The Chronicles of “B”

This Site May Have Saved my Life!  Well actually a combination of this site and our awesome Circle of friends.

Looking back over 2007 it has truly been a roller coaster ride for me.  At the end of May I was out of shape….well lets not sugar coat it….I was a fat disgusting slob on the verge of having some serious health issues if I didn’t change my ways.  A revelation at my parents grave made me face the reality of my dim future and thankfully I set out to make a change.

In the quest for change I chanced across BB.com and BodySpace.  I will never forget my first reaction…."A MySpace just for bodybuilders???  "What a stupid  f**king idea!’  LOL!!  What a dope I was! 

Even though I thought it was stupid I thought it would be a good way to track my progress….I had no idea I would find the network of friends that has evolved into the Circle!

During my darkest times, through all of my injuries, set backs and disappointments I have managed to stay strong and focused thanks to BB.com, BodySpace…..that stupid f**king BodySpace….and our awesome circle!! Had I not had this support system there is no way I could have continued to pick myself up off the mat time and time again and pressed forward.

Thank you BB.com and BodySpace for creating such a wonderful place for out of shape slobs to come and get their lives back in order.  And thank you to everyone on this site who has ever taken the time to comment me, read my blogs, and even leave me hateful Pm’s because you didn’t like something I said.  You all helped to fuel the fire in me.  And a special shout out to my special friends….the Circle!!  Most of all  NinjaBill, Pixi, Daretosoar, blsmith, mmeyer, sunnez, Nic, Courtney, Laurie, wallstcutie, flf…Donalds long lost twin brother, Body Auditor and the Mighty King Marmoset  I could go on and on about the ways each of you have touched my life but time and space won’t allow it!!  Besides…you know…I don’t have to say it. 

An extra special shout out to my leggy blond friend from points East!!  You came along unexpectedly at a time when I may have been at my lowest (after the accident) and gave me such a jolt of friendship and encouragement I had never experienced before!  Thanks darling!!!

Ok enough mush!!  I proclaim 2008 THE YEAR OF THE HARD CORE MUTHAS!!!

"B"

Ok!  Ok!!  Everyone in the circle are posting their goals for 2008 so I guess it’s time I sat down and thought about what it is I hope to accomplish in 2008!  Ok let’s see…..

#1 Try to make it the entire year without getting hurt!!  This is a biggie for me!!

#2  Avoid crazed teenagers in motor vehicles at all cost!!  This goes back to goal #1!!

#3  Have NB instruct me in the art of member manipulation so I can become a master of the Bulldog!!

#4  Go to Pittsburgh and slay brain eating zombies with King Marmoset!!  Partake in the drinking of fermentation juices, chase female marmosets and sucker punch a few unsuspecting hyenas!!

#5  Stop pissing people off with my blogs and blog comments so they will stop sending me nasty PMs!!!  Nawwww forget that one…I actually get off on that!!

#6  Be able to break that 200lb bench press barrier before Steph so I don’t look like a little bitch!!!  JK Steph!!  You rule and I bow to your superior strength!!  Want to kill a few zombies with me and KM???

#7  Collaborate with Miss Pixi G Pants in the writing of the Pixi G Pants Dictionary of unusual words and phrases!!  I’m still trying to figure out what she meant by spooge??????  WTF????

#8  Go to Canada and run 23 flights of stairs with my buddy Brian!!!  You crazy canuck!!!!  LOL!!

#9  See all my friends at BB.com have the most successful year possible and have all their hopes and dreams realized!!

#10 Organize the first annual Friends of The Circle Bash!!  What do ya think guys and gals???  I picture summer time in Ohio!!  We get together at a nice location…seer some animal flesh on the grill….serve up some fermentation juice and actually get to meet face to face.  A lot of us live within just a few hours of each other so it shouldn’t be to much of a problem!!  NB since you have the travel restrictions we could possibly have it in your neck of the woods.  Everyone would bring their wives, husbands, boyfriends, girlfriends…whatever and have a great time!!  Watta ya think gang….ya up for a party???  Let’s get some input!!

