DramaQueen8619’s BodyBlog

As most of you know I have been doing P90X for about 72 days now…and you come to learn alot about yourself and your commitment level when you set a goal to accomplish. There are alot of things I have come to understand in these past 2.5 months or so but I want to share just one of them with you, and that is the power of our thoughts and words.

I started off P90X strong and commited and up until about a week ago my motivation has just been climbing and climbing! But last week, I was really down on myself. I have seen my body change and transform in so many ways but I began to think that where I am now is as good as I’ll ever get (because it is as far as I’ve ever been without starving myself). I started to slack on some workouts, I did them but my intensity just wasn’t there and I messed around with my eating schedule as well as the quality of the food that I was putting into my system…and let me tell you last week was a TERRIBLE week. I felt like I wasn’t working hard enough (and I wasn’t) I felt awful because the food I was eating wasn’t fueling my body correctly and I had terrible sleep patterns! On Sunday after my Kenpo X workout (which is usually my favorite and the one I push myself super hard on) I found that I didn’t even break into a sweat and I didn’t get my normal burst of energy to keep me going the rest of the day. And I stopped myself and said "What the heck is wrong with me?" "Why aren’t my workouts working me out?" "Why do I have such a bad attitude?" "Why am I letting these last 30 days…which are the big transformation days; breeze by without giving it all I’ve got!?" And I came to a single answer…IT ALL STARTED WITH MY THOUGHTS. Because I began to think that I just CAN’T move past this weight and I am just ALWAYS gonna be at this body fat percentage I sabotaged my efforts. I mean, after all, if I have convinced myself that THIS is ALL that I am capable of why would I try to push past it? It was a self-fulfilling prophesy.

I am happy to say that this is day 2 in week 3 of Phase III and I have been bringing it and DESTROYING my workouts…and it is because I changed my attitude I am saying to myself "I can" and "I am losing this fat" and that is what keeps me motivated it keeps me on track and it keeps past and present accomplishments and goals clear in my mind. Because I can do this- and I know I can because I have been doing it for the last 72 days! And I am NOT fat because Fat is not something that I AM it is something that I have…and if I have it then I can get rid of it! This fat is NOT a part of who I am, so shedding it is easy. We CANNOT allow ourselves to think that WE ARE our current weight or body fat percentage…those things are temporal and can and WILL change either for the better or worse. Who I am extends beyond a measurement it extends beyond a percentage and a number of reps. I am Me, no matter what the number on the scale…it does not define me.

I hope you all are finding inspiration and motivation from the one place it can come…from inside yourselves! Keep pushing yourself the the limits and beyond them because it is in those moments you find what you are REALLY made of; and my guess is you won’t find that you are made of "fat".

~Teresa

I am half way through Phase III just two more weeks starting Monday and then a recovery week and then on to Round Two! lol I am still focusing on this round though. I am excited to see what my 90 day results are. I have found that sometimes I get so consumed with all the things I have not yet achieved that I underestimate or can’t see the progress so far. I took pictures in the same swimsuit as my December 08 starting pics and I was surprised that the top didn’t even fit anymore…I had to move very carefully so it wouldn’t fall off! I didn’t realize I had lost so much weight/ inches just in the top half of my body! Let alone the bottom half! The bikini bottoms are too big as well but because they have ties on the side I was able to cinch them to keep them on for a picture =) My "trouble" spots are easy to see still even in my newest pictures but the changes that have taken place are even EASIER to spot ^^ Hopefully by December of 2009…I will have reached all of my goals as far as weight and inches!! I will of course keep you updated! =D

~Teresa

So as you have probably guessed today is the official 1/2 way marker in my P90X journey! I am so thrilled with my progress so far ^^ I have the rest of this week and then next week is my 2nd rest week and my next set of pictures ^^ I realize I still haven’t posted pics from my 30 day but as soon as my friend gets them to me they will be posted on here! I did take a pic on my webcam today in a dress that I haven’t been able to get my booty into in about 3 years and I posted that in my gallery just to show you the progress I’ve made in the last 45 days =) P90X has worked BETTER than I ever dreamed it would and it is HARD work but I am willing to do the work for these results…I am pumped can’t wait to brief you all at the end of my journey! Expect big things from me cause I do! =) Keep crushing forward bringing it to the limits and beyond. No Failure. No Excuses No Exceptions. (< got that from an amazing guy on the 300 Spartan message boards on Beachbody.com)

Alright today was the end of my rest week and I am now heading into Phase II! I am jumping in feet first! After 7 days of cardio and yoga I am ready to get back to my weights and resistance bands =) I have so much intensity and I just can’t wait to power through the next 62 days! I was supposed to take pics today but my camera is buggered so a friend is stopping by to take some tomorrow. However, I did weigh myself and measure again =) I have lost about 10 inches all over, I have dropped a pant size but for whatever reason the scale has only shown a decrease of 2 lbs which is a little irritating but I chalk it up to muscle mass. I didn’t want to make excuses for myself by saying "oh it’s just the weight of the muscle" but the evidence has shown that I have lost inches so I must be doing something right. Scales frustrate me to no end lol…I think i might skip out on weighing myself till the very end of the program…it might save me from ripping my hair out lol…does anyone else understand my disgust for scales!? lol Anyway i am hoping to get those pics up soon =) Stay tuned

It has been a great run so far…I tried on a pair of pants today that I haven’t been able to get into for about 2 years and they fit! I couldn’t believe it…they were a size 9/10 and they actually fit! It is so awesome, and I am so excited I am just that much closer to reaching my goals and I am feeling motivated and strong. I am totally looking forward to Phase two of P90X and Bringing it every day! I have 73 days left of this round and I already know that I am gonna continue to do it every day after that! For the first time I can see that finish line in the horizon…all the goals I have set for myself are just in front of me all I have to do is run up and take them…and I am! I just wanted to share my sense accomplishment…even though I am not there yet I know that I WILL GET THERE. Its incredible…I feel great!

