BooTz_60’s BodyBlog

I really dont. There are some times where I’m so good. When I’m so strick on my diet, when I lift hard, run hard, do what I need to do… and I’m happy with myself.

There are other times that I binge, I dont lift, I dont run… I eat nonstop even though I know I shouldnt and dont want to. Sweets are my kryptonite. I cant resist, and it takes me down. I’m afraid that my love for food outweighs my want to be more fit and look better. Ultimately though, I want to be more healthy. With heart disease running in my family, I dont want to help it kill me by eating like shit (even though I am only 23).

I’m a normal person, I’m not a bodybuilder. I’m an athlete (Thank God! Or else I would be 350 pounds), I do like to lift, I hate cardio - like everyone else, but I enjoy lifting. I hate going to the gym, but once I’m there I make the most of it. I get home from work late usually and dont wanna go to the gym, lately I havent been going at all. I have a serious motivation problem. You would think that when I cant or dont go to the gym, I’d eat better… nope- All the wheels fall off at once. It goes in waves though a month on, a month off, 3 months on, 3 months off… I cant keep it going. I have a problem.

Im sure I’m not the only one like this. I’m not the first person or the last to talk about motivation. I’ve tried to set goals, I set them and miss them, just shrug it off. I dont know what it is. I’m afraid its just me not caring, even though I think I do.

Is there any way to deal with what I’m going through at the moment? Any pointers? I dont mean to complain here… I need a lifestyle change