Euro4Ever’s BodyBlog

So, it’s a bit more attitude than I’m used to giving off but.. so what, I earned it, right?

Here’s what I’m talking about:

Yesterday, I was truly getting sick of my jeans being way too big. I thought I’d get new jeans every 2 sizes to cut down on hassle / expense, especially where I’m planning to burn through sizes at a decent clip.

Well yesterday I was trying out for Jeopardy, and realized that there was no way I could show up in my huge dumpy size 22s, when I’m a 20 now. Stopped on the way to get a new pair, kinda cursing at the situation - I was a bit annoyed at having to shop, thinking it’ll be a waste in a couple weeks/ 10 lbs or so when I figure I’ll need 18s.

Whoops. That time was yesterday. The 20s were too big, and the 18s fit well! Down 2 jeans sizes!

I didn’t make it through the tryout - apparently missed by one question -  but I was thrilled anyway. We left from there to go to a big get together with about 70 of our friends at a restaurant.

Well, (normally) shy me was getting up outta my chair every so often to exclaim to friends as they walked in: "Hey!!! Look at my BUTT!!!" Not normally something I’d  ever think of doing - I’d have been mortified at the idea of someone looking at me like that even 2-3 days ago!

Anyway,  I’m feeling good. On to more news!

As of this morning, I am down to 240. Still pretty heavy, I know.. but it’s a MOMENTOUS day for me. You see, that means I’m down 25 lbs since Jan 18… and it’s ONE QUARTER OF THE WAY to my goal weight! Had 100 lbs to lose, now I have 75. 25% of the way. Wooo!

So I guess all this good news can’t come with a bit of bad:The next two weeks will make it very difficult, if not impossible, to stay on track. I have a deadline to develop several recipes, which means doing the test kitchen thing. 1 of them is a very healthy recipe.. the others are not. (Really GOOD, but not healthy!) - including 4 different cakes. I can’t just NOT try them, but I will be trying to balance it with paleo friendly foods.

In addition to that, I have a trade show a week from tomorrow, which means busting my butt getting ready for it till then, and having to rely on eating at restaurants next weekend.

Hopefully by the Monday after the show (St Patty’s Day), I can at least maintain my losses to date.  It’s the LAST big interruption I should face till at least summer, so that’s positive at least.

This is probably going to sound silly and stupid, but hoping someone out there can relate!

I’m a bit of a recluse. I’ve never been good at meeting people,  have a hard time looking someone in the face, and I don’t really "speak with confidence", unless it’s with someone I really know. (Then I’m a total loudmouth, lol)

On the physical side of things.. I haven’t really cared about what I look like since the weight gain. I don’t invest in nice clothes (fat clothing stores really rape you with prices, that doesn’t help!).. I’ve never spent more than $10 on a purse.. I don’t wear makeup unless I "have to".

Well, the clothes thing isn’t going to change anytime soon. I’ve decided I’ll buy clothes on an as-needed basis till I’m at my goal weight. Really doesn’t make sense to spend much in the meantime! The jeans I have now are a full size too big.. but I have a pair of jeans that’s about 1 size too small for me now, so I’ll deal with these till I fit those.. then buy new ones every 2 sizes along the way. Fair enough, right?

Anyway, I digress. That totally wasn’t what I was planning to write about.

Here’s the deal though.. Yesterday, I actually started looking for a decent handbag that I like. Not the cheapest I can find, and I’m NOT allowing myself to buy it from walmart,  either.  I found a few that I could settle for, but that would have defeated the purpose.  Kinda makes me feel a little more adult.. even though I’m damn near 30! LOL. I actually found one I like - with a matching wallet - but they come to like $100 with shipping. EEEK! Not entirely sure I’m ready for that (I’m still frugal!!), but the fact that I’m seriously considering it is a HUGE step for me.
This wasn’t actually the first time I noticed a weird side effect that could be attributed to this. Since I started on Jan 18 (22 lbs ago!).. I’ve been a LOT better about talking to strangers. I was at an industry event on Thursday, and was actually sort of comfortable! Even introduced myself to a few people. The BEST was when I had a convo with someone, then told them I had someone for THEM to meet, and dragged them over to meet a friend of mine, hooking them up. I have NEVER had the balls to do anything like that! It was exhilerating! I even looked people in the face! I know what everyone I met looked like!

So.. between that and the purse thing, I’m feeling pretty good.

Maybe I’ll go put some makeup on, while I’m at it!