I hope the rest of you are doing well and fighting toward your goals one day at a time!

Started the third week of P90X today and I am feeling pumped! I joined a thread on the message boards and beachbody.com and they are all animals…it gets me motivated and excited and it definitely pushes me to work harder and just bring it! They are called the Spartans…cute right? lol. They have this competition amongst themselves to workout crazy hard for 90 days starting August 3 (just in time for Halloween) So they can wear awesome costumes (most are from the movie 300…totally sexy) But anyway it is just a fun goal but also enough to push me harder because October 31st seems to be just around the corner. I am trying to decide between a few costume ideas…one is the Queen Gorgo costume from the movie 300 (that’s the queen of sparta), the other is Lara Croft from Tomb Raider (thanks to CoachKempo for suggesting that one) Aeryn Suun from Farscape or of course Princess Leia in the gold bikini lmao…my husband really likes that one. What do you all think? I am pretty excited about it…even thinking about throwing a huge Halloween party with costume contests just to make it more fun on my end. I know its a really silly goal but its so fun!

Anyway, I should get to bed…plenty of resistance bands and sweat to dream about tonight hahahaha. Hope everyone is well and I will be posting my progress pics at the end of next week ^^ aren’t you excited? i know I am!!! lol!

CHEERS!

Well I am well into the second week of P90X and it is just awesome…I totally love it. It has fit so perfectly into my day and I have to say that though it is extreme I find a lot of enjoyment and fulfillment completing each workout to the best of my ability. Eric has been gone for a little over two weeks now and I am finding all kinds of new ways to keep myself entertained. Weeded out my entire flower bed (which was quite a feat considering the flower bed contained nothing but weeds lol!), laid down weed blocker mat and mulch; cleaned out every cupboard and cabinet and drawer in my house and reorganized it and have also managed to keep up my normal day to day stuff. It is getting a little harder to find stuff to do - but I am creative I am sure I will dream up some new ways to keep myself busy. Hope everyone is doing well. Have a great weekend <3

My husband is leaving for 3 months on Friday to go to gagetown for some military exercises and courses and I will be home bored out of my mind and missing him like crazy…but we have bought P90X and we are taking the challenge while we are apart and since his course is a little longer than 90 days we will see how much progress each one of us has made when we are reunited in October…it will be nice because it will be like rediscovering each other all over…90 days is a long time to be a part but a short time to transform your body we are starting it on Monday so I will keep you posted on my progress and update pictures and stats as often as I can. I am so excited and so motivated! But still words of encouragement are welcome…you can never have enough positive re-enforcement! =) And if anyone has done the program before I would love to hear from you ^^

I updated my stats and progress pictures today and I just wanted to extend my excitement to those who may be feeling as though their efforts are being wasted. There have been times these past few months when the scale hasn`t budged and the mirror seemed to act like one of those crazy carnival mirrors, nothing seemed to be changing and I felt like caving into my old habit (i.e. starving myself). However, the more I felt like nothing I did was working the more I PUSHED myself to just do it. I rationalized that I still have alot of distorted images of myself that have lingered since my rehabilitation for my ED and just because I don`t see the changes doesn`t mean they are not there. I just kept telling myself  ‘If you do 60minutes of cardio, If you do that 45 minutes of weight lifting, If you do that 70 minute power yoga; it HAS to be doing SOMETHING!` and so without seeing the results right away, without giving up and going back to an unhealthy life style…without shoving 12 cookies down my throat I just Did it. It`s the same way my faith in God works…just because I can`t see it, doesn`t mean it is not there. In fact, it is in those moments when you can`t see that you find out just how committed you are to the whole process.

I hope all of you, those of you who have become close friends of mine, and those of you who I don`t know are doing GREAT! and that you never get to a point where you want to just give it up…but if you do just look at it as a test to see if your heart is really in it…and in the end it is soooo worth it!!! And that`s something you can count on =)

I am really excited because every weekend from this weekend till July 19th my husband and I will be driving 5 hours south to be involved in the Canadian Badlands Passion Play in Drumheller, AB. I did the play last year and it was so much fun so it will be nice to get back into the groove of things…not to mention it keeps me busy on the weekends and active because there is alot of hiking involved in the rehearsals. The play takes place in a natural, outdoor amphitheatre with hills and cliffs, which makes it awesome for hiking and running on our time off. Not to mention the busier I stay on the weekends the better, because those seem to be the days when I munch more than normal. Anyway wish me luck =)