Anyway that’s my goals for 2008!!!  Everyone have a very merry Holiday with friends and family!!

"B"

Man do I have the best friends or what???  Thanks so much for everyone who left me words of encouragement and a cyber ass kicking on my last blog!!  Guess that I just have to face the fact that I can’t always be the big bad Hard Core Mutha and I’m not really unbreakable!!  Some pain and injuries are just to serious to work through!!

So I’m just gonna chill for the next few days and then on the 26th I’m gonna start my own personal challenge just me against me and see what I can accomplish!!

I’ll soon be posting starting pics…YIKES!!  as well as starting stats and measurements….YIKES AGAIN!!  My number one goal for the challenge is going to be just reclaiming my health!  I’ll be starting out slow and I’ve decided I’m going to start with some circuit training using light weight giving my body every opportunity to heal and not doing any further damage.  Then when I’m strong enough I’ll start hitting the heavy weights again!!!

I tried one circuit yesterday morning and I think it’s gonna work out pretty well.  One circuit consist of……

5 minutes on the bike

chest press 25 reps light weight

3 minutes on stair stepper

5 minutes on bike

triceps pushdowns 25 reps light weight

leg extensions 25 reps light weight

5 minutes on bike

lat pulldowns 25 reps

leg curls 25 reps

That’s one circuit!!  You move through the entire circuit as quickly as possible without resting keeping that heart rate up!  I hope to start with 2 complete circuits and move up from there depending on how my body feels!!  I’ve left curls and shoulder presses out of my routine for now as they cause me the most pain which really sucks cause I love working my shoulders!!!  This should help me get my conditioning back to where it should be for lifting heavy!!

My personal challenge will last for 12 weeks and hopefully at the end of those 12 weeks I’ll be a new and improved Hard Core Mutha!!!  Again thanks to the circle for bitch slapping me with a dose of reality and for having my back!!  The circle rules!!!!

"B"

That’s right I said phony!!!  I’m always bragging about being such a Hard core Mutha but the truth is I’ve been living a lie as of late!! 

I’m trying my ass off to get back to working out hard core but I’ve got to admit the pain is getting to me!!!  I haven’t been able to go heavy at all which is depressing the heck out of me…..so as a result I’ve backed off like a little bitch because I just can’t take the pain.  I’ve also spent way to much time stuffing my face with the wrong kinds of food!!!  I’m so disgusted with myself!!!!  Here I am giving everyone advice and encouragement and I can’t even keep my own house in order!!!  PHONY!!!

The wrist and the shoulder is what’s giving me the most problem and the stupid weather doesn’t help…being so damn cold and it seems the sun never shines in this God forsaken state!!!

I tell ya one thing though….seeing Steph and Brian and others in our circle of friends getting so excited about their contest has inspired me to quit being such a little wussy and I’m going to start a challenge of my own!!!

Starting on the 26th I’m going to join Steph and Maddi and start my own personal challenge….me against my pain!!!  I’ll post starting pics and stats and see just how hard I can push this 50 year old body!!!

I apologize to everyone in the circle for being so phony and weak!!!  That crap is about to change big time though!!!  I’m about to get back to being an even better Hard Core Mutha!!

"B"    

I know this has nothing to do with Body Building but I had someone send this to me today and even though I’m a Hard Core Muttha It actually made me cry like a freaking baby!!  I thought I would repost it here because more people need to be made aware of things like this and speak out.  I was one of the lucky ones who survived abuse but the scars are still there.  If you know someone who is in this situation for Gods sake please speak out!!  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWow42TCwzg

A while back I wrote a blog about how this country is so uptight when it comes to nudity.  I wrote that I couldn’t understand how in a country like ours that is so body conscious…with a plastic surgeon on every corner and the home of the 1 hour face lift….how we can be so uptight about nudity!!  In many places if a women has the audacity to expose her breast to feed her hungry child people practically run away in terror and call for her lynching!!

