Civilrights1’s BodyBlog

So I decided today that I would cancel all of my internet memberships (Facebook,Myspace, etc..) and the ones I am going to keep I decided to delete all of the pictures. I am tired of staring at a image I am not happy with so while I am doing something about it, I don’t want to see these pics at least for a minute. I know some people say this is what motivates you to lose weight but not me. It’s just dam depressing. So here goes nothing.

I haven’t posted in a minute 1.) Being lazy 2.) Being busy with work and school (Class 2010…Whoooo!) and 3.) Shame. Yes, I was to ashamed to post because I didn’t do what I said I was going to do for a number of reasons but for real….I just didn’t feel like it. Yep, I already know what you are thinking. Typical….but I thought I would try a new approach. It’s called the, “take one day at a time” approach. This weight is not coming off fast anytime soon so I might as well take my time getting it off. Yea, I know, I was supposed to do this in the first place. However, I am only human. You know how it is, right? It’s like how at the beginning of the year everyone rushes to the gym to start the New Year resolution to lose weight and fall off the band wagon by February or March. By the way, that was me many times over, LOL. This time I have decided to start early and start at the bottom, I mean the very bottom, and that means dealing with the mind and spirit. I want to know why I crave certain foods, why certain foods lift my spirits when I am sad, and how food works in my system; you know the whole relationship I have with it. You know how we women are…Let’s talk about it. LMAO 

But in all seriousness I want to be about it as well. So, now what I have started doing is walking. Whether it’s parking far away when I go shopping, walking around at work, walking at my apartment complex, just moving. My current size pants are falling off of me, I mean I can take them off without unzipping them. (Yes, I am excited) However, I am just going to remain calm and just keep doing what I am doing. As far as food goes, I still eat sweets, but I have slowly reduced the amount I eat, and have started substituting them for fruit and I have cut down on the sugar, in which, I don’t eat white sugar, but I have always consumed Splenda. My vegetable intake has increased and I only eat fish, chicken, turkey and every once in while lean red meats but not often. I have started back lifting weight because I am dealing with a bad knee and a pulled muscle in my back. So, as you can see I have a lot of work to do but it will get done all in due time.

OK, celebrated my birthday last Friday and I had a ball! Didn’t party to hard but I had fun! 

Now I did as we all do…Yep…I started reflecting on my life (Weight), Career (Weight), Family (Weight), Friends (Weight)…and my WEIGHT. See my point. So tomorrow I am starting something different, some of you may not agree and some of you may congratulate me. But I have decided to do a food delivery/pick-up service called, “Fresh-N-Fit Cuisine” here in Atlanta. I am doing this not as a quick weight lose but for different reasons. 1.) I really don’t have time or energy to cook. I have tried the cooking everything on Sunday for the whole week and freezing it kind of thing, but after awhile I don’t have time for that and a lot of times I end up wasting a lot of food. 2.) I am young (:-) and single with no kids so I can afford to do this, LOL and 3.) I like variety, as a matter of fact I support it very much and on this company’s menu they have a variety of meals to choose from. I have heard good things about this company and have seen the results for other people that have tried it, so why not try it. I am going to do this for 30 days (you know a trial period) I will keep up guys updated.

When I first discovered Bodybuilding.com I thought WOW I have finally found a place where people are friendly and willing to help you in your fitness goals with offering a little advice on training and nutrition. I even got the notion that I could make and possibly meet new friends. Well, you could have fooled me……I have found that this can be a vein site at times or rather the people on here are. Bottom-line: If you are not in shape and drop dead gorgeous and showing some skin….You will not stand a chance of even getting help on here. So guess what instead of letting it get me down! I am going to be an example for all of the not so beautiful and not so in shape people here on bodybuilding.com………Stay tuned for more healthy and nutritional information on my blogs, more progress photos and I pray for those of you that have ever written in to people and they have never written back with helpful advice or any type of response that you get something helpful from me.

Lets see….been busy, looking for a new job, starting college to finish up my degree, and back to doing water aerobics. I really enjoy water aerobics. I would recommend this exercise for anyone that is looking for low impact aerobics or wanting to strengthen their quads. But, other than that I’m keeping it moving.

Mantra for the week: Exercise is apart of my life and I am growing in excellent health everyday.

Ok, to make a long story short….Been slipping on the workout…didn’t go to water aerobics yesterday but going tomorrow…finally went to the doctor’s office today to confirm what I already knew and get X-rays….I was told that I have early and very mild case of Arthritis from my PFS (Patella Femoral Syndrome. For those of you again that don’t know, it is a degenerative condition of the cartilage surface of the back of the knee cap, or patella. It produces discomfort or dull pain around or behind the patella. It is common in young adults, especially soccer players, cyclists, rowers, tennis players, ballet dancers and runners….and guess who else OVER WEIGHT PEOPLE. Yep folks me. I have not played in these sports. The doctor said two things to me 1.) You are too young for arthritis and 2.) Lose the weight now! He also recommended Physical Therapy (More money to dish out)….Time to step up my game….. I went out and brought The Target brand of Glucosamine Chondroitin Complex plus 1500mg MSM, arch support for my shoes, knee brace and more water aerobics. Now I am all set. I refuse to let this get me. Pray for me People….Hit me up and let me know what you think.

Ok, I have suffered a set already before I got warmed up in the game. I went to my first water aerobics class at Ballys yesterday. I had a great time (once I got over the fact of getting into a bathing suit with all of my body imperfections). I have not gotten in a pool, nor a bathing suit, since I was in middle school. (A shame I know, but I was shame of my body). However, it occurred to me that this was the whole point. I needed to do this class not just because it is good on my joints (which by the way I am having patellofemoral pain~knee pain~as we speak.) but I needed to continue the acceptance process of my body and push to be the best me I can be. I know I can do better…..I will be better. ok…off to take pain medicine for my knee.

Started the "Body for Life" Challenge today….For me the first day is always the hardest. I just got back from the gym and I feel so good! I am so proud of myself! I did it! I went to the gym and busted a sweat. The first day of the challenge was weights (upper body) MAN! Don’t worry I warmed up first and then hit the weights…very slow. LOL I have a job to go to tomorrow. Until I blog again…..

…ok back from vacation…Settled in my new apartment……family reunion is over and yes I ate like a pig!…….Now…. and I am really ready to get started. My knees are killing me. Can’t do deep knee bends…at all. I think I might have fluid on my knees. But then again I think its just from having too much weight on them. Therefore I will have to start my workout very slow and long…Aggghhhh.

Ever dreaded something you know you have to do but hate to do….Thats how I am feeling right now. Let the show began…

Ok…I have yet to start back in the gym. I have done so many things since I last posted. Moved (Whoopie!), Vacationed (Must needed), and looking for a new job (Aggghhh). ok……all excuses. I know.:-( I have no energy to do much of anything. But after the family reunion this weekend, "The Tarver Family", I will start to get in shape. (Gee, where have I heard that before?)