admitting when you have a problem
Here goes….
Ever since I was eighteen I’ve had a little drug problem. For the most part I’ve managed to keep it under control, but I realize that what once was a part of life is now starting to CONTROL IT! This is really hard to write. Regular people don’t even know, cause I look in really great shape. But the reality is I’m an addict. I workout sober, I work sober; but after a certain hour of the night, goodbye sober.
I’ve managed to stop smoking cigarettes this year, but this problem is way more more urgent. It WILL ruin my life if I do not do something about it. That is what my heart is telling me. I see amazing progress on the surface, but my body is telling me my performance IS starting to suffer, and it won’t be too long before I hit a major wall. They say the first step is admitting when you have a problem. I think I was waiting for the right time to do it, but I can’t keep putting it off. I have to listen to body and my heart, that I have to take that first step now.
June 9, 2008 at 3:21 pm
There never is a right time to do it otherthan just doing it-period. Not tomorrow or next week. Those are just excuses. Atleast you admit you have a problem. I realized I had a problem about 2-3 months ago and I have had this problem for years. I kept telling myself that I need to handle it and I kept putting it off. Finally, someone came to me first and that got me going. I’m tired of my ill decisions. They are making me depressed and destroying my life. However, I just kept waiting for the right time. It doesn’t work that way. I’m thankful someone reached out to me. It hasn’t been easy, but it’s better than waiting for somehing bad to happen. Whatever your problem is there are other people going through the same thing or have been there before. You can find selfhelp places or groups to help you get through it. Sometimes it’s easier to get going if you have someone else kicking your butt. Otherwise, you still might be waiting "for the right time" to do it.
June 11, 2008 at 6:08 pm
Brandon, yes I agree that prayer is important. You have taken the first step. There will be many more baby steps along the way. You are NOT alone. There are people on this site who are amazingly supportive. Keep reaching out. Change your life TODAY!
Carla