The reason I bring this up again is because of a blog I read today.  The blog was about the over abundance of T&A in some of the pics posted here.  A large percentage of the responses was pretty harsh…calling the pics soft core porn, gay porn and referring to those that post them as whores, sluts, attention whores and a few other things not so nice.  A large percentage also said they had no place on this site. 

I just can’t understand what all the fuss is about!!  What’s the big deal???  These pics….even the most revealing ones are a long  way from being  pornographic.  I mean for crying out loud look  through an issue of Muscle and Fitness!!!  Plenty  of T&A there!!!  Why shouldn’t these women be proud of their bodies…..except for the store bought parts most of them probably worked hard to get them.  Here’s a news flash people!!!!  The human body is not dirty and those that show it off proudly are not evil whores and sluts!!  For all you bible thumpers out there…God created man naked and put us in paradise.  God must not have thought nudity was evil!  It was only when man disobeyed God that we saw nudity as dirty…man made nudity dirty and in this country we are still doing it today! 

Another thing I found as funny was people who complain that they are afraid their children will see something inappropriate here.  Well for one I say maybe you should monitor your children a little closer if you’re concerned about what they see.  Do you let them watch MTV or BET or E!!  Ever seen an episode of the Real World???  Now that’s soft core porn!!!

We make nudity dirty!!  If we weren’t so uptight about it no one would think it was dirty…it would be normal.  We have it beaten into our heads from birth that our naked bodies are dirty.  Ever get caught masturbating as a child or perhaps you caught your child doing it.  Did you get yelled at or did you yell at your child and tell them it was nasty and normal people didn’t do such nasty things??  I guarantee you if we embraced our nudity and our sexuality there would be  a lot less pervs  in this world.  If it was no longer looked upon as dirty or nasty you basically remove the reason that  people act that way.  They do it because they do consider it dirty and forbidden.

What I really want to know is where are all the people who think the pics here are acceptable???  I know you’re out there….just look at the thousands of hits the Top 6 women get each and everyday!!  Let’s hear from you people!!  Why aren’t you speaking out???  If you’re like me and think a little T&A is fine speak up!  Stick up for your favorites for crying out loud. 

I would like to make one thing clear though.  We are just guest here at BB.com.  The owners of this site sets the ground rules and we should all obey them.  A little debate never hurt anyone though!!

If you would like to read my earlier blog on this subject scroll down.  I wrote it just a few short days ago.  It’s titled Homophobia and Age discrimination!!    

"B" 

Since my last post I’ve received lots of Pm’s from people telling me how sorry they are about the way my dad treated me growing up and how horrible it must have been to have a dad like that who abused me and my mother.  It’s true it was pretty bad and BTW I appreciate everyone of you who PMed me or who left a sympathetic comment but I’m here to tell ya now, don’t feel bad for me!

Yeah it sucked and there were times I didn’t think I could take one more second of it.  I even sat in my room once with a loaded 12 gauge shotgun waiting for my dad to burst through that door one more time and start in on me again….bound and determined to pull the trigger if he did!!  Fortunately for both of us he didn’t come through the door that night!  The reason I say don’t feel bad for me is that if not for my dad I wouldn’t be the man I am today. 

His cruelty made me one tough SOB who could take a punch and keep on coming!  In several years of boxing no one has ever hit me harder than my old man!  NO ONE!!  His lack of compassion for those weaker than him has made me a man who has nothing but compassion for those who are weaker than myself.  His inability to show love to his wife and children has made enabled me to love mine more than life itself….especially my children.

My dad had an incredible work ethic that he passed on to me as well.  You didn’t call into work sick unless you were on your way to the morgue!  And, no matter how shitty the task you just did it and didn’t complain.  If you were a real man you never whined or complained….you just did what was expected of you.

My dad was a product of his environment!  He was raised tough and that was the only thing he knew.  I think the main reason my father and I clashed so much is that I thought for myself and didn’t just accept his way of thinking as he just accepted his fathers way of thinking.  My dad never could changed and I think that is what pissed him off the most! 

