VStar_Mans BodyBlog

I just wish this fluid was devoid from my life entirely, I am fighting alcoholism like pancreatic cancer. Its winning the battle, cause Im not trying full force. I love my beer too much and most of my friends and part of my family are all drinkers from one degree to another. My father is almost a chronic alcoholic, and I believe it is inherited. This last weekend really threw me off the wagon. I was doing really good in the last few months with my fitness routine, but everybody wants to party with me. My wife wont quit smoking, and she also drinks like a fish on the weekends. I gave up on trying to convert her to this wonderful life of being fit. My son turned 21 and brings beer home almost everyday in our garage fridge, since he still is living with us. He is also athletic, but now the Demon alcohol is consuming him now. He claims he drinks it very moderately, but I told him give it time, if hes not carefull. Our camping trip that I just came back from this last Memorial day weekend was fun, there was too much unhealthy food and gorging around me, and just too much beer. I got easily tempted these last few weekends, and they are tuning into binge drinking episodes. I always brag about how I dont drink anymore during the whole week, but when friday night comes around, there goes my metabolism and my muscle building recovery. Then when Monday comes around I have to start all over again. I dont know what to do, I love my beer to much, but I just cant lose it, and Im not losing the belly fat like I should either. Oh great here comes summer with all the outdoor festivitys that are just going to hamper my fitness routine. I admit I am a F**king wussy with this situation and I am weak and hoplessly damned. Im a hard gainer with building muscles and Im about to give up, start smoking again, drink beer everyday, dont eat right, and hopefully I will die from this and then this pathetic existance will cease from suffering. I know this sounds very depressing, but I need help, and I wish that all my family and friends would stop exposing all this temptation before me. Im not LDS anymore, and Im not going to go back to that religion to reform my situation. (I dont want to insult anyones belief.) I am thinking of joining a real christian denomination to keep on on the right track if that helps me. I think I need help, and I want to strive better in my bodybuilding project because time is running out for me, the clock is ticking. I have a deadline at the age of Fifty. I want to look buffed. I apologize for this negative writing, but Im depressed and very discouraged with life, and being very economically declined now doesnt help either. My wife and I maybe facing forclosure of our house now cause of my job situation. My job went from full time to part time, and my wifes job as well, we are not staying above water. Im going to give up now. I think Im going to have my bodyspace removed from this site. thanks for reading my depressing blog.

I just went to a Gym in a neighboring city from where I live. This is the first time that I went to a public Gym since three years ago. I didnt join yet, but It looks real cool. I felt like I went and cheated on somebody since I have my own little insignificant gym. The weights and machines were awesome for a city recreation center. All the Equipment were made by company called Hoist. As soon as my income improves I am joining a Gym, but Im still keeping my junk in the Garage.

Now that I know what High Intensity Interval training is, it kicks major booty. I ran on my tread mill for about 15 minutes on speed setting 6, then right at 15 minutes I bumped it up at speed setting 9. I ran like a bat out of hell for about 1 minute, then slowed backed down to setting 6 again. I did this three times and then I stayed on setting 6 for about a five minutes and cooled down at setting 4 for about 5 minutes. After this I was exhausted. I read that this is a great fat burner.

It is nearly two months of weight training and its time to take a week off at least from the weights. I was studying information on the main site about hitting a plateau and overtraining your body that it may produce a detriment in your building progress. They are not joking about recovery. I got to a certain point where I could not lift no more than 9 reps at 135 lbs. on the first set, I felt weaker than I did last week. I eat properly and get enough rest, so I figured maybe after these last two months of hard training, I’ll take a break and do only cardio. Next week definetly back to pumping the Eisen (German for Iron).

If any body catches this blog at the speed of light, cause thats what it seems like how long it stays posted for any curious readers, But could somebody answer this question. Why do some people hold up newspapers in their profile pictures? I was just curious.

for those of you that despise those last but not least after-tasting ingredients at the bottom of your drink mix, I have been forced to hunt down and search for the unflavored mixes of 100%whey shakes. I’ve had nothing but bad expierences with three major synthetic sweeteners:

Sucralose, Aspertame, and Acesulfame Potassium. Everything from Migraines, nausea, bloating, loss of concentration, all day bitter taste in the mouth, etc…. The list gos on. I know that regular sugar spikes insulin, but I have my own chocolate  flavor recipe:

unflavored 100% whey protien shake, one that has all the bcaa’s. 1 or 2 scoops?
one heaping tablespoon of unsweetened cocoa powder

one small teaspoon of glutamine powder (optional)

one level tablespoon of natural organic unbleached cane sugar

one teaspoon of Stevia or Xylitol.

Its sounds time consuming, but I think it does the job. I dont know what it is about artificial sweeteners, but I think down the road, we are going to have some major health complications with these synthetic sweet poisons. Has it not been known that aspartame has caused neuralogical damages in some people from prolonged use? But Thats the good old FDA for ya!

I took a nice but brisk walk on a desert trail not far from my home. They call it the Chuckwalla Trail, and I did probably a two and a half mile speed walk and jogged some of it. My shins are aching like crazy, but its good. This is a rest day, but Im going to do some kind of cardio. If anybody has ever read this and ever travels to southern Utah, look up information about cool hiking trails in the area, if the reader is interested in that kind of activity. I like it as much as bodybuilding and almost as much as sex.

A week ago I did pretty good, only three ultra light Michelobs (62 calories) on a Friday, and five the next night which was Saturday, compared to what I used to do a month ago, a 30 pack of MGD every weekend. I was doing that for the last two years. Its not easy to relax and sit down on a Friday night, which was last night, without my Drafty Cold one, but I think the protruding belly is shrinking, and my workouts are getting better. Im going the whole month of Feburary without my weekend rituals.

I hate being what I am classified as an Ectomorph in the body categorey of different sizes. I feel like a stick man with an inner tube at the waist. There is nothing worse than being thin and fat at the same time, but I have always been naturally athletic all my life, its that I had to be distracted by "cigs and beer" which got in the way. Its been two weeks since I havent touched a drop of beer, and I quit smoking three years ago. The workouts are getting better now, and I dont feel like I am starting all over again after a beer filled weekend like I did last year. I think I am seeing some results now. My weight is starting to plummet, but I hope I am not going to acquire catabolicism. It is a delicate situation between losing the belly, but not the beefyness, and talk about a test of patience. Im always gaging the results with a mirror and the bathroom scale everyday. But anyway its sucks being a meduim sized ectomorph.

I arrive at work, 7:00 am in the morning. Good schedule for me, and there is always a huge box of Donuts and the "anti-nutritional enforcement officer" almost forcing me as soon as I entered our work area to indulge upon an artery clogging arsenal of garbage. Very generous, but wrong stuff. About 2/3rds of our crew were overweight or obese, and they were all smokers. I would of fit in well about three years ago. And it seemed like that every time I turned around, they were always going to lunch together, and persuading me to come with, which is kind, but their persistance got annoying, and of course they go to an establishment that has nothing but fattening shit. They knew that I have started a new life style, and my diet consisted of what body builders normally consume, and talk about peer pressure, but I continued to resist. And then when the winter holidays arrived, I had to go into maximum shielding. I even cheated a little too at times. I have never seen so much gorging and pigging out in my life, and I get this "C’mon dude its Christmas time, a little wont hurt". I was thinking that they are deliberatley trying to sabotage my success. My slogan for this situation was called "Its hard to soar like an eagle when your with a bunch of turkeys" Well that unhealthy persuasion is all behind me now, because we fell victims of our dwindling economy, and they laid a bunch of us off. A blessing in disguise for me. If I expierence that again in my next job, I’m just going to defend myself even more.