167 days, 24th week… When will this end up?
Yesterday I had really good mood. Specialist helped me with my back problems and as a bonus he helped me with my old "horse" injury, so my left arm has the full range of motion again…After 8 years.
I started the day with cardio and physiotherapy exercises and I went to the job. I had clear meals all the day and I really wanted to start as a rocket…
But than the day turned wrong. I missed the post service - I did not sent one letter. I had to hurry to the bank and I came to the gym late. Maybe it was a reason why I neglected the warm-up or maybe it was just my destiny, but when I did side laterals with 33 lbs dumbells I heared a sound as from Velcro fastener in my right shoulder. Than I almost fainted because of the pain. I stopped for a while and than I tried to train arms, but my mind was somewhere else… I could not focus on what I am doing and the pain was still sharper and bigger. I quitted training, because I had some discussion with Daniel - who told me that I am stupid when I am training against the pain…
I had to use some painkillers in the dressing room. I have the permanent box there in the gym - so I have there some things all the time. I dont need to take it in the bag. And I have there one gel, with some painkillers in it. I used almost half of the bottle on my shoulder - as I felt the pain also in my right latissimus and traps. It helped a little bit but I still had big troubles when I had to dress off my t-shirt.
I called my coach imediatelly and he told me I may have ripped or stretched muscle or a little bit damaged nerve and neural connections between the muscle and spinal nerve. He told me I may train with it - but it will prolong my recovery. So he suggested me to keep it in warm and have a break 14 days from training of the upper body. F*** ! (I am sorry but I am desperate).
Off course he is right that it is better, that it happened on the beginning, than few days precontest. But it was really the last drop to the bottle. At home I took a really warm bath and I massaged the shoulder with the massage shower stream… And cried almost for one hour. I felt out of the game again. And I thought if it has some sence to do this sport, when I am still hurt or something. I feel so fragile against others. I am tired by the neverending problems.
After the bath pains were better. I cooked my meat and did my evening cardio. At least I may still do the cardio and eat clear, and this is necessary for me - as I need to be leaner. It was funny when I was doing my cardio with a bowl full of raw bloody grounded beef, mixed it by my hand with some spice - bud I really had no time to cook and I prepared all from the bike 
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Today pain is localized only to 3 or 4 places. I still hear it crackles and there is a small green bruise under my right blade-bone… but I hope it WILL heal. Today I did morning cardio and I will continue with leg training today and 45 + 90 minutes of cardio again. I still continue - through all the problems I have to solve all the time now.