My dad did have his moments.  He showed me the beauty of the outdoor life.  Camping, fishing and hunting were his passions and he found peace there.  Other than shooting Bambi and Thumper who couldn’t shoot back….the only time he wasn’t on the verge of a violent episode is when he was in the woods.  The few times that he wasn’t working and would come to one of my sporting events….he cheered like a mad man and always made me feel proud!  And when my brother and I was invited to the St Louis Cardinals invitation only  try out camp in St. Louis my dad footed the bill and sent both of us on our way with a pat on the back for encouragement!    Beats his foot being broke off in my ass any day!!  LOL!

So you see my dad in some weird ass way actually did what dads are suppose to do.  Mold their children into productive and respected adults.  Most parents do it with love mine did it with intimidation and violence.  So don’t feel too bad for me…it all worked out!!  I’m a much better man for having endured and I’ve passed that on to my children breaking the cycle of violence! 

"B" 

Well here we are at the end of another year…just a  few short days before Christmas.  For the most part Christmas has always been a pretty crappy holiday for me.  My favorite grandma died on Christmas Eve….my dad once tried to kill my mom on Christmas Eve and when 16 year old me stepped in to protect my mom he tried to kill me.  Awwwwww memories!!  Good times….good times!!! 

Actually most of my childhood memories were violent.  We didn’t get spankings we got beatings…the kind that left stripes on your ass and the backs of your legs.  We also didn’t get time outs we got knocked out!!!  Seriously!!  My dad once punched me in the head hard enough that I went out for about 10 minutes.  He thought he killed me and then was pissed when I woke up because I scared him!!!  Go figure!! 

He left my mom after 17 years of abuse leaving her to raise 4 kids with no job skills and very little prospects.  My mom got a job as a nurses aid in a nursing home…worked her way up to an LPN and eventually an RN!!  And she didn’t start till she was in her 40’s!! 

My brother and my sisters and I didn’t make it easy on her either.  We went wild once my dad left.  It was nothing for me to take off for an entire summer and then show up just in time for the new school year.  I don’t know how my poor mom kept her sanity!!!  Somehow she did though and always managed to make sure we had what we needed…especially at Christmas!!  I remember one year she got me an album of what she thought was the Beatles cause she knew I loved the Beatles.  Actually it was a cover album….It was Floyd Kramer plays the Beatles!!! For those of you who do not know Floyd Kramer is a pianist who does mostly country  music!!!  Oh My God it was horrible but I played that album constantly because I couldn’t stand the thought that my mother might be hurt if she knew how bad I hated that album.  I pray she never knew!!

My wife gave me my fondest Christmas memory a few years ago.  We were going through a pretty tough time…I was laid off from the aircraft plant where I worked and money was tight as hell.  We wanted to make sure the kids had Christmas so we agreed that we would concentrate on them and not worry about each other.  My wife would have no part of that though and came up with a very sneaky plan.

KFDI was the number one radio station in Wichita and at the time had a morning DJ by the name of Cornbread who had just won a CMA for DJ of the year!  Needless to say he was very popular.  Well every morning he would play the National Anthem and would sometimes have local celebs come in and sing it live!  I had commented to my wife several times that I had always dreamed of singing the National Anthem at a major sporting event like the Superbowl or some crap and that comment stuck in her mind! 

She wrote an e-mail to Cornbread telling him of our situation and our agreement and my desire to sing the Anthem on a national stage.  So Cornbread had me and my wife come in on Christmas Eve and I sang the National Anthem on the radio and then hung out with the dude for a while shooting the breeze on the radio!!  I was so choked up by the sentiment of what my wife had done without me knowing that I was almost reduced to tears while I struggled to sing.  Cornbread even had tears in his eyes!!!  It was  all pretty fu**ing glorious!!!  Some of the best presents don’t come with fancy paper and bows!!!  I doubt I’ll ever have a better Christmas present than that one!!  My wife is pretty cool sometimes!!  LOL!!  Merry Christmas everyone!!

