Camogirlie’s BodyBlog

For the last oh 1.5yrs-2yrs ive been Confused as hell! I’ve been struggling to lose weight.. Get my body to were I want it to be.. I know we ALL struggle with it on a daily basis.. We struggle with finding that perfect ratio of how much energy we export versus how much food we put in our mouth.. At first losing weight wasn’t so bad.. I dropped weight with a plan a nutritionist put me on easily.. but a few months in I started getting bad eating behaviors.. AKA over eating on a regular basis. I would stick to my to low caloric plan for a few days.. Then have this urge to eat everything in site.. Usually the urge won.. I was so frustrated with this cycle.. I thought I was weak with no self control. My boyfriend at the time made me feel worse.. Telling me “just do it.. It’s easy.. Just don’t eat so much”.. Then when I did stick strictly to my plan for weeks straight being perfect I didn’t lose weight.. In fact I would gain.. It was so confusing and frustrating! I always ventured back to the plan that had worked in the beginning of my weight loss journey.. But it always backfired.. Continuing the cycle..

February 2009: .. I was sick of it.. Sick of being so strict.. Of never having enough room in my macros to make treats fit.. So I said screw it.. Started eating more.. Not much more.. maybe a few hundred cals more.. I was to scared to try something drastic…. I still worked out.. because I love it and actually enjoy it.. Cardio though.. Eh not so much.. So I cut back on cardio also.. Took it down to 20 minutes of whatever I was feeling 5 days a week.. I slowly started to lose weight again.. I wasn’t stressing out.. I was actually happy..

April 2009: My boyfriend and I broke up.. He said I was “to fat” and he wasn’t attracted to me anymore.. HAHAHA! That’s a joke.. Oh well.. I know I wasn’t fat.. It was time anyways.. There was a lot he needed to work on within himself.. I had been with him for about 3.5yrs, he taught me a lot about working out, but dieting around him was hell.. He was always giving me crap about what I ate, and constantly nagging me if I didn’t do cardio.. For once I was Free to diet how I wanted and “test” my body if you will.. Figure out what works for me… While with my ex I was scared to test my body.. Scared I would gain weight because he wouldn’t approve.. With him I always thought “eat less=lose more weight” Or “do more cardio=Lose more weight”.. I found out the hard way.. that that isn’t always the case.. So after we broke up I thought, I could get back on an organized “plan” again.. Not just go day to day with no macro goal.. cause that’s what I was doing.. Just eating more, but still not really a whole lot for my size.. Everyone told me I was under eating.. So.. I went to a site a fitness competitor recommended.. Set up a caloric zig zag plan.. figured out my macros, and took it on.. I’m eating almost double some days what I use to.. WAY more carbs then I could have imagined.. I don’t get crazy bloated anymore when I have something “off” plan… I don’t really have cravings and I haven’t had a bad over eating session in awhile.. I’m also losing weight again!!! I’m the smallest I’ve been in a awhile.. I think I look at lot better and things are finally setting into place.. Everyone’s body is different.. its challenging to figure out what works for you.. but you have to be willing to try.. I wasn’t willing in the past out of fear.. But now that I don’t have anything to lose, I’m making leaps and bounds towards my goals.. I’m still amazed that I can eat more, cut down my cardio and I’m losing weight.. Obviously my body is a lot smarter than I think it is.. Once I started under eating it went wacky, and threw a fit.. Just wanted to share my new findings..

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