Alicias Blog

Ab definition, the one thing we all strive for or secretly wish to obtain (for those who are begining there journey or even continuing!). Myself, I go high and low, and its awful to not have a steady diet or work out routine these days. I have full time college work, a full time job, and a boyfriend who I try to spend time with but its hard when we have complete opposite schedules and now days off : (.. He is ALSO my lifting partner who decided, with my other partner to go to a different time (which is when Im working) so my  motivation is low. However the other day while swimming, tan women with the perfect figure made me feel fat and hideous. I absolutely hate my appearance lately, and I know its awful to say but its true. Im white Euro mix for the most part with a dabble of other things…Im "curvy" meaning I have an unusual build that most others dont have..I have some upper abs but NO lower abs…

Point blank. I need to lose more fat..Staying anywhere from 19 to 16% body fat simply isnt working out for me.

Problem is how?

How can I get that definition when Im a Power lifter? Ive heard tons of things, more cardio, cardio on different days, even less calories, more calories, cold water, work out longer, work out short with more intesnity, interval training(great stuff)…but what works? Ive tried millions of things, sometimes i look better, but i dont know how I did it really.

Im confused and baffled to this, because at times I DO eat the same thing everyday (not all good), and i do know sleep plays a role….but I can lose weight and look flabby. So what the flip?

Ive been training for 3-4 years and still not a dream girl, Ive never felt worse.

I really wish there was a way for me to lose this all for once, and keep it away for everrrr…Im so sick of being self-conscious!!!!!!  Am I strong? Hell yes. Am I beautiful? Not really.

I need to get lean, but going to the gym after work (where Im literally running back and forth all day) isnt the best thing anymore, due to my aching knees *been taking fish oil*…and boxing was great but now i have no one to train with.

10 minute Trainer looked neat to me, which is a shocker, i hate infomercials, but im so desperate for my goal…and terribly tired while writing this so excuse me if its all over the place (as per usual haha).

I love bodybuilding, but I need the body, to build on it….. : (…*sad face*

Need heelllp…Im never going to be a model figure at this rate! Comments please <: ).

Hot Rox? Or something else? Im trying to find something without caffeine, since Im immune to it!

If you have any input on this let me know : )…yes i know its horrible to take pills and they arent ‘very effective’ but who knows!

I am in desperate need of a lifting partner! However Im not sure if its safe to blurt out anything personal on here or not, or where I would go to find one. I could just ask someone in the gym but I hate asking for a spot at times. I want someone whos serious about lifting like I am, and who enjoys it. Any suggestions on finding someone? My friends all think Im weird because of it, sooo they aren’t much help.

Alrighty thats all for now!

New photos coming soon~!

I want to start really getting serious, and stop messing up everything, even when emotional trauma strikes my life. If anything, I want my weight lifting to be the one thing that is constant, and also something I can set goals in, that ARE acheevable. Lets face it, when we reach the goal, we want more, but at the same time, build confidence .

Right now im thinking of taking new supplements to help me reach my main goal. Gaining muscle, fat loss too but that will be second-hand at this point.

So far these are my options for muscle gain, and for more intense performance, I need the focus! I have a hard time sometimes, especially when I feel bored or a lot is on my mind. Also, when Im angry, and take my aggression out in the gym, I tend to wear out quick  because I do not pace my self correctly! Which COULD be good, if I were to superset everything all at once. Anyways, heres the list of options : P

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So far, the only thing bad about my diet is I for some reason bought spinache dip and crackers. Dont ask i had a craving, that and too much trail mix! BUT, I found out that 500 extra calories from peanuts alone, do not affect your fat loss based on scientific studies!!! 

My progress as far as cardio has booted its way up, Im started to really nail down and get dirty. Ive knocked out some bad eating habbits, one being drinking (which isnt ‘eating’ but it qualifies under nutrition), and soon my ice cream. I decided for my cheat day ill get a chai tea from starbucks, made with non fat milk. Im still having big problems dieting because Im so sick of chicken, fish, brocolli, salads. Nothing seems ‘good’ to me anymore, I have no interest in it because its so bland. Even eggs and my famous oatmeal has no appeal…Im trying not to eat bread lately, and believe me, I LOVE bread, but THAT TOO doesnt catch my attention. I could avoid bad foods very easily if I were to be more creative cooking, but im out of recipes and ideas…….Oiy im kind of frusterated, I really really, soooo badly want to lose weight that im going crazy. I CAN do it, I WILL do it, but I wish I had help!! Geeze who would of thought its so much harder alone when you dont have a bodybuilder boyfriend ? Well anyways, we shall see what happens in the next few months…..if anyone has suggestions on recipes let me know..because i read alot of what people say and its the same old stuff…..im in a rut!!

So I managed to get my body fat down to normal 18.2%. Not bad after two weeks, I was close to 23 precent before!! The only issue Im having is with the scale, its going up, and Im so used to being 110-115 that Im worried. Its now on average 124-127…Could it be water weight? I dont know, thats alot of weight gained…However I did lose an inch around my waist, and I can see my abs a little bit better.

So Im frusterated but encouraged at the same time, I dont know if I should do more cardio, twice a day, to get my body fat down, or to do less cardio, to gain muscle and burn fat that way.

I wish I had a mentor!

So, bodybuilding, is one of my passions.

I love it.

However, lately my grandparents whom i grew up with and still currently live with, find it disgusting that i love it so much, and that gaining muscle is disgusting on a women.

Its sad in my own home, as in my room, having comments thrown at me about how the women i put up are disgusting and manly looking. Really to me they are goddesses, my inspiration, what i want to possibly be someday.

