Faizahjade’s BodyBlog

I am trying so hard to manage these cramps and maintain my focus. I almost cried this morning doing cardio. My ovaries are trying to get the best of me! How can I overcome this challenge and continue to intensify my sessions with terrible cramps? It is so discouraging! My appetite is lost, I have to force myself to eat. I am only on Day 3 of my transformation, and so many odds are against me. I have to stay positive and look on the bright side of things. #1 ovaries are the size of prunes, I am bigger and stronger! #2 I will not give up #3 no pain no gain!

this was untitled because i just wanted to post how happy i am for being committed to bodybuilding. i just wished it wouldn’t have taken me so long. but that is the past and i am looking forward, so many mountains to climb, and i am fit, so even though the scale is playing tricks on me, i can say that i am doing things now, that i wont have been able to do years ago and for that i am grateful. hell i can outlast several women in my kickboxing class by a long shot! so for anyone out there who is struggling with weightloss, don’t give up…being able to do activities like walking and running with out falling out is a plus. so take babysteps. this progress doesn’t happen overnight, that’s for sure.

After two months with no gains or losses, I change my meal plan. Only thing is, it makes me nausea. I don’t know what the problem is, however, energy sups, make me nausea and I quess I am kinda blaming it on those. I took my bodyfat % finally yesterday, and was completly mortified!!!!!!! It is over 40%, and I just can’t go on knowing this, yet not giving my diet 110% so I had to take it up a serious knotch. Wish me a toleratable stomach!

Today I feel really good! I woke up an hit the teadmill for 45 minutes, and I plan to go back to the gym later to train my chest, triceps and shoulders. I will also try to take my fav class of turbo kick boxing. I love the rush. I am starting to pump myself up and make wise food choices because I know eating unhealthy makes me fat and I feel like shit mentally when I do. So I am just going to cutt that out and keep clean.  I can’t stand feeling like a lard ass and when I eat healthy, I am more energized and happy. I will test myself for one week and if I can make it, I will preserve.

I am trying to be positive here. However, I havent lose anymore weight since the end of January. I recently started back my a.m. cardio, which I believe helped in the first of the year, so I will keep that up. I am finding it very hard to adjust to the clean eating part and I know how crucial it is. After I mess up, I just get so mad at myself for going there, and vow to get back on track. It is more than a notion. Also, my lower abs, AAAAAHHHHH, I am about to break down about em.  What is wrong with me! I was doing well now I am about to give up hope that my body will allow change. Maybe I should turn this negative into positive and work out like nobodies business in the morning.

this year, i choose to go meatless, however i find it hard to meet my required meals and nuritious quota daily and weekly. I did really well the first three days, then i fell off. i have a hard time making it to the store (there are very few health food stores in the area, and the one that is, too expensive)but when i do, it makes it easier for me. I can’t imagine myself going to the store several days a week, but to keep this up, i may have to. plant base diets for a body builder has to be possible, i just need to figure this out. wish me luck!

today kinda flew by fast.  My workout was effective however I don’t or I must don’t work my back and biceps hard enough, cause they aren’t sore the next day like legs. Maybe I have more security in my lower half than my top, but I would really like to balance that out and push myself the same way as any other work out. 

Today was my leg day. I love leg training because I have great definition in my legs, from what I can remember back in the day.  Back Squats:80lbs superset Romainan Deadlifts:40lbs; Step-ups with weights:10lbs supersets Standing Hamstrings Curls 10lbs; Leg presses:80lbs superset calf raises 80lbs; Seated calf raises 10lbs superset crunches. All 3 sets, 10-15 reps. I was sweating big time.  But I felt good! Later I went back for Turbo Kick boxing, my new found favorite. A 45 minute class. Some, I chilling. Taking this one day at a time. Not rushing results(ne more, that is:) People are starting to notice my body transformation, but they having seen nothing yet. I got a long way to go!

I am so happy my weight loss is going well. I had to self motivate myself the other day in the steamroom(my ultimate favorite place in the gym, i could stay in there for hours, just kidding) if I keep this up, I could be at my weight loss goal in a short time.  The supps I am taking, my body is getting use to them, and I love it. It was a strange feeling at first, but I understand my body and I know good things are transpiring.  I will take some progress pictures soon, and compare them to see if i can notice some results. Abs are killing me.

I worked out today after being away for about a week.  I injured my left knee Friday Dec. 5 at work, don’t ask me how.  I stand all day so I am sure that had something to do with it. I ‘ve been wearing a support strap on it sporaticlly throught the day, pray that helps, and in a way it has.  I walked on the treadmill for 55 minutes max speed 3.4 cause I didn’t want to injure myself any futher.  I made thru with no problems so I will go for another spin in the morning.  I also did abs, even though today was leg day , my fav, but gotta heal completly first.  I am at about 85%, so next week I should be able to go at it. I couldn’t go another day with out working out, I tried.  I will just soak my knee, rub some tiger balm on it, support it and keep moving. 

Also, I talked my sisters into joining my endevor with bodybuilding, and they compleyed. I was shocked.  Support is a plus, so in the future, I will post how good that is going.

Sunset

It was my night

Dark and Violet

The mood was set

And all was quiet

I approach thy

sly like a fox

inticapating what I have

discovered in this box

I take the key

and guard it with my heart

the daydream has ended now

reality then start

I couldn’t hold back

I have broke free

I can’t believe this

shit is happening to me.