154 days to go - Weeks run so fast…
Well I almost have no time to write. Also no energy. And nothing to write at all.
Weeks are boring and slowly run away. The big hollidays strated for kids on schools, but I am in the job 5 years now… I will be in the full job 6th year in August. So for me are no hollidays… In fact I had no hollidays in a row of 3 years. I spent my vacation on precontest weeks usually.
Last week we were out for 3 days so it was something new and refreshing. But now I am again in the circle of training - eating - cardio and job… and noting new happends here….
On thursady I had a bad talk with my coach. I thought he will kick me again as I am really horrible sometimes. I am not a nice person…. I wanted to go to Universe and I am still in precontest now. But he is really hardly against that. He told me he wanted to push me back to IFBB. And I said never! Plus I still have shortened money in my job. So when he asked me if I have some extra money to spent for competitions (and he told me how much) I had to say no… But it will be not better… I have to count and live how I lived since now. I have no bank loans anymore - and that is good.
Also he shouted that NAC Universe is only a second class competition in the second class federation.. So I told him that I know that I AM THE SECOND CLASS COMPETITOR FOR ALL (INCLUDING HIM) AND SO I BELONGS TO THE SECOND CLASS FEDERATION ON THE SECOND CLASS STAGE OF THE SECOND CLASS COMPETITION….
Later I had some messages from him but I did not answer them yet. I dont know what to say. Off course he is true in some things…. But I still have a bad feelings and my motivation is again blown away….
