More on the inside workings of the Carb Blocker……
I’m not sure why I do thiskind of stuff. But I have been defiant since I was born. I’ve never been afraid to stick up for those who will not stick up for themselves. I’ve always challenged the system, testing the boundries to see if it is all as perfect as people say it is.
Where I fall short is taking care of myself. I’ve let myself go, I’ve never enjoyed being heavy. So why do I allow myself to stay on the heavy side. I loose focus on my own goals, that is the first observation I have made. I tend to worry about others before I pay any attention to my own. Sometimes I would like to erase that part of my personality and join the ranks of the self-focused. It is not like I can not keep doing good things for other and actually, it would be a good thing for me to drop the damn weight for my kids sake.
So the workout kick in this morning, sore as hell. Worked the mid-section until I thought I was going to barf. But I’m so out of shapse that it does not take a lot of effort to make msyelf sore. Going to start working out with my neighbor who has a great set up in his garage. Going Rocky mode and sticking with it this time. Still want to drop about 15 lbs before I head to Seattle in a few weeks. So wish me luck. I’m gonna need it. 
Might have to hit someone up for a tissue. ahahahaaaaaaaaaaa
