5th Day - Small talks about mottos :)
Well it is a nice day today, I had a good training yesterday, I had morning cardio and now I am in the job, I have my job done and I am waiting for the afternoon bussiness meeting. In fact I jumped out of the witer clothes to my summer clothes - because the temepratures here are summer-high. Today I am going to train my legs+shoulders+abs. I am thinking of letting legs as the last, because squats are really makes me energyless. But probbably they really works because since my return to trainings I gained almost 4cm (1.6″) around my thigh. And it is solid mass no fat. I lost the same measurement around the waist and hips.
That all makes me more optimistic. Todays food is more “junk” - well not really but I was too tired to cook so I bought 450g of grilled chicken breasts and some wholecorn bread (200g). And I have it in my job today. But I think that when I get rid of the skin it is all right and small amounts of fat offseason are good for the health. Too low fat intake in food may cause problems with hormonal synthesis and some vitamines.
So I think about mottos I had here during those years. I started with this few years ago. In 2006 first. Motto was always some citate which was above me. Something I was not able to do - but I tried to achieve it.
In the past I had “I did it because I could, I could because I wanted to, I wanted to because you said I couldnt” - This was the motto in 2006 when I fight with many people who did not trust me to get back on stage after 6 years. This people told me I could not be a Figure anymore. Yes I lost that competition, but I did it. I stood as a Figure on stage on the real competition.
I had also the motto I think out myself “When you want to reach the Eden, than you have to go through the Hell” - It was in 2007. The athmosphere around me was very bad. And I knew that when I want to find the way out it will be a Hell. Got not only through the pain and misery during the diet and training - which had to be harder than I ever had - but also through the hate I had around. It was a quest for me and first time I wrote this as a motto here. I trained I&I like system of trainings, I had no carb diet and hours and hours of cardio. I had nobody to cheer for me, no coach, no friends to support me…. I really came through it and found the Eden at the end on the first international contest I ever did.
Last motto you might read here was “Exitus in dubio est, audebimus ultima - How it will end up I dont know but with neverending courage I will try it!” - May also be translated as - when the goal you have seems to be not real, you have to have neverending courage to go for it. If you will, you may achieve even what seems to be untouchable. This motto was connected to Universe. I never thought I will be on Universe one day. Universe was something unbeatable. Something from the world of dreams…. And I got the offer to try it. First days it really made me down - because I had no courage to try fly so high. But than I found this motto as it happens and I found a great gear in it. When you have something big before you have to take all courage you have to climb on the mountain. I climbed.
Now I have two mottos - “ CREDENDO VIDES - By believing, one sees.” - this one belonged to the competition in Spring I can not go now - you all knows why. But I let it. Because I still fight with the lack of faith. Not religional, but faith to myself. I dont believe I may be the top and push my body under 10% of bodyfat. But I am trying to believe and be obey to my coach and D-J. So this motto says, that when you really strongly believe in something, you may see it will happen. I let it as my motto still, because I could not reach it.
Second motto is from G.I.Jane film. “I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A bird will fall frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself.” - I took this motto now after my return back to the gym. It reminds me that when you really want to go further you can not still feel sorry for what happened. I still feel the sadness when I am looking back - how I looked 11 weeks precontest and where I maybe might be…. but it is a question nobody will answer to me. I might be good or bad. I might do a mistake or go right… But when now I want to return back I can not feel sorry for the things past even for myself now. I can not feel sorry for myself when it hurts. I can not feel sorry for myself when I can not compete this year. I have to go further… and see the future. That is the only way out.
