Wild Weekend
So I practically crashed and fell off the wagon last week. I felt terrible, wanted to quit dieting and doing cardio and go back to eating and half-assed lifting like over winter. I went on a huge binge over the weekend to affirm the era of a new bulk and the end of the cut. I gorged on Chinese food at the buffet, I gorged on chocolate, ice cream, pudding, steak, lamb chops, honey oatmeal, PB&J sandwiches, and sugary cereal. I also shaved my head and, feeling traumatized by the event, started smoking and taking straight shots of Wild Turkey until my face and mouth were numb and standing was an inconceivable feat.
As bloated and fat as I still felt today, I still took a curious look in the mirror and found myself looking better than before. Maybe its psychological; I expected to look terrible, but 2 days of eating like crap won’t completely change the way you look. I took some pictures to document this, and they turned out alright. In other words, its not just the mirror. I feel much better now though, and I guess I’ll just have to keep doing what I’m doing: busting my ass during the week and letting it go during the weekend.
April 11, 2007 at 6:50 am
Welcome to Lesson #1. It takes more than a couple days (or weeks even) to turn back into that guy you remember in the mirror. It took me almost 3 years to figure it out - so you are way ahead of where I was when I started.
Lesson #2 is a lot harder. You are going to have to eat to look lean. Crazy, I know. But since your build is not that of a runway waif, you are going to have to add muscle weight to look the way you want to look. The trick is the same intensity you put into starving yourself (and don’t tell me that wasn’t a mental and physical hell) you now need to put into working out and eating -not diet, but nutritional eating. In addition tacking together some exercises in your garage isn’t going to cut it. You are either going to have to invest in a home gym (not reccomended) or join a gym so that you can properly work your muscles. -check out some of my Bodyspace and linked blogs on "overcoming the fear and setting foot in a gym"
This is something you can do. You have taken the right steps at the right time. Now you just need the knowledge and education to fulfill your goal, and at this point in your life NO goal body, social, or personal is unachieveable.