BrennanL’s BodyBlog

I thought I would post this here for no other reason than I wanted to…. Working out has been my way of dealing with stress in my life….. When I run I think about anyone who has ever hurt me or treated me like crap….. And depending on the situation I am either running on their face or running away…..

This has worked for a really long time….. And yet today I couldn’t go because I thought I might actually break…… I am a strong willed person. I hate to cry I hate to show that I am upset…. But this month so far has kicked my butt from begining to end, and I need new motivation. I need something in my life to take the place of dating because obviously I am not cut out to be that person…..

So maybe if I get this out here maybe I can go to the gym tomorow with a new attitude so please don’t yell at me for putting it in here when its all supposed to be about fitness…. Because part of Fitness is a strong mind, a strong will, and a balanced body inside and out. Physically, mentally and emotionally.

Alright so here we go…. I went on sabatical from dating after my last attempt at a relationship in December, I was stood up and treated like a pathetic piece of meat only worth one thing….. Then months later a guy I had really liked called and said he wanted to try again this time with no games and I believed him… There should never be a second chance. So obviously that ended badly… With no phone call no reason just dropped…. Well then today I had been talking to this guy for about a week and a half and we had plan to go hiking and that stuff and then this morning while I was at work I get a text message that says " I think you are an amazing woman and I would have loved to find out what type of relationship we could have had, but I am getting into an exclusive relationship with someone."

Ok  yes he was honest I give him that… But why why why why if this happened in such a short period did he even bother talking to me, or leading me on after I had told him what I was looking for….. And he agreed to it…… So yes still single still getting thrown lines of BS and just ready to give up……

Normally working out helps me deal with this type of stuff and the stuff that I deal with at work… But come one you can only run so much and lift so much weight before you are a pile of goo in the gym….. This is why I didn’t go today and not sure if I can tomorow…….

If there is any advice anyone can give me to keep me from being an idiot I would really appriate it… Because turning into a sappy pile of goo in the gym is just not what I want to do.

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