DreadLimbz’s BodyBlog

Winter is pretty much here  . For the past 3-4 weeks i’ve been working out at home. I’ve been having some great workouts, really intense. My mental status is stronger than ever ( at least when it comes to BB) I dont know how but  intensity lvls are skyrocketing. I’m really not that mad. I guess i do hold alot in, i never talk about sh*t. I just let it fill the air when i lift.I cant  wait to start running again! Im gonna be ****ing tearing it up……****in tearing it up. Back to the intensity thing though, im having random thoughts of maybe seeing whats up with some boxing or mma. Im old as **** so maybe not =P. I think i could **** some **** up! Probably not, nawh scratch that idea, or at least put it in the back of my mind. Not really sure. I do want to share my intensity with the world. Lebron James… Ray Lewis… Kevin Garnett. Those mother ****ers have what i have. That look in Ray Lewis’ eyes.. the expression on his face. Dude is in another zone that few will ever experience…..and so am I

As long as I have been doing this I have never really paid attention to any of the "phases". Due to my really inconsistant diet i have done most of the phases not knowingly… Lol! Now is the time, i think by doing these phases it will help me to be more consistant w/ my diet and have more control over what i eat. So the 1st Phase is cleaning up my diet. Eating the same amount of cals, but making sure that those cals are all clean. My workout routine now consists of a  fullbody workout to failure 3x’s a week. On my off days i run and do abs and on  the weekend i’ve started to do a HIT partial rep routine. We’ll see how everything turns out. I’m still learning alot and this is making me supremely happy.

I have this tendancy to just completely give up for like 7-9 days. What i mean by give up is that i, completely eat horrible, and i dont hit the gym. I get depressed so easily. It always starts like this. Good diet/great workouts for about 2 weeks. Then i slowly start to regress back to eating eating crap.Then eventually i end up feeling like **** about my diet and i stop working out. Diet is so important, i feel as though if im eating this bad then why waste my time going to the gym and this lasts for about a week.  Some may think well thats not too bad , but im saying that i dont like doing it. I know that its holding me back alot. My cardio is outta sight , and i still have a hi bf%. Only one reason and thats the diet. I am now coming back from one of those binges. Pizza, cookies, eating late, not eating enough protein, eating carbs late, eating and then taking a nap AND NO GYM. So i tell myself screw it i’ll just continue to bulk and not cut right now (i try and justify my horrible eating). To be completely honest i still look decent, but im not making progress. I’m not trying to stand still. I'’ll be in the gym tomm and i’ll have a great 1-2 weeks. Next time i feel the binge week coming on. Im gonna just try harder. Im so down right now. All i want is to be an athlete in the BB business. The best! It seriously makes me want to cry, knowing that i have the power and i just keep dropping the ball. In 3 years when im the face of bodybuilding i’ll look back on times like these and smile, but for now its tearing me apart

So alot of things have changed since i last wrote anything. Im still struggling w/ me being consistant w/ my diet, but i am doing one hell of a job. I’ve been bulkin recently, dirty and clean. This is my 1st day starting to cut, so back on my diet. Not really a diet just back to eating 5-6 small meals a day. I have gotten big and i cannot wait to see the results. I know that i will probably need to bulk again once i lean out ina few months. I think my arms chest in legs and shoulders need more mass. We shall see. Life is still kinda just sucking for me, but im not letting it **** up what i’ve been working for. I have so much more to say/vent, but not today. New progress pics today as well im excited to see what ppl think

