6th Day - New me: People are changing
Well I wanted to write here something really „funny“ about how I wrote about the great weather here and I had to go to the gym in the storm, and I came in summer skirt and tank top totally wet. 
But I think it is not important now.
And fact is that I have no idea what to write about. It is a Friday today, I am lazy and I have two free days in front of me. Some steam and whirlpool again on Sunday. I feel sleepy…
I gained legs but also butt a lot – having now realy a squat butt and thigs as a horse. I expect when I will achieve 70cm (27,6“) …. And I know I will have to focus on my soulders and lats because of that. I dont want my butt be the same measurement or bigger than the chest measurement! Now I have 17cm (6.7“) difference… and I have still 38cm (14.9“) difference between chest and waist and 21cm (8“) between the waist and hips…. That is not a bad ratio at all, but I want to make it better too.
I also read my previous Blog posts from October and November and December….. I have erased the posts from 2006 and rest of 2007 – but I was surprised how much I changed in such a short time. I know that in THAT time I really felt what I wrote…. But some words are not me now. I feel like I was a child, crying for everything…. Everything what was not so important….
I think that I changed a lot during the years. I am still not perfect. I am not a machine, I cheat in food, I cry when I feel down and still I think about if the bodybuilding was a right choice for me… But I see that even if not – I can not imagine to be without it. So I will do it – never mind how my genetics is. And I see all those things not so „tragic“ as I had seen before. I can enjoy all the time better now… I am able to train much more harder for example. If I cry – it is now more ironic. I say it as a joke – and feel it not so much „bad“ as I used to do….
I think that the biggest „tough“ personality I found during the illness. When we are down we probbably run on some more harder „survival“ mode. Now I did a small step back – but still the piece of the wild beast stayed with me.
Hard to say how big influence have my coach and how big influence had the illness and all things around I had to come through…
But I like it how it is now. (Except the fact I had to miss a year )
