Blog Entry
So I made through my family reunion without a single fight with my sister. WOooHooo! There was a minute where I was worried I might argue with my hubby when we were lost and both VERY tired and cranky, but we pulled through. This was nothing short of miraculous. Although last night in Nashville, where we are now visiting his friend, we went to a mexican restraunt and I had a margarita or two, and things didn’t turn quite as well. I am only mentioning this because whenever there is any kind of termoil (such as an argument with my hubby) my body goes through some terrible things. I get seriously ill and I am in emense pain, I can’t sleep, eat, and I deffinately can NOT work out. Why does this happen? I try everything to at the very least internally recognize what is happening and calm it. Usually to no avail. I just lose it. This only happens a few times a year, but the intesity damages me for weeks. I feel like I have no control over my emotion what so ever. Which to me is incredible considering the majority of my life is me studying myself and my action/reaction to different situations and learning better ways to control my thoughts and actions. Overall/Optimal health (which involves emotional health) is extremely important to me and my quality of life. I want so much to be able to just be in every moment and never take a second for granted. Because when I step back from my ego I realize that I am truly blessed and I have everything I need to be happy.
Chassidy
