Etrain’s BodyBlog

Hey body space!

It’s been awhile since I’ve been on here, and a lot has changed. I was laid off from my job, penned another novel and got a girlfriend. But the one that changed for the worse was my diet and training. I went from 262 to 292. A thirty pound gain. Currently I am at 287, but I’ll get to my goal. The point is I am ashamed. Ashamed at myself for letting myself get to this point. I let the lust of Mcdonalds at late night, and other junk derail me. I lost my focus. I lost me. So much happened at once. Problems with my girl, loss of a job, and other emotional things. I turned to the one thing that helped me throughout it all, food. But the more I went down that path, the more I saw the toll. People commented on how I was gaining weight, how I lost my desire to train. I did. I would come on here and be ashamed because I saw people make great progress and I was a loser gettiing fat again. I couldn’t wear my clothes that I bought when I lost weight and I got depressed. But last week, I made up in my mind to go back to the gym and not only do that, but maintain my diet. I don’t know about you, but food will always be a battle for me. I have been heavy all my life. I struggled with low self-esteem because of it, and that sucked. But I am determined to win this time. The bible says a just man falls seven times, but I believe you have to get back up and fight and get it right, so with your help, Body Space, I know I can acheieve!