Bsteaks3’s BodyBlog

I am writing tonight because I have lost all motivation to work out. I am not sure why. I am very happy and content with my life right now so it is not a consequence of being sad,lonely or depressed etc. I just feel like I have better things to do, but I don’t want to feel that way because I have come so far. To give it up would mean that I would have to start over eventually and I don’t want that. I haven’t been going enough to need to take a break. This really sucks.

Ugh just getting over a stomach virus. I couldn’t work out yesterday. I know I am dehydrated because my legs are killing me. I feel like I was drinking all night. Even though its inevitable I hate getting sick because I hate feeling completely helpless.

I hope I feel better to go to the gym tomorrow. =(

When and if I ever get to my desired goal how hard will it be to maintain it? What I mean is once I have that flat stomach and defined arms etc is easier to keep up with it as long as I continue to eat right and challenge my muscles??

It has been suggested to me on numerous occasions that I ask members of the gym (if employees aren’t available) to help spot me with certain exercises. But how do you really feel about having to spot someone else? Is that annoying if someone was to ask for your help? Would you not have a problem asking as long as they didn’t do it when you were right in the middle of a set?

I am concerned that I might upset someone by asking them. I don’t want to appear helpless and I don’t want to be a pest.

The strength in my legs growing and my legs are looking killer, especially my quads. The inner part of my thighs are still jiggling around though. What exercises can I do to shape my inner legs?

Am I really suppose to be this sore?? I think I overdid it!! I have never been this sore. =o(  I can barely walk, and feel completely handicapped!! Oh I didn’t add any weight and did my normal routine. Is it because I hadn’t been in several weeks or what??

I am finally getting back on track. After not working out for almost 4 weeks I feel like I am flabbing up again. I worked out for an hour and a half yesterday and I am SOOOOOOOOO sore. I can barely sit on my ass, it hurts so bad. =o) I am slowly trying to weed out all the crap food I have been eating. It’s just so hard because I get bored with always eating clean and then I feel like I am missing out and not living life by telling myself I can’t have a bowl of icecream or whatever. Treating myself once a week doesn’t seem like enough for me!

I HAVEN’T BEEN TO THE GYM IN OVER 2 WEEKS! I feel like a huge marshmallow.  The thing is I have to put it on the back burner, I seriously have way to many obligations right now.  I know that may sound like an excuse but my family comes before my own needs so I just have to wait until things aren’t so busy around here so I can get back in. I just really hope I don’t digress too much.

It is so damn hot here and there is nothing worse than having a good sweaty workout just to walk outside in the sweltering heat. Thank God I have AC!

I had a weak workout yesterday. I still don’t feel confident enough to do bench press. I am scared that the barbell is going to fall on my somehow.

Why is everything convienent so unhealthy?? I am always finding myself needing a quick bite while I am out and there is nothing around except fast food!!! I haven’t been eating as I should lately and I am definitely feeling the represcussions of it. Bleh. I am thinking about joining a kick boxing class or pole dancing class because I am getting bored with running on the treadmill!

Well the bad news is that I got laid off from my job on Friday. I was a little taken back by it but it couldn’t have happened at a better time. I am collecting full unemployment so as long as it lasts until I start school full time in August I will be good to go.

On a more relevant note, that means I get to spend more time at the gym! I don’t have to go at night anymore either. I can go in the middle of the day or in the morning. I feel like I am not losing as much fat as I want around my stomach so I think I will add a 4th day to do squats and cardio.

 My canoe trip is coming up in July. I better get tighten the reigns and do the damn thing! =o)