I feel like every mo. I’m learning so much that i have to "update" what i’m doing. It’s great! I’ve lost a considerable amount of weight and gained alot of muscle. I’ll get the specifics in about a week or two. It’s been kinda rough lately…..kinda, just alot goin down this summer, friends coming in town that i havent seen in yrs, my bday on june 3, friends graduation. I think i did well considering all the distractions. Definitely reached my goal to be in better shape by june 3. Now i’m focusing on get shredded by Sept. Diet…Diet….Diet, i gotta stick to it, and its really not a diet its eating clean. My lease is up Aug 20 sumthin and im not really sure what im gonna do. The most important thing is that i stick w/ what i’m doing. I’m confident that i can, but i definitely want to have a great mind set before everything changes. I guess what im saying is that i want my diet my workout and my drive to never fail. I dont want to ever go backwards or sit still again. I’ve made it through all the parties and now its time to give 100%.. I’ve been giving about 85. Maybe 90, but that last 10% is what gets u ripped and shredded. Within that 10% also lies the ability to have a consistantly clean diet, without it even being something that u really even think about…it’s more of a way of life than a diet when u get there. I think mentally i’ve grown more than my muscles have. Watch me explode in Sept!

The time has come for me to finally say goodbye to my kryptonite. It’s been holding me back from gains and weight loss for yrs. I’ve tried to control myself , but i like to do it so much that it really makes me just say fuk it. I know  tons of other people that do it and who are in great shape and who can control the side effects. i just can’t. It honestly piss’ me off that i have to quit but i do. I love smoking weed more than anything , except bodybuilding. I just have to look at this as a test. Do i want this bodybuilding thing as much as i say i do? Yes i really ****ing do. I’ve been smoking the green for yrs now, it has honestly become a parrt of my life. I’ve tried quitting before and i couldnt sleep, and i didnt for like a week. So i just started smoking again. I’ve tried ‘’slowing down'’, and that just doesnt ****ing work. I like to be hi to the sky, blasted out of my mind. I am mentally addicted to this shixt like no tomm. The fact  that iam serious about quitting is really making me sad and happy, but sad as **** now. I’m never going to get where i want to be physically if i continue to smoke weed, thats the bottom line. I cant control the munchies and its ruining everything that i’ve been working for. Bodybuilding is now my life and anything that jepordizes my goals  has to  ****ing go.

It’s been a damn good few weeks or a mo. you could say. Diet is 75- 80%. Could be better but gotta give me some props. I actually ate like crap yesterday and woke up looking slim as ever. My body is finally turning into a fat burning machine. I do that like once a mo. Take a whole day off and eat crap. I hope to stop doing this, mentally it makes me feel like chit and physically it drains me. It was nice to see that one day of ****ing up isnt going to ruin what i’m trying to do. Just wanna say thanks to my body, ur an amazing machine!

It’s been a damn good few weeks or a mo. you could say. Diet is 75- 80%. Could be better but gotta give me some props. I actually ate like crap yesterday and woke up looking slim as ever. My body is finally turning into a fat burning machine. I do that like once a mo. Take a whole day off and eat crap. I hope to stop doing this, mentally it makes me feel like chit and physically it drains me. It was nice to see that one day of ****ing up isnt going to ruin what i’m trying to do. Just wanna say thanks to my body, ur an amazing machine!

It’s been a damn good few weeks or a mo. you could say. Diet is 75- 80%. Could be better but gotta give me some props. I actually ate like crap yesterday and woke up looking slim as ever. My body is finally turning into a fat burning machine. I do that like once a mo. Take a whole day off and eat crap. I hope to stop doing this, mentally it makes me feel like chit and physically it drains me. It was nice to see that one day of ****ing up isnt going to ruin what i’m trying to do. Just wanna say thanks to my body, ur an amazing machine!

I think only a few ppl will ever actually experience being in the zone like i do. I’m not saying that other ppl dont train hard cause they do. W/ the ipod in my ear and the weights in my hands, sometimes i really loose it. I train w/ so much aggression. I actually feel a rush explode from my spine to the rest of my body and it tingles . I used to get this feeling when i ran and thats why i fell in love w/ it. I need to able to harness this feeling and use it at will. It just happens and i can feel myself changing i notice that i’m not even there , teeth grinding, and a ****ed up look in my eye. No roids, no no explode, straight mother ****in emotion and aggression. Thats all me, this is where i need to be. Ray Lewis is one other person that i can think of that has this ability, Dorian does as well, do you?