Obsessed
I saw something today in a blog, something about being obsessed with fitness at the expense at other facets of life..and I wonder; am I that kind of person? Am I obsessed? I’m not so sure, but I do feel deeply driven.
The fact is, I do desire to be the absolute best I can be at this and my life actually seems to support that. I don’t have family nearby, I share a house with my brother and mother, that is the extent of immediate family. No girlfriend/wife and all my nearby friends are at the church. My mom is unemployed, and my brother and I combined make enough to get by with very little left over. After titheing, offerings and expenses I have just enough for the gym and my supplements, which consisits of just whey protein and creatine, which I cycle on and off of. I work nights, which leaves me the mornings to train. 3 hours in the morning for training, afternoons for prayer and Scripture(and a nice nap) and nights for making$$$ (or bodyspace, if I am off that day) God has moved things around to help me acheive my dreams, so there is NO excuse to not succeed!
I’ve been driven to do this for a long time, even before I actually started! You could call it a need, to go beyond being fit and becoming a force of nature. I see other guys at the gym, and they are more handsome, cooler and more smooth, they get the girls and they make more money; that is all fine. They have there blessings and I have mine, praise the Lord. But when they have more muscle or better strength, that is where I draw the line! To get that takes hard work and dedication, and that is where I will not be outdone, NO WAY!
And that is where that deep driven desire comes in, I must OUTWORK them! When these guys reach their quitting point, when the pain is too much; that is where I am just getting started! If I fail, it’s not because of my genetics, lack of coolness or anything God has chosen to give or not; but I fail by not USING that golden talent that the Lord gave me. Work+Faith=results, everytime. The Lord God did not give us all the same genetic adtvantages, but He gave us the talent to work hard for what we want, and what you get out of it is what you put in, regardless of how you start out.
Yes, when it comes to this fitness thing I guess I am a little obsessed:)
