Building a Better Jay

Cardio this morning - up to 50 minutes.  That’s not much compared to my "triathlete" days, but it’s a lot more than I’m used to now.

Yesterday, I completely allowed myself to become frustrated.  I chose not to choose to be happy.  (If that makes sense, then good.  If not, then I’m chalking it up to carb-free ramblings.)    I won’t go into details here, but I was very frustrated about those who are supposed to be handling my move to Germany and working to make it "smooth".  It ain’t so smooth and it keeps getting less smooth by the day.  I was also frustrated because the money for the clothing I dropped off at that consignment shop is probably gone.  It’s not that I need the money or anything, it’s just that I would’ve rather given the clothing to the salvation army or another worthy charity than a consignment shop owner.  I didn’t realize I was "donating" my goods - which is essentially what has happened because they can’t find any record of me dropping off the clothing.

On the bright side, I am moving to Germany in 2 months and that will be exciting and a real adventure.  Regardless of the ineptitude of others, I can work to make up for the ineptitude of others.  That’s within my reach, so I will just have to make the time to make things happen.  As for the clothing, at least someone else is wearing it.  The important thing is that someone is looking great in clothing that my son barely used (if it was used at all).  Money is just money and I’m sure it’ll all even out in the end.

Now, it’s coffee time and I need to start my day!

Tuesday and all is well.  I was scheduled to do back / cardio today and that is exactly what I did.  I am really happy with my progress so far.  I am leaning out nicely.  However, now I know I need to put on quite a bit more mass.    I guess all that time in Germany with the wonderful Germany food will be a good time to do a lean bulk.  I figure over 18 months I can put on another 20lbs or so.  Maybe.    (I have to fight for ever lb I get.)

Enough about the future.  Let’s talk today.  I am furious about so many things it is getting hard to keep my cool.  I dropped off some of my son’s old clothes at a consignment shop a few months ago.  We aren’t planning on having any more kids and we have invested quite a bit on some very nice clothing for him - stuff he grew out of in a few weeks and some stuff that was never worn with the price tag still on it!  I was quite unhappy to discover yesterday after calling the shop that they had apparently not recorded a great deal of the clothing we had left with them.  That means they have no record we ever gave it to them.  I suppose it’s my own stupid fault for not demanding a printout of the items (or at least making my own list) when I dropped them off.   I also discovered that the shop was recently sold.  So I get to go down there today and do my best to avoid screaming at the poor lady behind the counter who has nothing to do with the situation except that she inherited it when she purchased the shop. 

Anyway, enough about non-BB related things.  I am now taking a new supp I figured I should mention.  I’m taking Dialene 4x - a fat burner.  It’s mostly just caffeine with some other goodies to keep my metabolism high and help burn a bit more fat.  I’ll write a review if I get the chance.