CampChassidy’s BodyBlog

Good Morning!

Okay yesterday I worked some chest. Only the second time I have done this in over two years. I am not sure why I am though, I do think it looks kinda gross on women to have men’s pecs poking out from under some big fake silicone implants.  As of now mine can look natural and smooth (feminine) but I fear that when I build my chest they will begin to seperate from my muscles and look like balls on my chest.  My husband swears it will only help to perk them up, but I am sure there was a reason why I didn’t like the look before.  As I said though, I am on a mission to transform my body…like a sculpture, and I guess this is all part of it.  Besides if I hate the way I look when I am done, it’s pretty easy to get back to where I was before.  My weight as of 12 pm last night was 112lbs though.  YUCK!! I know I have more muscle but I also have much more fat.  I am going to have a hard time with this.  I have a very small frame and a tiny head, and all this fat looks exceptionaly bad on me.  Today I was planning on trying out this workout plan I found in muscle and fitness but I am so freakin tired.  Maybe I’ll try a power nap and see if that works.

Well…got to run and find some motivational pictures/stories on here… Chao!

Okay, in doing some research I learned some very important things about diet and how your body reacts to different situations.  For example…My weight was at 105lbs…and I was toned but once I started working out like crazy doing tons of cardio in the AM and a full hour plus on weights in the PM I began to  gain more fat in my back and hips.  So when I looked into it.  I guess I wasn’t eating enough and eating the wrong things..Plus I was taking lots of fat loss pills that were f…ing up my body and my mind.  My body was feeding of my lean muscle due to the fact there wasn’t enough protein in my system and storing fat as a defense since I wasn’t taking in enough calories to sustain function. So I kicked them all and started eating 5-6 small meals using the 40-40-20 method and I am still gaining tons of weight. Most likely due to the fact that I am eating way more and not blocking fats or carbs anymore. And of coarse I haven’t really perfected that whole 40-40-20 thing.  I realized through trying to track my food intake that I eat A LOT, and that most of what I take in tends to be carbs..and much more fat then the 20% recommended.  It seems to be staggering off and I feel like I am starting to look and feel much better.  Not quite to (or even close) to my goal but it helps me to be hopeful. Since I quit all the diet pills, fat blockers, carb blockers, ect.. I have been uber tired and have had this non stop headache.  It really sucks, but I know I have to go through it to get to it! I just hope I can stay motivated enough not to give up and go back to eating like a bird and taking tons of shit…to be honest I looked good when I did that and it was WAY easier.  Though I was getting pretty tired of being called "skinny bitch".  I think "buff bitch" sounds much better! As an added bonus my husband seems to think I look better with some "meat". Who knows if he’s telling lies to make me feel better though. 

Wow! I made it through one grueling week of intense workouts.  I can’t even believe the pain I am in.  I love it!  Although I am trying to eat properly I am gaining weight like crazy! Maybe it’s all that damn peanut butter…I LOVE peanut butter.  I also started to take muscle milk protein before and after my workouts to fuel the muscle growth.  If I am remembering correctly this has happened EVERY time I get on any kind of protein and up my cardio. 

I am thinking I am going to put this blog to good use.  Sort of like a daily/weekly/whenever I get a chance to write about my goals, how i feel, what’s working, what’s not working, and ugh who the hell is that leaving me comments journal. 

First off, I HATE the pictures I have on here!! But that’s kinda the point.  I am using these increadibly shitty pictures to motivate me to get into gear.  I know I have a decent base to work with and all the proper tools at my disposal. I just really need to get a handle on my WILL POWER.  I have this serious issue with night time snacking and I have ZERO commitment when it comes to taking any kind of vitamin or supplement. 

Which leads me to my Goals…

Goal for today…work ABS..and figure out a good supplement plan to build muscle and cut out fat.  NO SUGAR!!! (I have a terrible weakness for sugar)

Goal for the week… Stay on track.. Take a day of rest.. aquire all the proper supplements needed to attain your goals. Initiate plan.

Although I am feeling increadibly tired and sore I feel satisfied with the workouts I did this past week.  I just have to remember that these transformations do not happen overnight. (I tend to want instant gratification). Well, I am off to conduct a supplement plan….  Chao bella!

Today I feel as if I have waisted an increadible amount of time on this site setting up all this.  I just keep telling myself the end result will be that I will be more motivated if I put more time into making it a priority.  By it I mean ME.  I hope that this endeavor into the world of fitness and bodybuilding will help me to emerge a more confident woman.  So in short, this will become my "something for just me".  I spend the rest of my life working for others and struggling to make sure that no shoe goes untied, no dish goes unwashed, and no light gets left on.  Well, I’m sure someone knows what I mean.  The list goes on and on and on.  Speaking of which, I have to run now and make sure no kids get left at school.  Chao!