It’s not a fun or easy life, to be in a gym full of guys, and have them think you arent serious about why you’re in there. However, today I did receive another compliment about how I keep busy and I don’t talk. I stay focused and pumped, I wear big headphones to let people know Im in the zone and to ward them off untill I am done.

So at least, finally, people realize Im serious about it. It took 6 months for them to see why I was in there at all. I want to gain muscle and get rid of my fat, same as most of us.

However, I hate how people look down on it, they dont understand, they knock it down because they havent tried or experienced it!!!!

Alright well I guess I’m done with my little simplistic rants, not very "verbal" right now.

I need to look up a system for eating, to try to calculate my calories I eat.

Miserable right now, miserably discouraged.

I can’t lose weight like I normally do, this time its sticking, literally! I’m usually 115 tops but its been around 123-125 : (…I started to run in the mornings, as best as I can at least (with sprints). However I heard this could be bad for muscles, as it eats away the muscle tissue too. Then again, another bodybuilder argued it goes to fat first to get stored energy. Kind of confusing, and scary, that I could lose even more muscle than i already have these last two months. Im still just as strong, if not stronger.

Now, Ive decided to do more cardio, make sense right? Wrong, not working!! So, must be my diet, for awhile I was eating my gramps cookie recipe which includes brown sugar and yes, butter. I stopped eating them a few days ago, and I’m going to stop with Grape Seed oil, and use Fish oil caps instead. Other than that my diet is clean.

I eat 3-4 egg whites in the morning (with 1/4 cup oatmeal if I can, I get full easily!)

Tea as a snack.

Then later on a protein shake or muscle milk (bad I know) after working out.

I dont drink much in between as im working and dont have time TO drink.. (restaurant)

I did eat a protein bar for a break, and then a yogurt for my half, but today Ill pack a lunch with Tuna, some almonds maybe?

Then when i get home i have two fish halibutt filejs seasoned with Mrs Dash and pepper…Sometimes I use a dot or two of Grape Seed Oil which is way better than olive oil, and now very expensive ! They must of found out the secret!! Dang! Also I try to eat a vegetable here, such as asparagus or broccoli.

I know I should eat every 2-3 hours. Its very hard with my schedule to do so, and I end up pigging out later in the night with sweet stuff, especially when im out of oatmeal (I cant believe its not butter spray and splenda MMM)…So yea, I try tea, but that makes me hungrier, and when  I feel like crap I go for coffee.

I dont know what to do, Im at wits end, Im trying so hard to nail it before summer, please help! I want to look good this time!! Ive never worn a bikini and I bought one for THIS summer : ( specifically!

~Alicia

Since I am no longer engaged, I’m going through alot fo heartbreak with my current boyfriend.  I don’t know whether to leave or not, or if I should try to fix it.  Either way, for the first time I have to force myself to keep eating every 2-3 hours.  Im sick to my stomach, and its hard to keep it down.  He’s the type of man who will say cruel things, and not care about how much it hurts you, and pretends that everythings okay.  If you bring it up at all, he yells, its just who he is.  He’s angry because people want him to take roids, and he’s against it, but now he thinks his whole "life is wrong".  I used to think I made his life right, but as of last night, I don’t know anymore.  Its been 15 16 months, not too long, but I knew he was the one I would marry.  Now that I’m not engaged, I feel weak, and I was so happy to get on a new diet.

I ate 4 egg whites with whole wheat toast.  Most of it was very hard to swallow so I drank water.  That was around 10:30 and now its 1:00 and I feel bloated, and sick.  Its funny how emotions can play a role physcally..  I wish I could sleep this off, but sleep has turned sour due to nightmares.  My parents were great about it, and told me advice, but the pain doesnt go away.  If he comes to see me tonight, maybe Itll blow over…Maybe…

Either way, wish me luck and give me strength, if you do pray, Id appreciate you pray just once, that people who are going through heartache, that they find happiness in it.  If you dont pray, at least have it in your thoughts, and wish for better.  Right now I would do anything to give my heart a breather, but nothing works.

So today I’m on a new diet, where I actually do drink whey, and make sure to have 40 & protein 40% carbs and 20% good fats.  So far I’ve been a little bloated because I have to start eating more, to bring my caloric level to 1500-1800.  If that doesn’t work I’ll lower it to 1200.  I eat every three hours, and have been actually cooking the right things. I even did protein pancakes, which tasted good if you add just a dot of real Vanilla. I hope the bloat goes down, especially since I sadly do weigh every day, I know I know "dont weigh yourself more than once a week". There are worse addictions!!  Even though I don’t drink coffee anymore, I fully am cutting it out till Christmas.  Im the type of person who uses splenda and creamer to make it well.."Creamy sweet"..Which is actually bad for me, thinking of the caffein, sugar,little bit of fat.  They dont make my sugar free creamer anymore I used to get, which is a shame, it was made with splenda so it tasted just right..I miss it!!!

Ahem anyways, the diet consists of 5-6 meals depending on when I get up .  I did 5 meals today, I sure hope Im not adding in too much protein or carbs all at once. Im trying to do it slowly but at the same time want to get a move on with it haha.  I guess we shall see in one month if this 40 40 20 works eh?  I sure hope so, I want to look good for christmas this year, and cant afford gaining any of that fat back. I stil have to get rid of my "pudge" too. I know I have abs, I can feel them under that layer of fat, they ARE there >=(… *grumbles and rambles*. Alrighty folks, I shall retire this passage, this random passage of incorrectly written stuctures haha.

Thanks for everyone who supports me via online, no one in this small mountain town does what I do, so its awesome to have other people out there love what I love. .

~Le Coffee Gal aka Alicia~