JULY 21, 2009 - CLEAN EATING
TOMORROW I AM GOING TO START EATING CLEAN. I HAD WAYYYYYYYY TOO MUCH JUNK AT MY MOM’S HOUSE TONIGHT. I ALWAYS GO OVER BOARD WITH EATING WHENEVER I AM THERE. IT NEVER FAILS ME. MY MOM TOTALLY UPSET ME RIGHT AFTER I TAUGHT CLASS AT THE GYM: THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE NOT RELIGIOUS MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND THIS BUT HERE GOES………………. MY MOM TOLD ME THAT I WAS NOT CLOSE ENOUGH TO GOD AND THAT REALLY UPSET ME BECAUSE ALL I DO IS TAKE CARE OF HER AND DO EVERYTHING FOR HER, AND TO ME, THAT ISSSSSSSSSSS BEING CLOSE TO GOD. SO BECAUSE OF THIS, I THOUGHT ABOUT MY WEIGHT AND HOW I OVERINDULGE, AND BARELY DESERVE TO EAT. SO I AM GOING ON THIS CLEAN EATING THING. I KNOW MY MOM’S WORDS SHOULD NOT UPSET ME AND GET TO ME SO MUCH, BUT THEY DO. I HAVE ISSUES……………..
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July 21, 2009 at 8:47 pm
O.K. Deep breath. Mom’s have a way of saying things in just the right hurtful way when they want to….Your goals should be unrelated to her. Your challenge is to separate and do for you simply because you know you should. Stop being silly… everyone deserves to eat. Not only do you deserve to eat, you deserve to eat well. Your body is a gift and you have the responsibilty to treat it gently/kindly. A good diet is helpful to your body not a punishment for perceived sins/weaknesses. Stop fretting. Relax and just do your best. Your relationship with God is your business. Attend to it to your satisfaction and you have done all you can possibly do. Be well….
July 21, 2009 at 9:20 pm
OMG!! YOU ARE SOOOOO RIGHT. MOMS DO HAVE A WAY OF SAYING THINGS THAT ARE HURTFUL. I KNOW SHE DID NOT MEAN IT INTENTIONALLY, YET I CAN NOT HELP BUT THINK THAT SHE SORT OF WANTED TO SEE A REACTION OUT OF ME. I WAS BAWLING BECAUSE OF WHAT SHE SAID. THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR EHLP AND ADVICE. YOU LOOK GREAT, BTW!