DJINN’s BodyBlog

My fiance’ and I have looked forward to the arrival of our son since we first learned we were pregnant.  He was due April 27^th, but as with so many 1^st time pregnancies, our little boy decided that he wanted to stay inside a little bit longer than that.  We were scheduled to have cesarean section delivery on May 9^th to bring our little boy into the world…

…well, our anticipation of parenthood has come to an end…unfortunately not the celebratory end that most people hope for.  It is with a very heavy heart that I announce on Thursday May 8, 2008 Anthony Christopher Washington entered this world deceased.  As a result of acute placental rupture requiring immediate intervention to try to save him, my son was neither able to see a glimmer of sunlight nor inhale his first or last breath.  He weighed 9lbs, 4oz and was blessed with hair that would make me quite envious.

It is most tragic that this occur at any time to anyone, but to occur the day before his scheduled arrival adds insult to injury.  My fiance is physically well and recovering.  Emotionally, we are both devastated.  This is the worst thing that has ever happened to us as quite literally, a piece of both of us has died.  There are no words to describe how we feel, nor any condolences that will ease our pain.  I guess time really will be the great healer of our wounds.

I share this news because we realize that we have a long road ahead in grieving and recovery.  A parent should never have to bury their children…it should always be the opposite.  As we stumble through our loss and plan private arrangements, we hope to avoid reliving this day countless times but know that it will take time and talking to get through this tragic event.  Sharing my loss is part of my recovery from it.

On this day, Mother’s Day, I ask that you not grieve our loss, but behold and take not for granted the loved ones in your lives.  Make the most of each day you have, hug those you love, and never let a day pass without telling those close to you how much they mean.

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