~CynthiaMarie~’s BodyBlog

Well I haven’t added any new progress pictures up lately and that’s because I haven’t made any progress! I really suck at this lol. I really admire everyone that is disciplined enough to stick with it and reach their goals. Although I have gained back the few pounds that I did manage to lose and then some, I’m not giving up quit yet. I know it can be done. Each time I fail, I learn something knew and I hope that I can take everything that I have learned and use all that to finally reach my goals. I’m really trying to stay optimistic about it. I hate not feeling good about myself anymore. I miss being able to wear cute clothes and feel really confident. I will be going out of state to visit my family for Christmas and I want to look good! I don’t want to be embarrassed to run into old friends while I’m there either. I think five months is plenty of time to make great changes! Tomorrow will be day one and I know there are wonderful people here that will support me!

Well I finally had a decent workout. For awhile I was doing so good and noticing changes but when I allowed myself to cheat a little it all started going downhill from there. I’m trying really hard to get back to eating right and consistently working out. I don’t think that I have a ton of weight to lose but my self discipline sucks! I just want to lose this weight once and for all and start feeling good about myself again. Since I don’t have any people around me that are into fitness I am counting on you people to keep an eye on me. I could really use your help!

Alright well I pretty much don’t care for seafood at all. Tuna is pretty much the only thing I can have. Although Im not too crazy about it I still eat it due to the nutritional benefits. I still ate it that is, until I got totally grossed out! I found tiny bones and scales in my tuna. Well after that experience it took a while before I would even consider eating tuna again. When I finally did, everything was fine for awhile and then it happened again. Could it be just the brand Im getting (Chicken of the Sea) or does everyone else experience the same?

Well I’ve been working out and eating better for about three weeks consistently. I don’t think i’ve ever been able to do it for that long. I know…thats sad but so true! Although the numbers on the scale haven’t changed much I can see small changes especially in my lower body. I can see muscles in my legs that I haven’t seen….ever! I think for once I am starting to like my legs! Maybe this summer I will be comfortable wearing shorts and I don’t think that my legs would mind getting some sun either. They really need it lol.

This Memorial Day will definately be memorable! Today my boyfriend and I were on our way home from his moms and we happened to notice a cop behind us. Nothing too crazy about that right? Well we didn’t think much of it either until we were followed for about fifteen minutes and not by just one but five cop cars and a helicopter! They finally had pulled us over and next thing I know we have guns pointed towards us and they are yelling for us to get out of the car. So of course we listen and they come and handcuff us. It wasn’t exactly the way I pictured being in handcuffs for the first time btw Well anyways you would think I would be freaked out about all this but I honestly couldn’t help but laugh about all this because it was so ridiculous. It probably wasn’t the smartest thing to laugh in front of the cops when they were handcuffing me and feeling me up but I honestly couldn’t help it! Well it turned out that my boyfriends fx was reported stolen from the dealership b4 he bought it and when it was found the plates were never cleared from the system and the cops thought we were in a stolen car! Well after about 30 minutes of being in cuffs by the side of the road things were finally cleared up and they let us go. In a way I feel lucky that the cops weren’t complete jerks about the whole thing…..i’ve heard some stories about them..

Well I absolutely did not want to post any pictures of myself because I am so embarrassed! After really thinking about it I decided that I needed to just do it. I thought that if I really wanted to make a change then I needed to be completely open and honest with myself. Im also very happy that I found BB.com. Everyone here seems so positive and supportive of each other and thats exactly what I need!