Delaylah’s BodyBlog

So it’s been awhile since I’ve updated this…so here it goes… 

I’ve had my surgery…I’ll admit…it wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. It wasn’t fun…but the pain was much more manageable than expected…hey, I’ve had leg days that hurt more! lol! My recovery went well too, I was up and about almost right away. 

My doctor is confident they were able to remove all the compromised tissue and that I won’t need any other treatments. I do need to go back in 6 months…that’s when we’ll know for sure if I’m out of danger. But, I have decided NOT to sit around and worry. I am going to get back to my life…and enjoy every moment. 

Now here’s the fun part for me…I wasn’t allowed to train for 3 weeks…and I’ll be getting into the gym for the first time since the surgery today…I am psyched. I was freaking out with no gym time…really at a lost for what to do with myself. I’m still not allowed to do any heavy lifting…but plan to work in some circuits and cardio… 

Wish me luck! 

Ok, so there isn’y anything new to write…one day at a time right now so to speak.

I’m still training…wich is really my saving grace. When I’m in the gym..I’m strong and powerfull…and who has time to worry when you’re grunting your way through a tough workout anyway?! LOL!

I figured I would put up a post just so say that for right now…I’m OK. I’m dealing. And I will get there.

Allright, things are finally moving.

After a few days of being bounced around different departments (seriously, if I heard "I’m sorry m’am…that’s not my job" one more time my head would have exploded!) I finally managed to get to the right person and now have my first meeting with the specialist I need to see for my surgery.

I still need to go through all the bull**** of more exams, tests ect…but at least the ball is rolling. Now, all I have to do is stay sane until my appoitnment; september 2nd. Yep, long live the Canadian Health Care system…when 3 weeks is considered a short wait time!

I can do this…one day at a time…

So…

I’ve gotten some terrible news and here it is. I’ve been diagnosed with cancer. Ugly as that word is, I feel like it’s better to name it and face it…all the better to rally for the fight.

I’m lucky in a way, it’s been caught early enough that it’s treatable with surgery…unless it spreads quickly,they’re confident that I won’t need any chemo…(sighs with relief).

The part that really sucks…6 weeks out from my show, and I won’t be able to compete. Seems kinda funny to be so upset about that considering…

For anyone who’s wondering, I’ve decided to blog about this, because I feel like being open about it and letting people know I’m going to fight regardless of what happens makes me feel stronger.

Till next time….

Ok…for those who are interested, everything was going well, my BF was going down steadily…until this week. I went for my weekly follow up appointment with my trainer, and my BF went UP!

 Now…when you’re not eating any carbs and the mood is already not fantastic, hearing that you got FATTER is not exactly what you want to hear.

I know in perspective, it’s not a big deal, we’ll just tighten up the diet a little more and add some cardio……and yet…I’m still pissed.

 Ok…I feel better now that I’ve ranted…now to drag my a** to do some cardio.

I’m back on the diet (not even going to comment on THAT lol!)

And had my check in with my trainer this week…all is well, except my bodyfat hasn’t budged for a month! I know I shouldn’t worry…I’m already at 11% and still have about 12 weeks until my show…but I’ll admit I’m frustrated. My trainer was very encouraging, telling me "I’ve seen what your capable of, I’m not worried and you should be either". Ok. I’ll work on that lol.

I start a new program tomorrow and am excited about that..can’t wait to get into the gym!

Allright…so I’ve picked a new federation and my show is October 4th.

 I’ve started cleaning up the old diet…and am training my a** off…feeling good and I can’t wait to step on stage again

Ok, so I’ll admit it. I haven’t been training much since my show… between both of  my jobs and moving…I’ve let it slide.
I’m slowly getting back into it…and have realized how much strength I lost slacking off. It’s crazy!

Now here’s my real problem. I want to compete again… the whole experience was amazing, but the federation I compete in is getting a little big for me. I love the look, but it’s just a little too muscular for what I want to do with MY body. I love being hard and lean, but to keep up, I’d have to get MUCH bigger. I’ll admit it. It’s not really a look I want for my body.  I guess I’ll have to look into other federations… decision decisions!

So my first show was on satuarday…and I’ll admit it. I’m in love. I will definitely be back onstage again next year!

I didn’t make the top 3, but oddly enough, I’m not really disapointed. I’m pretty happy with the package I brought, and I think I did well for my first time. I wasn’t able to drop my water…wich was the frustrating part, considering I had nothing to drink for more than 24 hrs…but hey. It’s all a learning experience, right?
I also got a lot of really positive feedback from the judges as well as my trainer. Everone agreed that I present myself really well, with a lot of confidence and stage presence. The judges suggested I need to bring up my legs and come in drier next time, but not to change my upper body…they actually thought it was impressive

So there it is. I’ll be back bigger, better and badder next year !

I haven’t posted in awhile…but lately between training, and all the s*** I have to get done…I haven’t had time for anything. but now…I’m a week out from showtime…and I’m feeling good…
I’m tired of my diet…but hey…comes with the territory, right?

I start my deplete tomorrow…and am already sodium loading as well as drinking 10 liters of water a day. I’m sooo glad I took the time off work…I don’t think my boss would appreciate all the bathroom breaks I need!
But, my trainer is happy with the way I look…I don’t have any fat left to lose…well, actually I haven’t for 2 weeks now, so I’m coasting in.
My carb up starts on thursday..and I can honestly say I’m looking forward to it… I’m looking forward to friday even more! Cheesecake and chocolate bars. Hmmm…I think I can handle that…even if I don’t get anything to drink with ‘em

Friday evening, weigh in and sign in for the show… eat all night…hair and makeup at 6am…showtime is 9am…
Since I’m doing 2 shows on the same day…it’s gonna be a LONG day… pre judging for the first show starts at 9, finals at noon, then prejuging again at 1…with the finals for that show starting at 6pm. Hmmmm….methinks I will be exausted…

I’ll be sure to let everyone know how I do!