Does This Mirror Make My A$$ Look Big???
I"ve often wondered how someone with an eating disorder, who is skeleton thin, could look into a mirror and still think they are fat. They look like they have just been liberated from a concentration camp and yet all they see is a fat person staring back at them. What kind of insanity grips a person and causes them to starve themselves to death???? Are they oblivious to their own reflection??? I’ve truly never understood how a person could do that to themselves…..till now!!!
I am not anorexic by any stretch of the imagination and I am certainly not poking fun or making lite of anyone who suffers from this horrible disease but….everytime I look in the mirror all I see is that fat ass 248lb blob of disgusting blubber that I used to be. It’s driving me crazy!!!! People are complmenting me left and right telling me how much I’ve changed and how good I look and yet when I look in that damn mirror I want to scream and run out to the garage and knock out 4 or 5 sets of squats and deadlifts!!!! Is this normal???? Did anyone else out there feel this way when they first started lifting????
I don’t know what the deal is……I’ve always been my toughest critic…..I’ve known that for a long time. I had a coach tell me once that he didn’t need to kick my ass whenever I made a mistake because I would always do it for him!
I don’t know…..maybe I should stop looking in the damn mirror for awhile. I know this feeling will pass, I hope….maybe when I start making some major progress.
I don’t think I’m cracking up or anything….least I hope not…I guess I’m just impatient and want to see changes overnight. I know though that that’s not gonna happen soooooo I’ll just keep busting my ass and hope that someday soon that fatboy gets the hell out of my mirror!!!
July 25, 2007 at 8:49 pm
Your statement "I guess I’m just impatient and want to see changes overnight." sums up the feelings that i would guess 99% of us on here have. Its either i am ripped but only 75kg, or i am 110kg but too fat, or I have just dieted down 12kg in 4 weeks and now iam am skinny but still fat. Bodybuilding is in its own way a disorder, that is it takes simple and everyday tasks, like just simply eating to survive and strips it down and scientifically builds it back up, to the extreme. But in a world of instant gratification it is one of the hardest concepts to embrace because it takes so much time and more importantly mental effort. But like anything in the real world, the getting there is the greatest challange to a result that you will never be happy with anyway, so enjoy the journey.
July 26, 2007 at 3:45 am
Bryan, you are not alone, trust me. We are always our worst critics and I think we still see the old without any changes because we know that picture best. We see in our mind the outcome pic and want that so bad but when we look in the mirror and see the progress pic, because it’s not the outcome pic, we see the before pic. If that makes any sense. At least that’s me most of the time. : ) You’re making excellent progress. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Keep up the good work
July 26, 2007 at 8:25 am
I can totally relate, Bryan. I’m 5′8"-ish and 130 pounds. People say I look great, but that’s because they are comparing me to what I used to look like. I see in my mind what I want to look like and it doesn’t include the fat on my butt and hips, the stubborn fat that won’t go away…all l see when I look in the mirror…I’m obsessed with it. Honestly, I wouldn’t mind putting on 20 pounds if I could just get rid of THAT fat!! Anyway, I think what you’re experiencing is frustration cause you see where you’re going…you know you’ll get there, but it takes time. No, you’re not insane!