"B"     

Was kind of bored this afternoon so I was surfing the web to see what kind of wierd crap I could find and found this article on insane medical prcatices.  I thought this one was pretty funny so thought I would share with all my friends.  I think you’ll enjoy it.  Man would I have loved to be a doc in the 19th century….the following would have been my specialty!!

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 Women and their mood swings, right guys? Right? You know what we’re saying. Now, if you happen to be female don’t be offended, there’s no shame in admitting to the occasional bit of moodiness as according to 19th century doctors it’s a symptom of a deadly serious medical condition (along with other symptoms such as nervousness, irritability and the dreaded "tendency to cause trouble"). That’s right ladies, you may be a victim of female hysteria and not even know it.

So, how exactly do you cure a so-called “condition” that coincidentally was diagnosed almost entirely to women who dared disobey their Victorian husbands? Glad you asked. The prescription for female hysteria was usually a good spot of doctor administered vaginal massage until the woman achieved “hysterical paroxysm.”

Yes that’s right, the cure for female hysteria was a doctor’s hand down your bloomers until you weren’t only thinking of England but screaming its name. Is it any wonder the list of symptoms for female hysteria was so long, literally any ailment could fit the diagnosis? In those sexually repressed times visiting the doctor’s office must have been like a trip to Disneyland for most women.

Doctors of the day on the other hand were apparently, I don’t know, gay or something since they actually objected to women’s frequent desire to be "cured" by their magic fingers. Their solution to alleviate hand strain? They invented the vibrator, and thus this article comes to a happy ending.

Have a nice day!!

"B" 

"Sticks and Stones may break my bones but names will never hurt me!!"  Really???  Is that what you think???  When will people learn just how powerful words truly are.

The right words can hurt someone just like a well placed brick up side the head…which is what should happen to the a-holes that sling these hurtful words indiscriminately. 

They seem harmless enough…ugly, stupid, fat, retard, queer…just words right?? 

Well I wonder how many kids in this country cry themselves to sleep every night because somebody at school called them one of those names.  Maybe you did it when you were in school…or maybe you were one of the poor kids who cried every night because they didn’t wear the latest jeans or shoes.  Or had really bad acne or wore glasses or braces…or were fat!!  Just words???

Maybe you heard in the news recently about the mother who created a MySpace and posed as a 13 year old boy to see what the kids at school were saying about her daughter.  She befriended a 13 year old girl who a lot of the kids at school made fun of.  One of those kids was her daughter.  She made this poor 13 year old girl fall in love with this fake boy and then dumped her in the worst possible way she could by calling her names…like fat and ugly.  This little girl was devastated.  Remember being 13 and thinking you were in love???  Remember how it felt when it ended???  It hurt like hell.  This poor little girl was so heart broken that she hung herself before she found out it was all just a joke.  Some Joke!!!  That women is as guilty of murder than if she had placed a gun to that child’s head and pulled the trigger.  The law says she did nothing illegal and I have to admit that is true.  she broke no law as far as man is concerned but she will answer to a higher authority some day because what she did was wrong on so many levels.  I hope she sees this poor child in her dreams every night for the rest of her life. 

I spoke today with a good friend who is a member of the site.  She is very sweet, very beautiful and has worked her butt off to have the awesome figure she has today!  She should be praised for what she has accomplished but instead she was ready to quit and say to hell with the entire bodybuilding community because of some hateful remarks she has received.  Here is a women…a gorgeous women who has turned her life and health around and because of words she is ready to chuck it all!!  How sad….just words, right?? 

What the hell is the matter with people.  Is it so hard to just keep your mouth shut and keep your hurtful remarks to yourself.  Do they take some sort of perverse pleasure by inflicting hurt on others…to make them squirm…make them cry???  Does it make them feel better about themselves because they are miserable must they make someone else miserable. 

Sticks and Stones may break my bones….and sometimes words can kill you!!  Try to remember that!!

So sorry for the rant but I really like this young lady and she deserves so much better than that.  Let’s all try to be a little nicer today and do what we can to encourage others.  Try to remember that there is good in almost everyone and we should try to emphasize that and not focus on their short comings.  Even Hard Core Muthas have feelings!

"B"