CSullivan’s BodyBlog

I started kickboxing about a month ago. I love it! It is sooo much fun. I started running/walking again about 2 weeks ago, and this is my first week to start back to weights. I have vacation coming up in June and would love to feel good about myself while there.

1-7-08 1438 calories

 1-8-08 1395 calories     30 min stationary bike

1-9-08 1425 calories     50 min stationary bike

1-10-08 1455 calories

1-11-08  1330 calories   wii boxing 25 minutes

Finished out today with 1330 calories and for exercise I did boxing on the WII. I had a belling dancing video that I got off blockbuster.com and I was so exciting until I put it in and it listed 6 videos I was suppose to do before this one, so I tried it anyways and well you really need to do some of the previous ones first cause I don’t have a clue how to shimmy. I tried but it didn’t work…LOL! Anyways I am tired so I think I am about to head to sleep!

I believe for once I have everything going in a calm flow in my life, but my weight and my issues w/ my weight. My man finally has a stable job and is taking care of responsiblities. We finally have a plan to pay off bills and get married. Now I have to put my mind back to weight loss. We arn’t going to get married until 2009 that is when all the credit card bills will be gone. I want to look good when I get married so I need to start now. I was going through cleaning house the other day and found pics of me when I was 220. I can’t let that happen again. I don’t understand why I always allow myself to go back to eating out of control. It is like a disease. "Just this last time, I will do better tomorrow.", "Just this once I mean how many times do I get to eat here", "OMG, this is just SO good I will work it off later!" I can go on and on with the sick excuses. Then after it is all over, there’s just guilt.Calories today: cereal W/ milk 220, soup 120, apple 80, starbucks 220, mac-n-tuna 300, subway 400, sun chips 220, mint 30

Calorie TOTAL= 1590

NO EXERCISE TODAY= Went to work and I have out of town company coming in so I have been cleaning house, didn’t have time to work.

Water= 88 oz.

Well I have not done all the well, still not back on track. I am going to do better though. I am too scared to weigh, but I bet I have gained around 10 lbs.

I know how all this works. When I get into workingout I love it. But why do I get into these modes that I can not do it. The last 2 days I spend drinking after work, I am so depressed. I really just don’t want to go in. I have a emotional eating problem and when I eat bad I lose the motavation for workingout. It is horriable!!!

Not very good, but I have had worse days lately!

Protien bar- 140

Non-fat carmel macciato- 140

South beach diet wrap -240

 Coconut Chicken Soup -150

1 mint- 20

Mini Pumpkin muffin- 140

grilled chicken -160

greenbeans-60

corn on cob-80

mac-n-cheese-320

ice cream 250

protien water-50

dried pineapple-60

Daily calorie count total-1810(if I added correctly)

Exercise- 1 hour in the pool constatly moving (playing with kids)

1 mile run/walk

 I usually take Thursday as my weight day off, but I choose Monday this week. I am going to start writing down my calories and exercise on here nightly to see if that helps me stay on track. I already record it for myself, but putting it here for everyone to see my be even more motavating. I don’t know, but I really don’t want to gain back what I have lost, when I really need to continue losing.

I just don’t understand why eating is so emotional for me. It just makes no since. I eat to feel better, but all I do is feel worse after I am done. Not only do I have my problems still but then I have consumed thousands of calories that I have to work off. I just feel really crappy right now and it is interfering with my workouts and my eating. When I workout I think about all my problems and then get really angry. Then later I am upset about everything so then I eat. I think I need some kind of feel good pill or something. I am stuck, don’t know how to handle anything. I did so good before I got sick and now I am depressed and feeling really bad.

I think the cold or whatever I had is now gone for the most part. Lets hope there is no relapse. I will start back in the morning with my split body work out and my cardio. This week I did two full body workouts and 30-45 minutes of cardio a day. I am thinking of doing a run on Dec 9th. It is 13.1 miles, a half-marathon, but I will really have to work for it and here in Texas it is so DAMN HOTTT!! Like 104’s right now. I can only run 3 miles non-stop and that is on the gym track. So I will have to start training outside which is not safe where I live. I would really like to do it, but I need to find a friend to train with me outside and everyone I know is SOOOOO LAZZZYYY!!! Excuse after excuse, with some more excuses on top. I swear I have heard everything. Some of it I think I may have even wrote back before 2001, before I started workingout! I am not very good at meeting people, but I am going to have to try to get in with some fitness people, cause all there excuse makers are driving me nuts!

Okay well today is the best I have felt in what 4 weeks now. Hopefully it is over and tomorrow I will be completely better. I am going to take it a bit easy this week and do 30-45 min of cardio each day, and two full body sets with weights on Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday, and then next week I will start my split workout back up. I read on the internet one reason I have stayed sick so long is that I was lifting weights while sick for the first 2 wks, well it says my immune system was too busy repairing muscle tissue and not fighting the cold or whatever that was. It said light cardio is okay as long as there is no fever and a few other symptoms I can not remember. Thanks for your comments y’all have been very helpful in the off period. Can’t wait to get back to the gym. 

Okay I am finally feeling a little better, my ears are still pluged, but my chest congestion is breaking up. I hope I will be able to do weights again on Monday morning and start my morning workouts back up. If I feel better in the morning I may ride the stationary bike for a bit. Well we will see how it goes but I am so ready to start getting results again.