is either hide from society or focus solely on "fixing" my situation … which leads to frustration because then I am only slapped with the reality that I CAN NOT DO THIS ALONE!
Since my trainer/nutritionist is my husband it is a sore subject if I broach the idea of hiring someone to help me get through this time while he competes - so I feel stuck and he thinks I am selfish.
Has anyone else gone through this? I don"t compete again until Nov but at this rate I will be lucky if I step on stage next year! I am so bummed.
Wondering if finding a training partner would help?
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