Ellena’s BodyBlog

Hey all,

 A little cry for help, motivation, reassurance or whatever you want to call it.

 I wrote a post a while back about getting back into the swing of things.  That was easy compared to this.

 I haven’t been to the gym I would say in a month.  I threw my back out for a week and a half from shovelling snow and got a pinched nerve.  Finally one night (Thursday that wk), I decided to go work on legs and give my back even another few days to recoup, and I still had a pinched nerve in the upper back.  I kicked out legs so hard that I couldn’t walk for 4 days and still had my glutes hurt until the following Tuesday. 

I’m a hairdresser, as I’ve stated and had pulled holiday hrs, 10-12hrs over the next few days. As I finally got through the weekend, I shoveled heavy snow again on the Sunday, which kicked out my back for another week.  During that week I also felt really tired, dizzy, didn’t want to stomach food etc. By Friday that wk, I was taking blood tests and left work early in the afternoon to almost falling asleep at the wheel 4x’s and having some of my joints and bones hurt.  I woke up the next morning to all of my joints, muscles and bones in severe pain and feeling very faint like.  I spent the day in the hospital to find out I had a viral flu that has taken a week and a half to get through, my joints back to normal by that Thursday, and now finally have got enough energy to go back to the gym. 

I have not gained any weight but have felt like I have "flubbed" out. That time frame has been the longest time ever away from the gym since I started there last Jan.  I can’t believe at how bad I feel.  As much as my health is important, I can’t begin to tell you that I felt like I’ve lost myself somewhere.  My life has changed this past year and don’t like the fact that I have to end 2007 like this. 

I have had my bag packed in my Jeep for a couple of days and am finally off to the gym. They have had holiday hrs and I haven’t been able to go since they’ve closed at 10 and I get off at 9. 

I feel I need support to go back. Not because I don’t want to but because I’m afraid about having to step back a little and can’t kick into full force like I used to.  To even know that I might not be able to pull the last weight I did will discourage me.

 The other thing is that I don’t actually feel comfortable going into the main gym.  I usually work out with everyone and I know many people.  I feel like I want to lock myself up on the women’s only side until I gear up again.  I don’t like the insecure feeling that I’ve now gotten.  I only worked out in there for the first couple of months, for one, I didn’t know anyone on the other side yet and second, my circuits that I was set up with, were only set up for that side.

 I don’t know why I’m feeling like this but it saddens me. 

Hey everyone,

 Here’s a little backup.  Went on vacation on Nov 17 for a week and returned on the 24th.  Worked out a bit that week. I thought I could take the whole week off but it wasn’t happening.  I got back and wanted to ease into it.  Went and did my 3 days of weight training with cardio and abs, and did another 2 days of cardio. 

 Took the next weekend off from Nov 30th, being my birthday and decided that it would be my treat  to have it off with cake that I love the most.  

 Got quite a bit of snow here and pulled my back out that resulted in back pain where I couldn’t do any workouts and ended up getting a pinched nerve.  It has been 12 days.  I have not taken that kind of time off from the gym since I started a year ago.  If anything it is my 1st yr anniversary at the gym.

 I’m going back tomorrow, and the pinched nerve is on my upper back.  I will be able to train at least legs and do some cardio.

How do I get the push to go back since I’ve been off for so long?  I’ve noticed I’ve been really tired.

 Nervous