Cnstnce’s BodyBlog

I heard that shopping was supposed to be more fun once you went down in sizes so yesterday I went shopping.  My first store I started laughing when I put on a size 3, yea it was fun.  So excited about my revelation that now I am a 3/4 I went to other stores.  What I found sucked.  I live in the south, people are fat here.  I went looking for a dress for a baptism and every dress I saw that was my style only came in sizes 8-16!  I am not kidding.  I ended up shopping in the Junior’s department, because all the ladies stuff was too big.  What am I supposed to do?  I did eventually find a dress, in the junior’s dept.  I then went to one of those cheap clothing stores (Ross) where all the clothes are just organized by size and I found the same thing there, hardly any 4’s, tons and tons of 8-24 though!  I guess thats the price I have to pay now. 

My title line "I want to make people jealous."  It worked, I was looking at smalls, 4’s, x-smalls when I looked up and saw this girl walking by, she was on her way to the 10’s and glared at me, with her upper lip in a little curl.  I laughed inwardly, she only wishes she worked as hard as I do.  ;^)

Hi all, another day, another post.  So I got up early and went to the gym to do cardio.  I wear a chest strap to get an accurate heart rate, to make sure that I am actually doing cardio.  My target heart rate is 154, and lately I have found that it has become more and more difficult to reach.  I guess my cardiovascular health has improved that much?  I was huffing and puffing for the first 10 minutes just to get there, once there I was fine.  So then I went back to the gym after a few hours, a meal, and NO explode.  I had a grueling leg day:

Box Squats-2×15 warmup

Box squats-4×15 to burnout

lunges-4×10 each side to burnout

Romanian Deadlifts 4×8 max out-105×8

Ball Glute Crunch(just made that name up)-4×15 with 25lbs weight. 30 sec hold on last rep.

Calf Raises- 2×20-20lbs, 3×20 24lbs

Ouch, it was tough, but now I feel great!  All leg muscles work to exhaustion, I’m happy.

First let me thank all those who supported me yesterday in coming to terms with the death of my friend.  Its nice to know that we all are here for each other, not just in terms of diet and exercise, but life as well.  Thank you. 

On a brighter note, I am looking forward to a new day.  I am going to start Mary Lado’s Delt workout from the new Muscle and Fitness Hers, as well as the ab workout.  I am looking forward to giving my shoulders and abs a new push, as I know it is much needed.  I really wish that magazine came out more often, it really is one of the best in the field for women.  Off to the gym, I hope all of you have a safe and productive and, of course, great day. 

Today has been one of my toughest days this year.  I woke up to continue an argument with my boyfriend about trust, seems to have gone on forever.  We finally got over it and decided to start our day with a trip to Lowe’s.  We were there for about 10 minutes when we ran into a woman from work who told us that a girl named Ashley Miller had drowned the day before.  She didn’t know that Ashley and I have shared a duplex for over a year.  I broke down in Lowe’s and told my boyfriend that I needed to go home.  We looked online for details and found out that she had drowned while rafting with some of our other co-workers.  She fell off the back of the boat and was held down by branches.  She was pulled out, CPR was performed for 20 min., she was then airlifted to Knoxville, Tenn. and was dead on arrival.  Ashley was a really sweet person.  I am so saddened by her death, not only for all of her friends and family, but especially for her boyfriend who loved her so much.  She was 24 years old.

My friends would laugh if they heard me calling myself "the slacker."  But some of my friends are largely overweight, and couldn’t care less.  I haven’t been true to my cardio, and have suffered a lack of fat-loss for it.  I am going to go as soon as I send this blog.  I just need to talk myself into a 45 min. session and we all know how hard that can be sometimes.  Ok….here I go.

I dont know if everyone here orders their supplements from bodybuilding.com, but if you dont and you still visit GNC, maybe its time you check out the prices on this site.  I started out going to the store, thinking I like reading labels and getting personal advice, my mind has quickly changed.  The last time I went there was a woman working there that must weigh at least 300 lbs of nothing pretty, and she was telling a customer how well Hydroxycut Hardcore works.  How she takes 6 a day.  My boyfriend had to leave the store to keep from exploding with laughter.  I would rather get my advice from a person that has clearly, and I mean clearly, had success with whatever they are using.  Seems weird to buy fat-burners from someone that is obese.  Not to mention how much it costs to buy it there, even with the discount card at the beginning of the month.  And the Whey they have tastes like a monkey’s @ss.  I believe I have become a bodybuilding.com customer for a long time to come.  Hope you do the same.

So after a disappointing progress pic event this morning I found myself at the gym.  I gave my legs a beating with box squats, deadlifts, lunges, side lunges, and kickbacks, then attempted HIIT.  I don’t know if it was the fact that my legs were beat, or if I have horrible endurance but I only ended up doing 5 intervals.  I do 30 sec/ 30 sec intervals of jog and sprint.  I found myself pushing really hard a couple of weeks ago and getting up to 8, but today I got 5 and that was all I had.  Do you think 5 for small fat loss is enough, or should I get off the pitty train and push myself a bit more? 

I just finished taking some progress pics after 2 weeks and I am too embarrassed to show them.  I don’t see any progress in 2 weeks!  I know this could be a case of me being my own worst critic, but I am just frustrated.  I really wanted to see something spectacular, but I still have the same problem areas as I did before.  Its weird though, the calipers and the scale both seem to have changed, but I don’t see anything different.  This makes my dreams of one day competing seem so silly, like my genetics would never allow it.  I hope that when I take pictures in another 2 weeks that my butt has shrank and my belly is gone.

WHAT IS IT WITH GUYS?  I just don’t understand why a girl in a gym has to be viewed as some eye-candy S&%$t.  I asked one of the guys in the gym yesterday to watch my squat, and tell me if my form looks good.  He saw the weight and told me it was too much, that I needed to work on toning (he used that word) and not on weights.  My boyfriend had to come stand close after he heard it because my face changed, and not in a good way.  I get so pissed off that guys think women are only there to become skinny little stick figures, and they are the only ones there to get stronger.  I like muscle and how it looks on women, I think women with curves from their muscle is ultra-sexy.  And besides I only had 105lbs on the stupid bar.  His girlfriend squats freakin’ 225!  I, by the way, had to call him out on that.  Guys, have some respect, ask a girl what her goals are before you assume she wants to look like a stick.  Thanks, venting over.

So yesterday, at the gym, I decided to see how much it would take for me to max out on squats.  My boyfriend said, "we’ll start with your bodyweight."  Ummm…No.  I maxed out at about 95 lbs.  I feel week, I guess I know what I need to work on.  I check out the profiles of some of these other girls that are squatting like 200.  Man, I have a lot of work to do.  I tried to max out all the lifts on the progress page and I feel like a total weakling.  I have so much to do it kills me.  But, on the other hand, its about the ride, right?