Walking on the Fence
I’m thinking about a conversation I had at work with a young woman named Katy, a cute red-head with bright blue eyes. I saw her pull out some rolling papers, and as a former pot head, I know what those were for! Anyway, I mention that I was four months sober, and that I had wanted to quit because I was tired of feeling blah all the time. I mentioned that not matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t, because part of me still liked it and wanted to do it…but then I got baptized in the name of Jesus Christ, and still smoked it for another week; then one day, POOF…I simply stopped; that powerful desire was gone! She actually listened, interested in hearing my testimony…
She mentioned that she was raised baptist, and thought that it was cool that I wanted to do more with my life and start putting the Lord first…she also used to lift weights and we talked about weight training/bodybuilding as well. We also talked about church and worship, but when I asked about her going to church she said something that kinda stuck
‘’I'm not really looking for religion right now, I can always come back to God later."
Some thoughts I have are, a) we are all seeking something
and b) you can only walk a fence so long before you fall!
You see, marijuana WAS my religion, when I was depressed or angry, I would get high to numb myself, when I was happy, I would get high to celebrate…I had low self-esteem, so I would sleep w/ girls who weren’t neccesarily good for me…all this was a religion. Even bodybuilding; I started out when I was still using, thinking that big muscles would improve my self-esteem…the problem was that I was depending on all these things for my joy and self worth!
In life, we all have a religion! But let us not base our faith in things that pass away and bring only temporary happiness at best; but let your religion be based on faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, who was God in the flesh and gave that flesh as a sacrifice for our salvation. God is love, God never fails, and God knows us better than ourselves and He knows what we need!
If any of my brothers and sisters read this, please pray for Katy that she may run back to God before it is too late! God bless you all.
December 23, 2008 at 11:00 am
it’s never too late. There is no time frame, why do so many think there is this urgent rush to find God. We all have our own road to travel, she will find her religion by her own will alone, just like you did.