DOLLFACEDCUTIE’s BodyBlog

OMG… So, the difference I find in myself in the last two years is that no matter how I get off track, unlike before, I understand what I am doing wrong and I stick to my healthy ways at least 50% of the time. I don’t go off the wall and binge.
Now, I am following my better habits about 95% of the time. It is a step up but after reading my past blogs, I see that I am doing really bad with consistency and with doing what I need to do to lose weight. If I was doing what I needed to do this whole time, I’d be at my goal. I walk for cardio now and train twice a week… I know once my diet is on point, I will see great results. I see results now but not on the scale, I notice the effects that the training has had on my body’s contour but it’s not enough and what I want to lose is not a lot compared to those who have dedicated themselves to losing 3 digit numbers.

I changed my diet the last week to consist of things like, organic boiled eggs and ezekiel bread for breakfast, organic chicken and salad for lunch, Dream Protein with banana and goat milk in between and more chicken, or fish with salad or vegetable pasta or broccoli for dinner. I am also trying to drink more water and lay off on the coffee and dairy. I hope I can keep this up. The last time I kept it up for a month and I felt amazing inside and out, I lost weight and got rid of all of my allergies, but then I started feeding into the, "you don’t have to be so strict, you can eat other things, why are you depriving yourself, you only have one life". I started having little things here and there and it turned into, half of the time. I should know better, I am the only one who has control of what goes in my body, and the only one who will live with the outcome of that.

I have been training three times a week since August and I feel very different this time around. My eating habits have become a part of my lifestyle. I eat no fast food or dairy and I cook as much as I can at home. In the last week I have really tried to be even more strict, sticking to lean proteins and salads. I even have salad with my egg and egg whites in the morning. I am a protein type so I am proud that I finally came to the point where I am in control of my eating. I am also taking a nutrition class. Having the right information is a powerful tool. I feel better than ever when it comes to my diet and stronger than ever when it comes to weight and core training. My body can do things it would never have been able to do before. My biggest challenge is incorporating cardiovascular training in my routine. I know that once I implement this habitually the fat will shed. I look to bodybuilding.com for motivation and to keep track of my progress. I will be working out in about 45 minutes and I will weigh myself and enter in my stats when I get back home…

It is now June 9th 2008 and some time has passed since my exciting start to my transformation. About a month ago, I had to buy a bridesmaid dress for my cousins wedding which was held this past Saturday, June 7th, in Puerto Rico. David’s Bridal did not have my size in the right color of the dress and they called all the stores and told me that it was going to take 2 months (at least) to ship, since no store had it in stock. Normally i’d be an 8/10 in a dress but I had no choice but to either tell my cousin I couldn’t come out in her wedding or buy the last dress they had available which was a size 4. I chose to buy the dress and surprisingly it zipped up but was way too tight. I thought that’d be my motivation to lose weight this past month but instead I feel that I gained weight. I had to get the dress altered and buy a tremendous girdle to fit into it. The wedding went ok, despite the fact that the zipper broke the day before and I had to have the dress sewn together on me the day of the wedding, lol.

With the pressure of the wedding off of me, I feel refreshed and ready to start my transformation.  I also changed my personal trainer because the one that I had was slacking which makes me slack off as well. I need to be strict and focused in order for this to happen. I don’t work well taking baby steps. It’s all or nothing for me, and I know that is not a good thing but I notice that I lose motivation and take a back seat on my goals when I start slacking off. It becomes a domino effect and I just keep on procrastinating. This time I will try a new approach and change my way of thinking. I will try to set small goals for myself. I would love to know what the best form of motivation is, in the meantime I will try to blog daily, not to lose focus.

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