The Chronicles of “B”

Ok as much as I hate to say this I’ve decided I’m not going to compete on Oct. 4^th. I busted my ass and gave it a great effort but to be honest I just don’t feel that my body is contest ready and I am not about to step out on the stage and embarrass myself. It was a tough decision but for me it’s not good enough to get on the stage just for the rush of being up there. I decided right from the beginning that if I didn’t feel I could make a good showing then I wasn’t doing it. It makes no sense to me to put all that time in the gym killing myself…choking down nasty food I don’t really want, and spending hundreds of dollars on supplements just to finish last and say, “It was a great experience.” Screw that! Hard Core Muthas don’t train for second place. I really wanted to make this show and I’ve made some big time improvements but right now I look more like an aerobics instructor than a bodybuilder and bottom line is that just won‘t cut it. I don’t feel to bad about it though. I knew that it was going to be tough to get ready when I made the decision to compete with only 16 weeks to prepare so it‘s all good.

All is not lost though…I learned some valuable lessons about contest prep. I got to see how my body reacts to being carb depleted, I learned about posing without looking like a total dip shit, and I totally learned what it’s like to be completely dedicated to something heart and soul and to see it through to it’s conclusion. I also found out just how brutal contest prep can be and how freaking awesome it can be when you stand in front of that mirror and see the results of all your hard work. What a fantastic feeling. I mean why should I hang my head? I went from a chubby 248 to a lean mean 210 and actually had visible abs for the first time in forever. Nothing wrong with that. Besides I’m not through with competing I’m just shifting gears. I feel lack of size is what’s holding me back so starting today the bulk begins. I’m on a mission to gain as much quality mass as I can between now and January. Then in January I will look for a contest in March or April that will allow me 20 quality weeks of prep. That will probably be an NPC event in Northern Kentucky in March or a show in Toledo in April or both. So I don’t consider this a failure just a lesson learned. I’m not stepping on stage till I’m the absolute best I can be.

I want to thank everyone who stopped by to wish me well and who took an interest in my contest prep. It’s that kind of support from my BodySpace friends that keeps driving me on…this site kicks ass. I especially want to thank Susan for everything she’s done to help me train and for always taking the time to talk to me about bodybuilding and being my training partner…and my wife Maggie for cooking me special food and putting up with all my crap especially on low carb days. Without my support system I could never do this. I can’t wait till Spring! Bring on the bulk!