Desire88’s BodyBlog

  i just got my oxygen abs issue for summer 08.  at the back of it they are asking for women to take on what i call an ab challenge starting from when they get the issue if they want.   1st place is $1000, 2nd place is $500, and 3rd is $250.  the next 15 get a free 2 year subscription to oxygen.  i wouldn’t mind getting that.

   i am very excited about this because now it gives me something even more to strive for.  i am willing to take any help to anyone who offers.  your going to have to excuse if the next picture i take looks bad.  i have to make myself look like i made a huge transformation which wont be hard because it will be true.  so i am looking forward to this and wish me the best of luck.

everything has been going well.  now that have one new job i feel a little better.  i still need one more job just to make paying the bills and saving money and money for school easier.( something tells me it doesn’t get easier though) but i will remain in being positive. my mind make over in going great so far.  i have stopped biting my nails and i am now working on forgiving myself and people who are no longer in my life.  holding on is causing me stress and i didn’t even know it.  now i am ready to move on.

as far as my workouts i have been keeping up with my five days a week and healthy eating.  my clothes are getting a little loose on me and that feels good.  my arms re more defined than they have every been.  so i now working on my legs and abs oh and my back.  i would like to have a nice lean back.  i want my body to be evenly toned all over.  i am also working on cooking my own meals again to keep me from eating foods that are not good for me.  i have also started reading books on health and healthy eating.  i have to say i am going in the right direction and hope to continue down that road.

i had to write this to better explain my downfall in my progress pixs.  i was working at a job where i had to work 52 hours a week.  not only that they treated us to lunch like like once a week.  of course it was nothing healthy at all and it was free.  anywho the job left me tried and with not time to do anything.  by time i got home i just wanted some me time in my bed.  that was it.  i let that job go because i felt like it was taking away who i was as a person.  i was not free to be me and the pay was not even worth it.

now i am on the hunt for a job that will make me happy and i am trying to get my body back in tip top shape.( i was there once upon a time)  i have realized my body constantly needs to have new exercises.  i don’t get bored with them but my body does.  it’s hard for me to find new things to do far as working out since i do it a home.  i will do my best to make it work, so far as inches i have been doing great but as weight i suck.  i almost fell like the scale has gone up 5 pounds every month, it’s getting crazy.  so what i have been doing is i put myself on a 1200 calorie diet, eating healthy food while continuing to work out and weight train.  i have also added in this ab ball.  i hope everything comes together in two months.  i at least want to be bikini ready.

i added a new machine to my work out.  i am doing chest presses now something else.  lol i don’t know what it is called but it works my arms and back.  i’s sore already and it isn’t even the next day yet.  i am hoping along with everything else it will help shape my body.  would be nice it if gets rid of the upper back fat.  something tells me i am not that lucky.  all i can do is keep trying.

for the pass week and a half i have been sick.  before that i was so sore i couldn’t work out.  i am so upset because i feel like i lost most of the muscles in my abs i worked hard to get.  i’m all bloated now.  just to make sure i am better i will start working out this up coming monday.  i’m looking forward to feeling strong again.

i haven’t been hat sick in a long time.  i missed two days of work and everything.  they still wanted me to come to work which i did but made things worse.  i decided  i ha to take two days off to get well.  other than that i don’t think i would have ever gotten better.  wish me luck as i will soon be looking good again.  i’ll be posting pixs soon. 

  i love the changes i have made so far in my health.  i don’t feel so depressed right now and i do have more energy to work out and do anything esle that needs to be done.  i have done well with not drinking soda it has been a month.  i am still working on lowering the sugar amount i have which isn’t that bad to begin with.  next i will start working on salt.

  the work outs have been going great.  so far it has been two weeks and i have made my five work outs a week.  i’m very proud of myself and i am starting to see the results with my clean eatting and exercise and it’s nice to know i can have the body i want.  don’t get me wrong it is very hard to keep my cheat meals to one meal a week.  that i still need to work on.  wish me luck!

it’s amazing how those number on the scale can just run your life.  i tried not to be like that but when i saw that 180 on the scale.  i got so mad.  i have never been that big nore did i want to.  i did my usual working out and trying to get back to my clean eatting.  when you taste junk food sometimes it taste so good.  so i need to retrain my mind and body.  remind myself why i am doing this in the 1st place.

i want and stood in the mirror naked and looked at myself.  i loved the way i looked.  i love my big butt, thighs, and boobs.  so i want to work on my mid section and my arms.  i do work on my legs as well so i do not look uneven.   but when i am done which my work will never be done.  i’m gonna be a killer babe.  i decided not to read into the scale as much.  i can’t let it run my life.  i need to focus on the important.  like good health and a long life.

   i had read a article about how you only need 3 hours of cardio a week.  i’ve been testing that for the past two weeks.  i am seeing results on top of my healthy eatting.  i am considering trying some more supplements.  oh and i need to start taking more protein again.  it’s like i start but then i stop because of running out of milk in the house.  but i am going to get it together and stay that way.

   i couldn’t think of a title right now.  today is just one of those days were i feel like my body doesn’t look that great. i wonder if it is because of stress with finals and everything.  i can’t wait for it to be over so i can fully focus of myself.

    lately i have been wondering if i should be by myself to help make me a better person.  i seem to be worried about pleaseing everyone but myself.  i just don’t know how people will take it.  i’m just tried of going along with what everyone esle wants me to do.  my job,friends, and parents.  i think it’s time for me to break that bond.  cheers to that next step.

   hello, those of you who vist my page often know i am working hard to get my body nice and toned and know i post pics all the time to show my progress.  i just wanted to say thank to all you with nice comments and for the support.

    thise of you who have rude comments and want to compare to those skinny models in hollywood.  that is not real.  i am real and i love the way i look.  i can wear anything i want if i a please.  if you don’t like the way i look, don’t look at my page.