BrandonM.B’s BodyBlog

   After slipping up late Saturday night, it occurred to me that all the painful memories and past failures had become too much to deal with on my own. All the therapy in the world was not going to repair the damage, I had become spiritually very NEAR DEATH!  So I did something difficult.

I got out of bed early Sunday and went to a little church three blocks from my home. I hadn’t been to church in almost a year, apostate religion had turned me off so badly.  I already beleived in Jesus as the son of God, but being alone with an intellectual beleif hadn’t done any good, I was and possibly already had lost my mind.  So I risked it; I needed other people so bad, I was desperate.

This little church was everything I could hope for!  There is an atmosphere of joy, a sense of freedom; no signs of apostasy at all. The people are warm and supportive. They use the divine names(Jehova,Yeshua)  in prayer, and they engage in charitable efforts around the world(amazing, since this place is tiny without a lot of funding, it’s basically a double wide mobile home with a altar and a baptismal font.)  After four years of searching for a congregation, I found one. I got baptized, letting the old creature die so that new could begin life again, unfettered by the otherwise irrevocable damage of the past.  

I am grateful to God for doing this for me. These are great people to be friends with, positive, supportive and fun. (and fit and healthy to boot!)  I also have a chance to contribute something as well. While I am so apppreciative of the support of the people on bodyspace, i did need some people in my own backyard to connect with, and I got what i needed.

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